Dear Tumblr #1
Intros are needed I guess.. āā Name: Just call me āIfā for now. Age: Not importantā¦ Yet. Hobbies: Watching anime/shows, reading, writing, sleeping, failing at life. Relationship Status: What is a ārelationshipā? Gender: Genderfluid. Mostly female. Sexual Orientation: Iām the gayest lord. -Iām Pansexual- āā I honestly donāt know why Iām doing this. I mean.. How many people want to read me blabbing on about my life? Itās not even that interesting, really. I guess.. Iām tired of being invisible so Iām just reaching into the darkness right now.
Iām currently going to school and while I have an okay personality, I have social anxiety so socializing is quite difficult at times. Iām usually ignored by the few friends I do have and am also āinvisibleā to pretty much everyone else. Iām not the prettiest, but I believe Iām not the worst looking either. Thatās about as far as Iām getting with self esteem. I always have people telling me Iām ābeautifulā and I know they mean well, itās just that our opinions about me are very different.
I tend to be very accepting with everything.. āChillā as people would call it. I donāt bash on peopleās opinions unless they ask for it. Iām extremely used to people who are always rude to me because I donāt have anyone else.. I do have very -VERY- few good friends who donāt ignore me. Only about.. Three. Which is enough for me. Ion not want to be popular in school, but I just donāt like being alone.
Along with having anxiety, there comes the battle of depression. A big reason is being raised with a strongly religious and homophobic mother and with being the Gayest Lord, well.. You can say not everything is always.. Right. My past is not something I wish to reveal immediately, but perhaps.. Later.
I think this is enough for this.. I donāt know if anyone is really going to read this or if anyone will stay around for the other entries, but hey.. āYou miss 100% of the shots you donāt take.ā I forgot who said that. Anyways.. Um.. Bye.
~ If