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[ihatemyhusband]

I tried a spell to banish him. He’s on his way home something vanish him.

I’m sorry that I chose to be with this man over ending my own life. im paying the price the ultimate price

I’m sorry that I cared for this beast so undeserving of my life.

it’s eating me alive so unnerving inside

Ladies, Sisters, witches of the world I implore you

please whisper a spell like only you can do

I will do the same for you

together we can make it through.

We will make it through.

Blessings to you.

[ihatemyhusband]

DO. NOT. SETTLE. Being sad and alone is far better than being miserable because of someone else.

-Me 5/29/23 2:05pm

[ihatemyhusband]

Looking for a coven interested in taking down the patriarchy.

Maybe if I find strong women, a support group, I would have a better chance of being able to leave him. Then when I’m strong enough I will create a network of covens to help countless women. I need help to break free and so do millions of other women. Can you imagine a world run by women? I can.

[ihatemyhusband]

I want to win so bad

I absolutely fucking deserve to win. I deserve to outlive him. He does not get to ruin 14 years of my life and then take my life as well. I’ve got to be smart and strong and win in the end. I HAVE TO!

For myself, I have to. I need to feel a moment of autonomy in this one and only life I get. I’m far closer to the end than the beginning. I’d be middle aged if I lived to 90 but at the rate I’m going I don’t see that as a possibility. Let me live, god damn it! I’d give up whatever time I have left for one good year of freedom. Just the thought of freedom and I picture myself in the rain, arms outstretched and tears of joy in my eyes. I’m dancing, laughing and crying. The raindrops feel like falling stars all around me, glimmering like the new found light of hope in my eye.

I need it to come true.

it will. It has to.

[ihatemyhusband]

I HATE my husband

I want so desperately to leave but I’ve been broken down by him. I don’t think I have the strength to do it. I’ve been gathering online resources for women like me. But how am i going to find a place to take me and my dogs? I can’t leave them behind, I’d be worried about them the whole time. And the thought of them in an animal shelter just stings my heart so bad. What the hell do I do?

[stay-close]

“I wonder how many times each day she dies a little.”

— Libba Bray, A Great and Terrible Beauty

[ihatemyhusband]

Yes. Yes.

[ihatemyhusband]

He’s racist, homophobic, transphobic, fatphobic, misogynistic, makes fun of the disabled and judgmental to countless others. He’s a boomer. Pull yourself up by your bootstraps, boomer. Fuck him. Fuck them all. Greedy, smug and entitled is a good start at describing him and his generation.

Yes I would have left if I could. My disability is such that I don’t work. I tried to work from home but he ruined every opportunity I had. He would either burst into the room cursing about something or have an attitude that he knew would raise my anxiety making it almost impossible to concentrate. HE DOES NOT DESERVE ANY WOMAN EVER!

I’ve lived over 14 years serving him. I cannot do this anymore. I will not survive this. And yet he will, and he will go on to abuse someone else.

[ihatemyhusband]

Ok here goes… I’m married to an absolute jerk. Like the worst kind you can imagine. It’s been 14 years and I just want to be free of him. Problem is, years of emotional and mental abuse has me stuck in trauma. I don’t have the strength to make the plan and set it in motion. I don’t feel strong enough but I need a place to write anonymously and sort out what I’m going through. Thanks for listening.