now let me go... (archived) @iamtheprotagoneil - Tumblr Blog

masterpost of things i’ve written/made:

my fics: (tagged as *my fics)

Night Plans (pwp | 2.2k | rated E)

everything i wanted (hurt/comfort | 1.5k | rated G)

Two Wrongs, One Right (at a cost) (angst | 5.5k | rated M)

speak of him over my grave and watch how he brings me back to life (post-canon fix-it | drabble | rated G)

(part 2) this afterlife of you and i (inspired by art | 2k | rated G)

i care for you still and i will forever (that was my part of the deal) (hurt/comfort | 2.9k | rated M)

i tell my piano the things i used to tell you (character study | 1.8k | rated T)

y yo voy, voy, voy (pwp | 6.3k | rated E)

my edits: (tagged as *my edits)

protagoneil + name etymology

incorrect quotes:

protagoneil + incorrect tweets

tenet agents + who’s watching

tenet agents + incorrect facebook posts

tenet agents + incorrect messages

jdw + one (1) earring

jdw + that liberace-ass robe

jdw + no shirt

jdw + white muscle tee

my ramblings: (tagged as *my ramblings)

THE protagoneil song (still don’t know my name by labrinth)

the name saga:

how neil could very well not be nel’s real name

where the name neil could’ve come from

what i would name the protagonist (including a mini fic because i have no self-control)

the meaning behind the protagonist’s name (beloved) and neil’s name (passionate)

a slip of the tongue (neil calling the protagonist beloved in other’s presence) (also including TWO mini-fic because yes, i am insane)

neil being the only one who knows the protagonist’s real name

protagoneil’s first (official) meeting:

neil dropping on tenet’s front doorsteps and demanding to be included

neil seeking out the protagonist to gather intel for mi6

bumping into each other (leave it up to chance)

their encounters in the future (not when the protagonist thought it would be)

about the protagonist:

his upbringing / characterization

perhaps he went to a private school with snobby rich kids

about ives:

ives playing along with neil (it’s written down; it’s all he knows)

the protagonist recruiting ives again

straight best friend ives hc (ives being the good bro that he is, keeping an eye out for our boys)

the hypocenter sequence (in neil’s pov) and its implications

richard siken’s quotes analysis:

planet of love (you’re going to die in your best friend’s arms...)

litany in which certain things are crossed out & snow and dirty rain

the ending:

the bittersweet smile neil gave TP during the goodbye speech

“now let me go” deep analysis (was it a plead? or a command?)

post-canon:

the protagonist processing neil’s death and seeing him again in the future

whether neil knew he would never return to his time and his protagonist when he accepted the mission

what if the protagonist died before he could send neil away on the sator mission?

how his death might have been to save neil, to make their story go full circle

the protagonist taking the friendship part of neil’s promise of a beautiful friendship way to seriously:

but neil confronted him and they got together

and neil never confronted him and all they had was sex

how long i think the protagonist and neil would have in the future (expansion with additional angst)

misc:

what they do in the bedroom ;) (also read chris’ take on it; it’s amazing)

how i’d write a tenet sequel

the symbolism behind the trinket on neil’s backpack

screenplay ramblings

FYI:

where to watch tenet online

how the ending sequence (in the hypocenter) went

#list #in no particular order #y'all this post is pinned #you really don't have to like it to save it for later

yikes so I've come to the realization that i accidentally reblogged some stuff from my main to this blog because tumblr changed the default reblog blog on me without me knowing so... rip. anyways now that I'm here, just wanna tell you guys (if anyone is reading this 😅) that i miss y'all and i think about coming back all the times. it's just hard for me because my brain has moved on from tenet and refused to come back. so, yeah... just wanna let you guys know, if anyone is wondering still (nearly two years later 🙈). I'll keep this blog up as an archive for all my contribution to the fandom, if anyone still wanna come back and read them.

have a good one, y'all ❤️

#I'm sorry for all of y'all's unanswered asks. i had hoped to answer them all when i found the mental capacity but that time never came #still i want you to know that i think of y'all often #i keep wishing of the day i finish all my old protagoneil wips and make a sudden come back #they haunt me everyday when i open up my wip folder #but enough of that sad stuff. if you wanna keep in contact (two years later rip) you can ask for my main #it's pretty cringe and meme-y over there though so keep that in mind #anyways have a good one gang; stay safe out there!#aris out

cutekitten6

I made a bunch of Tenet playlists, give them a listen?

Backwards Boyfriends//Protagoneil - Open Collab playlist David//Protagonist Neil Wheelives Tenet Agents

#playlist #music #this looks amazing isabel!#i'll take a listen as soon as i can!#protagoneil #wheelives

poemsforpersephone

SEVEN STEPS TO FALLING IN LOVE // l.s.

step 1. you don’t quite remember how it feels to feel but theres an echo in your chest that you think might be curiosity. or maybe its just heartburn.

step 2. theres something different about the way that he moves, like the earth is a chessboard and every step is a potential loss, another way to be taken from the game.

step 3. you promise protection because it is all you can offer. what else could he want? your fingers were only made to hurt and tear and bruise. you hold violence the same way others hold hands.

step 4. the first time you see him without medication twisting your brain you think ‘this could be a problem.’ you try to ignore that it already is, that is has been for a while now.

step 5. he vanishes into the night and with him he takes your ability to breathe, leaving a gap in the universe, a vacuum sucking the air from your lungs and for the first time in forever you feel fear.

step 6. every bruise on his body is another reason to walk away but you passed the point where you could leave long ago. now your hands try to learn how to hold and to stroke, how to soothe burns and bruises. They re-learn how to be hands instead of just another weapon to wield against life.

step 7. you told yourself that love was a lie because there was no other way to survive your demons. you put everything you had left behind a door made of sulphur and steel, but this boy, who saw more than the monster they created, who would fight the sun if you’d let him, opened your heart by knocking instead of forcing the lock.

(and so you gave him a key)