doing my best

My name is Meaghan [(she/her), 25], and my blog is pretty insignificant. There is just a little bit of everything here. But you can stay for a good, non-judging time.

[thosemotivationalquotes]

I saw something in the news today that truly took my breath away. If you have been paying attention to U.S. politics over the past few days, you’ve most likely seen this woman:

This is Bishop Mariann Budde, and on Monday (Trump’s inauguration) she led an interfaith prayer for Trump and the incoming administration. During the service she asked him to have mercy for LGBTQ+ Americans and undocumented immigrants. This was badly received by the Trump administration (as expected).

After seeing headlines about this woman, I read something that I wanted to share. In 1998 a man named Matthew Shepard was murdered for being gay. I’m not going to get into the details of his death on this post, but please be warned it is extremely triggering if you do choose to read more on your own. Matthew Shepard’s death caused a lot of change in the U.S. regarding how LGBTQ hate crimes are handled, and laws that were passed to protect LGBTQ+ people.

Now you’re probably wondering what Matthew Shepard has to do with an Episcopal bishop. For years after Matthew Shepard’s murder, his family had held onto his remains, too scared to lay him to rest in fear of his final resting place being vandalized. In 2018, Budde had his remains interred at the National Cathedral, which is also the place where the interfaith prayer for Trump and his administration took place. The impact of this really had an effect on me. Budde could have led a non confrontational prayer service, and chosen not to mention the harm that will come to the people Trump and his administration are going after. Instead she chose to call out hate and fear in front of some of the most powerful people on the planet, and at a place that has such a large historic meaning to the LGBTQ community.

In the next few years there will be many challenges in protecting free speech, standing up against hate, and protecting those in our communities. But I would like to believe that for every Donald Trump and Elon Musk, there are people like Marianne Budde. There are those of us who can’t speak up for themselves, so it’s important for those of us who can to amplify our voices, even if it’s not the ‘popular’ thing to do.

“And he said you should apologize. Will you apologize?

I am not going to apologize for asking for mercy for others.” - Mariann Budde’s response in a Time interview

Link to articles: x x x

Link to the Matthew Shepard Foundation if you would like to donate

[themaskedotter]

I’m crying because when my dad was eighteen he was going to join the airforce and then the night before he had a dream that Jesus slapped him in the face with a gigantic fish and asked him what he was doing and he woke up and thought, “Jesus is right what am I doing?” And that’s why my dad did not join the military. 

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[mjalti]

sometimes im like “tone down the Self to fit in” and other times, the voice of God comes to me in a dream and says “I didn’t make you crazy for no reason”

[torsamors-deactivated20250510]

happy pride

[torsamors-deactivated20250510]

okay so spock (the alien in blue) essentially goes into heat. like literal heat like an animal. Anyway, spock’s in bloodlust in this episode and must go back to vulcan to have sex with his finace (or someone. but its supposed to be his fiance) or he’ll literally die. this is called pon farr and some backstory spock is half human and thought he wouldnt go through pon farr so he abandoned his HOT fiance to fuck around in space except oops pon farr happens so. he and kirk (in yellow getting his tits cut open, he’s also spocks captain and best friend) and their other friend mccoy go to vulcan so he can have sex with his fiance or get married or whatever so he doesn’t die. but then spock’s fiance (t’pring) is like no i dont want to marry spock i want to have him fight someone to death (which she can do) and spock at this point is fully in the ‘blood lust’ and is basically not in his right mind and doesnt get what’s happening. and t’pring picks kirk to be her ‘champion’ in the fight (her logic is that if spock dies in the fight she doesnt have to marry him and if kirk dies, spock will be so upset with her he won’t marry her anymore anyway). anyway kirk doesnt know that its a fight to the death and so he’s like of course i’ll do this fight if it’ll help spock and then he gets told it’s a fight to the death and he goes WHAT and right afterwards spock slices his titties open like in the gif. also eventually spock and kirk roll around in the sand and kirk fakes his death and THIS somehow knocks spock out of his blood lust and he goes back to the ship super sad bc he’s killed his ‘best friend’ only to discover kirk’s alive and we see one of his biggest smiles of the series (a big deal bc spock is vulcan and they dont show emotion). anyway this aired as the season opener in 1967. know your history and all that happy pride

[anachronic-cobra]

To summarize, star trek invented fuck-or-die and spock attempted to resolve this by giving kirk a boob window and wrestling with him half-naked in the sand

[thesuperheroesnetwork]

The fact that this is accurate is fucking killing me

[birdrhetorics]

I have a Hallmark Christmas ornament of this scene!

[sweatermuppet]

oh no the horrors are back [<- horrors had never left or ceased]

[killowave]

[supremeshogunrj]

The longer it takes for this to come across your dash the funnier it is

[soupsy-daisy-deactivated2023072]

oh god buddy you better hurry while theres still time

[icecreamgloom]

I don't know if anyone will see this or if it even matters, but I need to say something. I'm living in a sort of hell, that I can't really escape because I put myself in it. There's no running from your own feelings, and trust me, I've tried. I am sick of being stuck in an unrequited love situation. I used to be perfectly okay with being single and living with who I was as a person. (In my identity, self-image, sexuality, etc.) All until I really felt something for someone. I've had crushes and stupid little fleeting feelings, but nothing like until I met this person. I think I fell in love, because I really felt like they could be the one. I wanted to do everything for them. I wanted to be around them, to feel their presence. I expressed my feelings, and was immediately turned down, but I'm in a situation where I see this person every day, so I just had go pull it all back in and bury it deep down. It's been like this for over a year now, where I'm subjected to them messing with me and fighting for my attention, but I know deep down that they'll never feel what I felt for them. I feel they have selfish motives for playing with my emotions, and they make me feel crazy and stupid for ever having such raw emotions for them. They don't even see me as an option for love, just for amusement. I feel used and run down after every moment with them, and a lot of the times I look straight into their eyes and hope that they see that I'm breaking on the inside. Is it solely because of them? No. I can't put all the blame on them. I should be able to control my emotions and overcome this childish situation and be able to walk away. I find it really hard to leave because I've never felt this way about anyone, but surely I don't deserve this. I've spent nights like these begging God or the universe for answers. To understand why I have so much love to give just to be heartbroken and destroyed by someone who literally threw me away without a second thought? I'm breaking.

[icecreamgloom]

I've come to recognize the human condition as wanting what you can't have. Lamenting over lost items, missing people that are no longer here, and wanting so desperately to go back in time. For me, it's missing my grandparents trailer that burned down in 2017. It just hit me today that I'll never be able to sit in their bedroom ever again. Kind of just part of growing up and living is losing things along the way.

[nilim]

Ok, so I was reading this news story:

So far so normal, right? But then:

Like what. And then:

Like, I think Alaska State Trooper Ken Marsh wants to be a romance novelist. 

[panicblanket]

well would you look at that

[whatevercomestomymind]

Local Man Discovers Talent for Prose after Crushing Hard on Local Woodsman

[reasonandempathy]

Coronavirus Insights

[teenmale-blog]

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[fightxtoxdream]

LMFAOOOO

[the-goddamazon-deactivingsoon-d]

BUT WHERE IS THE GIF OF RALEIGH AND PENTECOST FROM PACRIM????

[futureblackwakandan-deactivated]

[deejay]

[ruinedchildhood]

[actluvheart]

I will reblog this until the day I DIE 🤣 don’t EVER put your hands on me BOI 👊🏾

[amfnlovejones]

[dicapito2-deactivated20230424]

[whorderofthepheonix]

I will never not reblog

[for-a-muse-of-fire]

An entire Mood

[catchymemes]

[link-the-feral-anon]

When you remember the anti-vax movement

[burger-prince]

[tatsutahimet]

I first reblogged this in January, and here my ass is in March 2020 self-quarantined at home.

[crittizen]

Today’s existential crisis is courtesy of:

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[lawfulneurotic]

this image hits different in covid-19 isolation

[queen-mabs-revenge]

[tchaikovskaya]

Let Bernard Say Fuck

[colossalfauna-moved-deactivated]

y'all will circlejerk yourself to the mysticisms of faeries and elves in european countries for centuries and take it as fact but the second native americans ask you to respect our spirituality and culture suddenly you're all aetheists

[colossalfauna-moved-deactivated]

non natives can, should, and will reblog this.

[idjitmonkey]

this is why I’ve stopped saying that “this” or “that” is my spirit animal. I learned that it’s something to be taken seriously. 

[twirld]

Sainte Jeanne d'Arc (detail, 1909) Paul Antoine de la Boulaye

[depsidase]

[michigen]

i emailed them as a joke and they gave me a scarily realistic response and i was too scared o say anything back

[eternal-fractal]

i emailed them and i never got a reply, i’d like you to show yours

[i-change-too-often]

@masochist-incarnate this is the response I got

[hungarianator]

hundreds, perhaps billions