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Being autistic and having shit interception while also having a weird body that does weird abnormal things on an irregular basis while experiencing drastic life changes is incredibly fun. Am I almost constantly nauseous( it took me multiple days to identify it as nausea) because I am moving to a country on an entirely different continent for university right now and that is very stressful, is it the apartment searching making me stressed to the point of constant nausea, is my body doing a weird thing where it's making nauseous again, is my body not aclimating well to the differences in tap water, or am I actually sick? Who knows? Not me thats for sure so it's all getting ignored until I actually vomit at which point I will start treating it like something worth paying attention to.

I actually meant to post this a few weeks ago but I was very stressed and also just very bad at posting ideas in a timely manner anyway so this post includes the update. The update is im pretty sure the nausea was stress from apartment hunting it almost entirely went away after I signed a lease.

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My brother was watching The Legend of Korra season 2 episode 5 in which Tenzin tells Meelo that he needs to become the Alpha Lemur while my sister and I were in the room and we discussed the implications of the term alpha on the Avatar universe as summarized in the following image.

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I'm about 14 weeks post top surgery and it's nice but a bit weird. I had double incision with nipple grafts and I was expecting to come out of it with no nipple sensation and yet since about week 7 or 8 I have had noticeable sensation in my right nipple not both nipples no just the right one. It doesn't feel temperature but pain and tactile sensation feel heightened to what it was before. It threw me off at first because I was expecting to have no sensation and because it's only the one side.

No one even told me that could happen. Yes I suppose it makes sense and I probably should have known it was a possibility but at the same time there was something on the paperwork from my top surgery consult that said one of the risks of DI w/ nipple grafts is scarring. I feel like that's drastically more obvious side effect than it's possible you may regain sensation but only in one nipple.

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Top surgery tip buy Crocs. They're so easy to take on and off. I hate Crocs and sandles in general, but my God, have I been using my Crocs the past few days

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You want to know what pisses me off? The fact that I need to submit pictures of an updated ID for websites that didn't need pictures of any damn ID to make the account in the first place all because I changed my fucking name. both the college board and United Airlines have/do want this. When you make the account its a faith system and they trust you to put your name and sex in correctly but you get either legally changed and want your accounts to reflect that suddenly they need picture of your ID they never fucking needed before. For anyone currently working on this, when you call college board to change it and the operator says they'll send you a link to submit the documentation just say okay, hang up, and then ignore the link and in about 2-3 weeks your name will change on the site without having to submit documents. That's what I did a few years ago and it worked. No idea if it works now or if that same technique will work with united but I'm sure as hell going to try.

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If something feels stupid but it helps you its not stupid. It's easier for you to sit down the shower but it feels dumb and embarrassing? Do it anyway no one is going to break into your bathroom and judge you for sitting on the floor while you shower in fact no one you let see you showering should judge you for sitting while showering. Feel like you don't need a cane because you've only felt you needed one a few times this year? Buy one anyway better to have it and not need it than need it and not have it and purchasing one will not harm someone who does feel they need to use a cane on a more regular basis than you. You can't walk a mile but you feel like you annoy the other people on public transit for using it to only go a stop? Do it fucking anyway its PUBLIC transit its there for you as a member of the public to use so use it and honestly everyone's probably too busy starring their phones to take note of who's getting on and off where so use it and take it the one stop. If it makes you're life easier and more acessible it's not stupid so do or use it anyway.

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There's nothing like probably having asthma and being sick and conjested. I need to take a hot shower to let the hot humid air clear my sinuses and open my airways but doing so will also close my airways because my asthma is triggered by hot humid air so instead I just end up desperately trying to balance keeping the room hot enough to help my congestion but cool enough that I don't start struggling to breathe. It is just a tiny bit hellish. And when I say I'm probably asthmatic I mean I've done research and the symptoms fit but it's America and Healthcare is expensive and I'm AFAB and just realized I'm probably asthmatic a few months ago and thus lack the extensive documentation of symptoms and attacks I would need to get doctors to take me seriously. So yeah, i probably have asthma, but it isn't diagnosed.