RANT

my brain is too small to rant, and its 4am | she/they

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If you don't go to/ use your local library, why not?

transportation issue

can't afford a card [what demons make you guys pay for a card?]

never any good books there

I do, but only once a year [state in tags why]

books suck and you suck, I don't read

social anxiety

rude employees/ I feel unsafe there

no community/ events hosted that I'd like

other [state in tags]

Voting ended onMar 2, 2023

As a young librarian, I started trying to figure out why more young people aren't ever coming in; 90% of our demographic are the elderly and parents of children, and the rest are a rough mix of the kids and teenagers who come in just for school projects. As a result, I've been attempting different ways to get the Youth TM to come into libraries, but first I wanted to see why they don't come in. Please reblog to get this poll out to more people! <3

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HMMMMMMMMMMM, breaking up or not, *toss a coin*

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Xiao, Conqueror of Demons

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extraño. extraño a mi novia. like super random, pero. la extraño :( el otro dia estaba borracha y JAJAJAJA solo gritaba que me quería casar con ella, lol, still stands

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Its telling someone else to not mind ur business, minding their business?

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my brain is so foggy rn, hold on

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Now that is pride month, good morning only to:

my girlfriend <3, my queer friends, my queer enemies, my im-not-sure-if-im-queer-or-just-questioning friends and/or enemies, my i-dont-really-identify-under-queer-but-im-not-default-cis-straight friends and/or enemies, everyone who ive ever wish were part of the lgbtq community as good contribution despite looking extremely straight, all the fictional and celebrity dudes that have given me both comp het and gender envy at the same time, that girl who i barely talked to but i still ended up confessing she was my crush on the biggest impulsive whim, to the girl in first year middle school who made me realize i was in fact not straight, to love stage for being my first not negative (although questionable and extremely fetishizing) interaction with lgbtq media, to that english teacher who said love was love even when i studied in a very conservative catholic school, to my brother who will have to stand my slippery rainbow jokes every other week this whole month, my ex, my one week ex, my ex whom with i never really talked to even when going out, the girl who confessed to me but also said "im straight" in the span of fifteen minutes, to all the gay media ive consumed and have changed the way i view romcom cis straight media, the human beings that responded to that congress-grandma from my city that uploaded a homophobic video complaining abt gays kissing on the streets, and ofc myself

To everyone else.... hey, ig

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Jesus im so mad and i wanna cry and im so mad and im so mad and im so mad and i wanna punch her in t he face and tell her that shes a dumbass but you know fuck her fuck her fuck her fuck her im so mad im so mad im so mad im so mad im so mad im so mad ugh

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Me: "Haha, i feel drained, what should i do?"

*logs into the internet and searches levi from aot*

Me, in tears: "haha, i feel so drained and emotionally damage, what should i do?"

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snk:

me: how dare you emotionally damage me like that?

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Thoughts but cathartic is such a pretty word

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me: *looks at a photo of my girlfriend*

my head: YOU LOOK SO PRETTY STANDING THERE

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Listening to omori ost to cope

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I think i need to stop saying "i'll be there for you when you need me." Because sometime i will be unable to be there for you when you need me; sometimes i will feel like crap on my own, and crap with crap doesn't really make for not crap, don't you think? I don't know. I just wish to not feel guilty for not being there for others. Yeah.

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Starting wonder egg priority, wish me luck

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Finished it, i need a moment to cry

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Horimiya is a great shouyo/romcom anime.

They portrayed the male protagonist like an outcast and then said "you'll find people who care about you, maybe not right now, but one day you will. You had a bad time, you wished awful things, but you have to be empathetic with yourself. You were angry, and you hated the world around; but it changed and it will keep changing for the better. Even then, you don't have to fake none of that hurt you or it isn't there anymore. All of that, all of those memories are important. It's okay to not let them go."

THEN, they made a female protagonist like someone who grew up understanding their parents had other priorities so they neglected her without realizing. And then they said "it's okay to understand all of that but still feel sad or mad. It's okay to ask people to stay by your side if you need it. It's okay to ask for affection, it's okay to cry about it. Someone will listen to you."

And that's the tip of the iceberg. Every character has it's own past and depth. There will be someone who to relate. I really liked this anime despite not watching romcom in years. It made me cry, and it was really cathartic watching all of that unfold. So, thank you, Horimiya.

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Starting wonder egg priority, wish me luck