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As Halloween ends and winter holidays become the biggest focus of the world, here’s your friendly reminder that not everyone celebrates Christmas. Not everyone wants to see Christmas trees or decorations, or be overwhelmed by a holiday that is not theirs. As a Jewish person, the winter is far too Christmas focused and I truly wish in the next few months to see other religions and holidays equally represented. Winter is for everyone, not just Christians. Have a good season y’all!

You need a break, to step away

Don’t worry, I understand.

You need some time, who knows how long,

I’ll watch the weeks turn into years.

I know you need some time to think,

But the missing doesn’t stop.

And the hole in my heart grows bigger each day

That you and I don’t talk.

You said you’d be back soon,

But I’m still here alone.

Waiting and wishing for the day

That you finally return home.

#poem #poetry #heartbreak #sad poetry #i wish i could write

I woke up to see the sun today

As it rose above the trees.

The colors splashed across the sky,

And the world was bathed in light.

Silhouettes of birds emerging from shadow,

Scattered the colored clouds.

A painting slowly coming to life,

Nature’s show only for me.

I stared into the sky for an hour or two.

Though the colors were gone I was amazed

By even the sky’s normal shades

As I sat on the damp grass oblivious to the rest of life.

Then the clock struck 8 and the world awoke

With cars and people alike.

So I crept back inside and I slept once more

The colors still twisting in my mind.

#poem #poetry #nature #sunrise #i wish i could write

Are you really there beside me,

For I can barely feel your hand.

I’m here, just oh so far

Your breath is a mere whisper,

And your voice is far too faint.

You made me stay you kept me here

I’m trying to move on

I thought that you were there,

But you’re flickering away…

The light plays tricks on you

I won’t fade from view

Please say it’s just the sun.

You seemed different when we sat down,

Shadows keep me whole,

You threw me into the sun.

Why does the light affect you so?

I want to escape back to shadow

But I’ll never leave you alone

No, don’t fade away

I can’t lose you again.

I’ll stay, I’ll stay forever

My love, stay beside me

I won’t let you become a ghost.

I won’t become a ghost.

#poetry #poem #writing #i wish i could write #sad poem

You look at me and you will see a farce

Not perfect but closer than others seem

My flaws appear so minuscule and sparse

And when I do mess up it’s not extreme

It’s clear that you and I have never talked

For you don’t know what’s hiding inside me

My secrets and emotions- those are locked

I promise that you don’t yet have the key

I know you think you want a better glance

Into the inner workings of my brain

But no I don’t think I’ll give you a chance

To be okay is a something I can feign

Knowledge truly holds a lot of power

But knowing me will only make you cower

#sonnet #shakespearean sonnet #iambic #poem #poetry #i wish i could write

Outside, a happy

Teenage girl

Perfection beyond compare

A smile that can strike you down

Beauty in her eyes

She talks and laughs

And throws her smile around

Enchanting all her friends

Other people look on envious

Desperate to become part of the circle

She seems to tell everything to

She gently shoos them away

Telling them she has to go

Their faces fall like stones

All sure she has other people to see

Fluttering her fingers in a gentle wave,

She turns to her house

Only after everyone else is gone

Does her posture drop, and her smile fade away

The door creaks when she opens it

And she winces at the sound

Bracing herself for the roaring beast

She now needs to face

A ballerina on the steps,

She darts up one by one

Dodging a word, a punch, or three

Eventually she slams the door

Ignoring the roars from outside

As she picks up her phone a few tears escape

But she wipes them away before replacing her smile

This time not as convincing

She pushes down any remaining negativity

And dives back into her persona of perfection

Back to the people who love her most

The people who know her least

#poem #poetry #sad poem #sad poetry #abuse #parental abuse #writing #i wish i could write

Chaos Is my Friend

I no longer want to seem innocent

Want to let the beast inside escape

I’m sick of playing stupid

Though I may act it I’m no fool

I‘ve watched and waited for years

And nobody knew the difference

Well I’m finally shedding my skin

Giving way to the monster within

Beware to those who crossed me

You’ve made your last mistake

For chaos is on my side tonight

And it takes no prisoners, only victims

Soon you’ll just be another tally in its books

And statistics always have the worst endings

Although I’ve finally lost control

I’ve never felt more alive

I watch the earth burn and cry

And tremble under my will

Stagger, drunk with power

As I truly let go of all holding me back

I laugh wildly in the wake of all I’ve created

All I’ve destroyed

To all who doubt me, never mistake me again

Because you never knew chaos is my friend

#writing #poem #poetry #chaos #threat #i wish i could write

The Spider

How did I not notice the webs

Wrapping around my fingers

Pulling me close

Closer to you?

I’m stuck in them now

Nowhere to turn

The web wove around me so tightly

No hope of escape

You pulled me in

Naturally, easily

Each word a silky thread

Weaving its way around my concerns

Clearly you’ve done this before

When I let my guard down they stuck to my skin

Wrapping around my arms slowly

Before pulling me in for the kill

Your smile rotting on the inside

But hiding behind an oh so sweet facade

You crawl around me now as I scream

Unable to move in my silk cocoon

That you so cleverly placed around me

I see you now for what you are

But I see you far too late

#poem #poetry #sad poetry #spiderweb #spider #i wish i could write

A short little limerick I wrote for a prompt!

One night a girl woke from her rest

To a noise that near made her distressed

A low rumbling growl

The sound awful and foul

“Go get food” her stomach seemed to suggest

#short poem #poem #poetry #limerick #i wish i could write

Story Poem- The Gaze

He gazed down at his subjects

Their eyes gleaming with admiration

Hanging on to his every word

He could tell them to jump off the highest turret

And they would blindly obey

A smile graced his face and the silence turned to cheers

He held them in the palm of his hand

They were his toys, dolls he could use and discard

Whenever he saw fit

His eyes traveled over the masses

The crowds chanting his name

And was met with someone

Staring back at him with equal intensity

She did not smile. She did not cheer.

She clearly was not a doll

He fought to keep his composure as her eyes bored into his

Equally intense, equally strong

And for a second he wished he knew others like her

Others unwilling to bend to his will

He nodded to her once

And was graced with a small nod back

The strength never leaving her eyes

Or their glance

And then he looked away

For one small second

When he looked back she was gone

Leaving a small hole in the crowd

His false smile dropped for an instant

But was immediately replaced

As the moment made its way to the back of his mind

Only to return in dreams

#writing #poetry #story #royalty #poem #i wish i could write

This is meant to be spoken poetry, that’s why it’s in this format

I watch the words fall

Out of people’s mouths

A cycle of anger and hate and hurt and sentences spilling endlessly, nearly meaninglessly....but they’re not

And I hear the hurt disguised by laughter

The hurt in their eyes is clear but they don’t speak up so the words continue and the laughter grows and I just sit

And then

They turn

Inviting me to join

To add my voice to the cacophony of words of hurt and anger and hate disguised as jokes

And I pause

And isn’t that worse?

That I take a second to doubt my beliefs and my morals and who I am at the core of my being

For them?

Because if I chime in who am I? A bully a jerk a bigot?

But if I don’t who am I then? A loner a loser a freak?

And I sit as they stare and they wait for me to talk and they’re oblivious to the battle raging inside between me and myself and all I want to do is scream but I can’t because everyone is there, everyone is watching, waiting for me to make my choice

I don’t want to be that person, one of them but they’re all I have and they’re watching and waiting for me to talk with laughter in their eyes while I stay silent

But it was only a second and someone else broke the moment with a joke and I breathe a sigh of relief and stay quiet, hating myself more by the second, more by the minute, and this one moment-

This one singular moment in time that everyone else likely forgot in seconds will live with me for the rest of my life.

I will never hesitate again. I will never join in.

#poem #poetry #writing #spoken poem #spoken word #i wish i could write

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Thanks for giving me a chance ❤

if-only-i-could-write

Thank you so much

Corpse yellowing, dark eyes stilled

The veil between life and death trembles

And then closes

I stare into the mirror, losing myself

Losing reality. Losing-

Who am I?

Who have I become?

I look back

But the barrier between living and dead is gone

Cold relief settles on my shoulders

Anchoring me down to reality

A reality I created for myself

And I am gone

Forevermore

Finally.

#tw suicice #poem #poetry #tw death #i wish i could write #creepy poem

Slam Poetry

Counted on

the younger generation

we see videos

read articles

on what this world is

we are supposed to end

this madness

this pit of despair

we are the way out

the future!

counted on.

But what if

we can’t

fix

a single

thing?

Will this pit of despair we call Earth die

because of us?

Is it

better off dead

then what it is?

We’re children

right now we can’t change much

so we dream of a world

where the sun sets in peace

we enjoy life

now…

the pressure is high to be perfect,

and change the world.

Counted on

we’re not going to be kids forever

but for right now

that’s just what we are

counted on kids

trying to change the world

Ok I wrote this when I was 11 and feel like it’s ridiculously prevalent now. Please excuse the awful style, as I said I was 11 when I wrote it.

#poetry #slam poetry #writing #poem #counted on #i wish i could write

Writer’s Block

I am naught but a godforsaken fool

As the words write themselves down in my brain, To think I could make poetry a tool

For nothing but simply personal gain.

And when I try to write all the words down,

A battlefield emerges on the page.

Into a sea of confusion I drown,

All bad ideas lost to a calming rage.

I take a deep breath quickly rack my mind, My lack of forethought my Achilles’ heel. Searching for the right words I should soon find, I think of an idea with more appeal.

When I begin to write I start to smile, Knowing the struggle made it all worthwhile.

Did I write a full on sonnet about writer’s block? Yes. Yes I did.

#poetry #sonnet #poem #i wish i could write

Photo Sketch

An impromptu photoshoot

Taken only because of how cute my dog looked

One random afternoon in winter

Somehow describes my whole year

A bright smile, clearly slightly faked

Only to make the picture look better

The same smile that shows up dozens of times

On my camera roll, on my friends’ camera roll

I was holding on to my dog’s paws just like

How I held so tightly to the past

Only 6 months ago

Eyes that look cheery

But dark circles beneath

That hint at many nights spent

Writing essays, doing work

Only to wake up a few hours later

And repeat the cycle again

There is one version of this picture on my phone

Despite the 10 or so that were taken

I kept only the one

Hey people! This is based off of a picture I have on my phone that I unfortunately don’t feel comfortable sharing to the world. It was inspired by the Raymond Carver poem, “Photograph of my Father in His Twenty-Second Year”.

#poetry #short poem #poem #i wish i could write