I let my guard down for the first time in years and fell in love and he’s not even broken up with me.. he just aired me for over three days… he has a bunch of my stuff… I’ve literally not left my bed except to pee for over 48 hours all I can do is cry I haven’t felt devastated and heartbroken and confused like this in so long… I can’t ever let myself get soft for a man again, they always hurt me so badly. My first relationship in four years and my last for at least another four. I can’t take this. I hurt so bad. I’ve been trying so hard to not hurt myself and all I can do is take Valium and smoke and drink and even that isn’t enough to keep me asleep. I haven’t eaten or gone longer than a couple hours without sobbing. Literally four days ago he was telling me how much I matter to him. I don’t understand what I did so wrong
