I have this weird habit of looking at or watching stuff made by people either on platforms like this or YouTube where I'll pay attention to some things they've made to see if I'd be interested in their stuff, but then comes the part where I genuinely like what they do and keep looking into it. But eventually comes the part where I've looked at there stuff for so long without subscribing or following that it makes me feel weird or awkward about suddenly subscribing or following and then proceeding to scroll through all their shit just spamming their whole notifications with likes, and maybe a comment or two. There are five artists on Instagram and probably at the least 20 people on YouTube who I go through this process with. And I feel so awkward about it.












