Life. It makes me wonder what's going to happen tomorrow. I got so tired crying last night and fell asleep. I thought after that, I'll feel less heavy. But it's still the same. Still the same. When is this pain going to end? Is it even going to end?
Heart. I salute my heart. It's still functioning after everthing. But I can feel my heart beat's slowing down sometimes. Not that I'm going to die but it's like trying to keep up with all the pain that it tries to breathe for a second so it can keep going. I'm sorry you have to go through that.
You. I hope you know how painful this is. I still don't understand why you are cheating on me. Am I not what you are looking for or I don't have what you are looking for so you decided to find someone else? Makes me question myself if I have been a bad person so karma gave me you. I thought you love me the same way that I love you. Looks like I already have an answer to that. It's not easy to pretend I'm okay in front of you. So that's why you thought my mood sometimes go very low. Because I get so tired pretending. But I have to keep my mask on. I will fight for what is mine this time. Though, it's breaking me and it's so painful but this is the only way I can keep you mine. Yes, people will say I'm stupid. For staying with you and pretend everything's fine. Maybe one day I'll stop and realize that I don't need to keep a man who does not want to be kept.
Me. Just try. That's all I can say. So that in the end, you don't have to say "I wish I tried". Look in the mirror. Be brave enough to tell her she can be enough for someone.
