i haven’t been on here in a while but i can’t tweet about this because the boy i’m talking about follows me and i don’t feel like going on about it on fb—
i went on a fourth date with someone on Sunday that i really really like. probably too much. he bought me bubble tea and we sat in his car talking and postponing him leaving after a like. six hour date. i made a joke about him being late every time to our dates except the first one and he said “whatever someone does to me, i have to do it back tenfold” and we joked about having to hang out seven more times. he texted me after we left to tell me he had a really good time and it made me so so giddy. he has a really corny Twin Peaks tattoo and his hair is soft and he looks at me like he really likes me and he always apologizes for being boring but doing nothing with him is really wonderful. he’s really political and i have conversations with him that i don’t really get to have with anyone else. he’s sweet and charming and funny and smart and we can talk for hours and he’s a good kisser and...i dunno. i’m freaked out because i don’t know what i’m doing or what any of this means. we talk about my partner and about other people he’s seeing and it’s not weird to do; it feels normal? but he just got out of a seven year relationship and i’m not sure i could ever handle anything more than just this? but i see my feelings outgrowing it and i’m not sure what to do. having multiple partners sounds difficult and emotionally taxing and like A Lot but i think if i keep hanging out with him, i’m gonna fall. and hard. and i feel awful because a girl he really liked cut ties because she “liked him too much” and i don’t wanna do the same. we had a small misunderstanding and he thought i didn’t wanna hang out anymore and he got really sad and i don’t want to hurt him but i also don’t wanna get...attached? maybe i already am. i’m probably seeing him again this weekend and i’m giddy. anyway that’s what’s been up with me lol until next time
