I Become Blind & Go

"It's the saddest carousel around."

[tomcruisecells]

Dennis Hopper on the set of The Last Movie, 1970

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MOVE THE DOUGHNUTS

It is summer of idiot   move the doughnuts

  Summer idiot behind his house bright

  °°°°° bright yell the big trees with teeth deep ice breaths

  Draw   a gun    €⁄         a horse   €        a birthmark   ‹€

  I a donut plays at the window, beastly blossom fritters as large trees rest the rot in it.

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Home For The Holidays

  I don’t know about pastures

but once I stole a truck

through several neighborhoods

and always stopped nowhere.

Sleep brushed my hair and went scary.

I was thankful for that but now

a lake has landed inside my chest.

  The most involved scene

begins near a haunt…

animals move upended on the kitchen table.

  I float like a jellyfish from trees

but don’t contain a landscape.

My face glows inaudible fog.

  Now you are lying on the ceiling.

Chairs open your legs and

like a wasteland I fling loose moons

into the leaf dissolved robbery.

Buildings disband around the shoreline.

 It is what holds me in you.

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captain

an airplane engine

dripping down my chin

a hole in my cheek

and a plane

and there’s no blood

the captain and I try

to make out

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my mom in hell

my mom in hell

tries to hug me

get out of here mom

my mother where there is

no snow on the ground

I shiver and a couple

bottles of wine can’t wait

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grasses and trees

the doors open

onto large expanses

of grass and trees

they all turn toward me

i hear people

talking laughing crying

a sledge hammer

has large leaves

I close my eyes

and think about ruin

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dining hall

You want me to show you

the dining hall

women sit eating their

lunches with a salad bar

where food is served

there are men and women

but there are no smiles

the dining hall

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movie star

the weather worn-out

and desperate is finished talking

feelings become stronger

I can hardly speak

and I look like a movie star

where every moment

after dinner I climb into

several years of film-sleep

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our jobs

We gotta do our jobs

we get up in the morning

and we do our jobs

i get out of bed

and clean the group toilets

I’ve cleaned toilets before

so I begin rubbing my body

i get old and I want

to die I think about

running but I feel old

it’s time for breakfast

so I get some

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fishing boat

on the glass I return

cold warm leaves

but they reach out

to shake my hand

the captain of a commercial

fishing boat retired

his mind:

I begin to think

of decorations and People

who all seem to know

each other

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maybe tomorrow

Maybe tomorrow

the dead the dead

make it home safe

HIV- negative

and they don’t seem

dirty standing at the door

a shitty job a shitty job

they were dirty

I trapped a rat in a cage

a rat in a cage

and I start screaming

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trees

the trees look

as if they want

to hide outside

inside the van

is an old

weather beaten

leather jacket

I’m old

so I want you to use

it while here

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We pull into town

We pull into town and it is empty

the only things are thunder

sleet and wind

I open the glove compartment and

move two old yellow tennis balls

imagining I have friends

I hold up the tennis balls

It’ll be interesting to see

what you look like

with teeth

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what’s going to happen

what’s going to happen to me here

the door opens and the lumberjack

is followed by another

opening cabinet doors

and closing cabinet doors

the noises they are making

are sharp

I look again in the canal

after they die