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steven 'neo' universe / 16 / he|him / pan & polyam !

[charlesoberonn]

All I’m saying is there’s 7.6 billions of us and only one God. We could take him out if we want to.

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[gardeninghub]

‘House of Succulents’ -located somewhere in Italy. by 5_Frog_Margin

[icecreambean]

..thanks, wilt.

[gardeninghub]

Grew this bad dude from a leaf. 8 yrs old. And made the pot. by JaWiCa

[icecreambean]

HIGHKEY TIRED BUT... i live 

[icecreambean]

not sure how i got lucky enough to get both an amazing girlfriend AND boyfriend, but.. i do feel.. a lot better. i think i’m going to sleep now..

goodnight everyone.

[vincaris]

finally finished this painting i sketched out months ago… please click for better quality i know tumblr is gonna kill it (reference used)

EDIT: please dont repost this :) thanks

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[icecreambean]

there's a group of us. we've all gone through things no one that young should ever have to go through. but i realized something. most of us are done. he's not. i guess that means there's a good chance you're not done either. it sounds like the space stuff doesn't really end. i'm sorry about that.

i know he’s not done.. and.. no. i’m not done either. i’ve been through.. hell, and i’m only seventeen. i was in captivity on my birthday, i’ve.. been through the ringer and back! but you know.. still.. still fighting.. 

i wish it was over, i really do. i don’t want any of us to have suffer anymore.. not me, or ro, astro or leo.. and not wilt, either. we all deserve to rest, but.. it’s not that easy, i suppose.

[icecreambean]

tryings the best you can do, yo. but talking to altz i think is like a mirror that knows all your flaws and spits them out at you, and i think that gets to him. it's hard to move forward when you can see your past constantly following behind, you know? hard to feel worth it to keep going if the person you were before will never go away or stop haunting you.

oh believe me.. i know. i see alts of myself all the time at the steven hub.. it’s a multi-dimensional house that holds stevens from different universes.. i sort of.. live there part time. i’ve seen the best and the worst of myself. i mean -- stars, i straight up had another steven kidnap and torture me for like two months. i’m still trying to.. heal from.. all of that. i don’t think it ever goes away

dealing with alternates can be.. amazing.. i dunno what i’d do without some of the other stevens, they’re family to me, but.. sometimes facing yourself isn’t.. easy. it’s hard seeing other stevens go through what we had to go through. you just wanna.. shake ‘em and tell them to get help. 

but i’m not mad. i’m just.. tired, i guess. really tired.

[icecreambean]

he's going through a rough time. therapy'z worth it. it's going to take forever to get somewhere, and he's finding that out himself, but it's hard to get over trauma that hasn't settled yet. but, like, you should keep trying. down isn't an option, even when up'z really difficult.

i know he is.. we stevens all kind of are. i know he didn’t..really mean it. he was angry.. frustrated.. i’ve said some.. really awful things when i’m mad, and my therapist says i have intermittent explosive disorder, which i’m working on at anger management therapy. i know i can come across as.. a brat.. i’ve.. kind of been forced to face that.

but i AM trying. i really am. 

i’m not mad or upset at wilt for saying it --- it stung.. and.. yeah i considered dropping it all for a minute but.. i don’t think i can. even if i want to give up, i kind of owe it to my family to.. be a better me. maybe that’s not the best thought process, but.. it keeps me going.. 

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leo !! 

the resident memer has arrived!!

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i think i need to video chat connie

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armourose replied to your post

neo shut UP that’s not true. therapy takes a long time, you don’t just go in for a few sessions and then magically get better. you’ve been through so much and you need a lot of help, don’t just give up because of what he says!! you’re genuinely improving, I KNOW you are. don’t beat yourself up like that!

i guess

sorry, astro.. 

i’m sorry..

[icecreambean]

armourose replied to your post

neo DON’T SAY THAT

i mean why not? he’s not wrong. it’s not like it’s making me any better. i’m still angry and childish and immature and bitter at everyone. maybe i’m just like this now. 

[icecreambean]

oh

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