Winter Solstice

Neil Brian graduated from a blue flying college. the gentle giant photography lover medicine student soon-to-be doctor tall guy with thousand words optimist thinker ECOwarrior wondrous traveler an aspiring chef :) Read my other Blog! my personal blog :D www.yellowpolaroid.tumblr.com

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Ang dami ko gustong ikwento pero wala naman akong ka-kwentuhan :(

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Best of Boracay restaurants are here in Manila for a Pop-up month (until August 15, 2018)!!! This classic @cocomamaboracay's Coconut Ice Cream with Mango should is a must grab before it goes away! Two scoops of fresh, sweet coconut milk ice cream with buko meat, sticky rice and sweet mangoes served inside a coconut shell. The summer is out but this fresh dessert is totally in! #SpoonsAroundTheWorld #FilipinoFoodMovement #SavorFilipino . . . . #vsco #flatlay #foodvsco #beach #dessert #foodbeast #Philippines #icecream #eeeeeats #huffposttaste #buzzfeast #f52grams #ItsMoreFunInThePhilippines #pepperph #forkspoonmanila #adventure #travel #thefoodiestation #Coconut #spotmyfood #foodpics #foodphotography #foodbassador #Boracay #foodtrailph #starvingfoodseeker #dailyfoodfeed (at Coco Mama)

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From 1 to 10, gaano ka kalutong ang balat ng fried chicken na pinag-awayan ni Popoy at Basha? 😂😂😂 Kasing lutong ba nitong Hamilton from @searedph? Crispy Buttermilk Fried Chicken served with parmesan buttered corn! Tara! Kain! #SpoonsAroundTheWorld . . . ---------------- #vsco #flatlay #foodvsco #instafood #foodgram #foodbeast #foodie #feedfeed #eeeeeats #huffposttaste #buzzfeast #f52grams #onthetable #pepperph #forkspoonmanila #adventure #travel #thefoodiestation #beautifulcuisines #zomatoph #spotmyfood #foodpics #foodphotography #foodbassador #bookymanila #tryitordiet #starvingfoodseeker #dailyfoodfeed (at Seared Restaurant & Lounge)

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Blood Line Limit #OBGYNE #ClerkshipStories (at Quirino Memorial Medical Center)

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I am Sorry

Three words that can mend long broken connections. Still, the feels.

[psych2go]

13 Things People Don’t Realize You Do Because of Your Anxiety | Psych2Go New Video

[virgovenusvirgosun]

This video just made me cry because I’m tired of my anxiety ruling my life hah

[justanotherhylian]

Everything in this video is my entire life 🙃

[iampapabear]

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA :)))) NOT ALL from the list are APPLICABLE BUT TRYING TO GET OUR OF THIS SO CALLED “ANXIETY” #LABANSELF

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Life Begins at the End of Your Comfort Zone | Yubing Zhang | TEDxStanford

Leaping off buildings wasn’t exactly something graduate student Yubing Zhang ever thought she’d do. But pushing beyond her comfort zone and taking that bunge...

FAK. Pretty sums up the past months. SHET. that last two minutes of the video. Hindi ko rin alam papaano ako napunta sa link na ito; but maybe God is saying something.

Lord, I’m just tired with everything - physically, emotionally, and everything around it. Tired with keeping up and tired of letting down. 

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I was surprised when someone approached me last week to tell me how he bursted into tears with no reason; how he was just tired of the the semester. But hey, Hindi ka nag-iisa. I have moments like that too, my dear friend.

After all of these, I hope it’s still worth it. To fight and fight with uncertainties everywhere. 

But for you, Pat Teng, I’ll fight harder. Hindi pa rito natatapos ang laban for this semester. It’s just the beginning. #walangi19

#MidnightHits #FAKPagodNaPagodNaAko

I’ll be staying here for a while in my comfort zone. #AngLabo pero All out feels muna before the finals week. PUTA, LABAN SELF! Boost up your EQ before clerkship! less than a month left and hindi pwede ganito sa clinics.  

After all this numbness, I hope I can still feel again... for my patients. 

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Hello again “Feels World”

This post is gonna be long. TLDR: Do not read it anymore. It’ll just make you feel sad; which is not the primary goal of this post. BUT.... to release the repressed feelings. So here goes nothing.

I wish more requirements would come that will make me busy from thinking. During these times when there are much less to do, the suppressed feelings overflow.  It has been more or less two years since my questions started. It started with a “WHY. HOW. WHAT. WHEN.” Af first, I didn’t believe the rumors. I trusted my instincts that those were not true. But eventually, now that I am in that situation, I guess there was some truth to it. Actually, there is TRUTH to it.

I’ll be leaving. I’ll be leaving to save myself from my own thoughts of negativity. I guess I have to save some for my own sanity or I’ll be dead by now because of over thinking.

I don’t know why it’s hard to keep things from this highly stressful environment. In one glimpse, I belonged. Two years later, I’m out. Yup, when everyone thinks everything’s fine, nope. It’s not.

i am tired to keep up with the trend which i decided myself that “Heeyyy! Cheer up! May be it’s time to just go with the flow. Not necessarily give up. Just go with the flow.” I was in it yesterday, but now, I’m lost from the circle I was part of. No one cares if I can’t keep up. I even need to pull myself up to the expectations. But, in truth, I’m sorry, I can’t keep up with the standards.

It was hard for me to accept this situation at first. Time was invested, but I guess the investment wasn’t enough. There are more investment needed. But my limit to invest has already been reached. I’m sorry but I can’t keep up.

I’m sorry if I not that kind of person. I’m the type who is different. Different from the usuals, different from everyone. It’s just disappointing that I was once in that circle, but now, I feel I’m an outcast.

What happened?

“It’s a two street, not a one way”

[iampapabear]

Visual Storytelling (at Hungry Meeples Restaurant, Games & Events Place)

[psychquotesss]

Letting go means to come to the realization that some people are a part of your history, but not a part of your destiny.

Steve Maraboli (via psych-facts)

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Less than a hundred days before clerkship and I'm really excited to wear those white coats with you guys! #LEC5 (at Pinto Art Museum)

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Dugo Sentral ng Pilipinas (at Philippine Red Cross)

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BITE INTO CRUNCH with @osakaohshoph's NORI NACHOS!! Japanese themed nachos using Nori as the chips with Japanese mayo, red ginger, gyoza filling, and our favorite bonito flakes!! 😍 Bite and bite until you finish them all! HAPPY SUNDAY DINNER, guys! (at Osaka Ohsho)

[iampapabear]

Garfield. HAHAHAHA! First time to food photoshoot from a legit client who is selling lasagna! Yaaaayyyy! 💵💰😂 . . . Food styling, flatlay and photography by Neil Brian Zafra

[iampapabear]

Thank you Lord for Instagram and Tumblr! My destressor! Hihihi!

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Korean themed Potluck lunch to start off our Neonatology Module and first meeting for our Korea trip this coming June! All homecooked! Yaaayyyy! #SpoonsAroundTheWorld . . . #vsco #vscocam #foodvsco #instafood #foodgram #foodbeast #japchae #foodie #feedfeed #eeeeeats #flatlay #buzzfeast #f52grams #onthetable #pepperph #forkspoonmanila #adventure #travel #kimchi #beautifulcuisines #korean #spotmyfood #foodpics #foodphotography #foodbassador #matcha #yakult #starvingfoodseeker #lunch (at Ateneo School of Medicine and Public Health)

[iampapabear]

APT. As Always :)