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I dont understand how I can feel high as a kite for half of the day and feel this rotten for the rest. Nothing even triggered me or made me feel bad. I am seriously fucked in the head

its come to the point to where i have suicidal thoughts every day if I am alone

not sure what to do anymore

i want to hang myself

i want to let go of my paranoia and my anxiety

jangojim

There’s something really satisfying about the colorful chaos of testing paint markers on scrap paper.

I love it when he calls me mommy I could mommykink 24/7 tbh

#nsfw #mommy kink #little boy #little

Sometimes I miss how care free a drink at the end of the day made me but then I realize that there are healthy ways to relax too. Hook myself up with some mindful meditation some incense tarot tea and a warm bath tbh

My nails are bitten down and I have a lot of stress pains but I look in the mirror and feel rejuvenated because I feel really sexy even with all the weight I've gained 😘

#I'm my own biggest fan rn tbh #body positivity

I think I have to accept the fact that I’ll never have a friend that lacks some ulterior motive. Anyone who gets close to me wants something from me or wants to destroy something that I have. I’m tired of people only measuring my worth in terms of being able to fulfil their romantic or sexual needs, needs that are not accepted as blatantly unrequited. No one is actually interested in me as a person. I am worth so much as a friend I am a great person but that has been overlooked as a secondary aspect far too many times. I am so fed up with people feeling like they are entitled to my affections almost to the point of me wanting to make some kind of anonymous persona online to seek out some kind of friendly companionship, but thats a stupid waste of time. I’m brought back to the evening I spent on my hammock looking up at the stars alone thinking about all the people under the same sky who were making and strengthening bonds together, tears rolled down my cheeks one after another as I felt everyone's presence in the world without me. I am getting familiar with this feeling as the twilit sky darkens, tonight will be lonely.

don’t waste your time waiting around for people if they are doing their own thing, even if you care for them and miss them.

do your own thing too and the sensation of them popping back up for you will be much sweeter.