David

︶♱︶︶♱︶︶♱︶ ˖ ݁♬⋆.˚𝄞 𝑰𝒇 𝒊𝒕 𝒕𝒂𝒌𝒆𝒔 𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒏𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕, 𝑰𝒇 𝑰 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒕𝒐 𝒇𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕, 𝑰𝒇 𝑰 𝒍𝒐𝒔𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒍𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕, 𝑰𝒕’𝒔 𝒂𝒍𝒓𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕, 𝘐’𝘷𝘦 𝘨𝘰𝘵 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘬𝘪𝘭𝘭. ˖ ݁♬⋆.˚𝄞

[ihavetohaveyou]

“It’s in the family that we must all learn the fundamental lesson of life right and wrong, respect for others, self-discipline, the importance of knowledge, and, yes, a sense of our own self-worth.”

Gabriel Fischer and James Gonzalez were just two boys looking for trouble and like all the boys on the Santa Carla pier, they liked to get lost. This…ambition to lose themselves in the night led them to the iron works. 100 years ago everyone worked here, supplying all the steel for the railways up the coast. When the “big one” hit San Francisco in 1906 the whole place caught fire. Those who didn’t die in the earthquake were trapped. Ended up killing just about everyone inside. Some folks say it’s haunted. Wouldn’t be able to tell it from the way the hooks hanging above swung softly from side to side, four hooks. Perfect set. Or the table with a certain…bottle on top of it.

“Woah, get a load of this creepy shit!” Gabriel exclaimed to his pal, sitting on a couch that doesn’t belong to him. The boy seemed excited by the surroundings. James wasn’t so convinced.

“You sure this is a good idea, Gabriel? I mean, uh this whole place is giving me the heebie-jeebies you know we could just go home…”

“But, that’s what makes it so cool, James! You don’t buy into that whole ‘haunted’ bull crap do you? Come on, you’ve been spending too much time around those damn Frogs…” He moved aside on the sofa. Cute. Birds of a feather stick together don’t they, friend?

Ooh-oooh-ooh-oh-ooh-ooh-oh-oooh ༄

“Do you hear that?” James asked, Gabriel evidently did, he stood up to look around.

Atta boy…Bet he’s finally hearing that breeze clinking those hooks together…Clink…Clink…Clink…

˖ ݁♬⋆.˚𝄞 A-a-ah…A-a-ah ˖ ݁♬⋆.˚𝄞

“Is that…whistling?”

˖ ݁♬⋆.˚𝄞 A-a-ah…A-a-ah ˖ ݁♬⋆.˚𝄞

A little creak in the wrong place…

“Ah!”

A flickering of a broken light…

“What the…?”

The sound of a laugh in the dark slowly approaching…

Hahahahahaha

Our favorite little trespassers scan the environment for any signs of danger. Nothing to be found.

“W-We’re not looking for trouble!”

“Show yourself now, stranger!!!”

And neither are we, friend. We’re just…hungry.

˖ ݁♬⋆.˚𝄞 A-a-ah…A-a-ah ˖ ݁♬⋆.˚𝄞

There’s no way out. Things are looking

Up…

Up…

Up…

“AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!”

MISSING

James Gonzalez

AGE: 16

SEX: Male

HEIGHT: 5’11

WEIGHT: 155

EYES: Brown

HAIR: Brown

LAST SEEN: Near the abandoned iron works

IF YOU HAVE ANY INFORMATION ABOUT JAMES PLEASE CONTACT THE SANTA CARLA POLICE IMMEDIATELY!

ᴏɴ ᴛʜᴇ sᴀɴᴛᴀ ᴄᴀʀʟᴀ ʙᴏᴀʀᴅᴡᴀʟᴋ ᴛᴏɴɪɢʜᴛ: ᴛʜᴇ ʟᴏsᴛ ʙᴏʏs ʟɪᴠᴇ! ᴘᴇʀғᴏʀᴍɪɴɢ ᴛʜᴇɪʀ ʜɪᴛ “ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴛᴏ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ʏᴏᴜ”

I need a quick hit

Come on and give me it

Don't give me counterfeit, no

Give me the good shit

A-a-ah…A-a-ah

“Thank you, Santa Carla! Thank you! We’ll be back! See you then! Good night!”

Well, look at that. We got a fan! Haven’t seen you around here before. I know summer’s the time for tourists but no time like the present. I’m David. This is Marko. That’s Dwayne…and Paul. Didn’t catch your name. Go on, tell us about yourself…No need to be so shy…Nobody here but us…We’re all friends here aren’t we? We’re not the judgin’ types, my brothers and me. We’re just talking…All you need is a little bit of encouragement. Don’t sweat it too much, I’m in no hurry. I’ve got all of the time in the world…

The uh, zest of life is new things. Exploring the unknown. You like that, don’t you? Exploring the unknown…Oh, I like that too…Do you ride? The road is wider when you ride it…Freedom. Live. never stop living. Let out the rebel inside and you never die. The world doesn’t have to weight you down anymore. Sounds great doesn’t it? We’d all be a family…So are you in or are you out? It’s time to decide…Are you ready for the ride of your life?

Come on, boys…

{ADMIN GUIDELINES}

{CHARACTER ABOUT}

{RP NAVIGATION + MASTERPOST}

[ihavetohaveyou]

hi david powe

𝕺h, you’re good…I see whatcha did there. Neat trick…Looks like Dwayne’s not the only one with a mispronounced last name tonight, if that really is what it is…my last name that you’re calling me. Wouldn’t know where you would’ve caught it from if it was-Either way, it sounds more like you have the intentions of knocking my lights out with a cheap shot and punch when you pronounce it that way that normal.

While mistakes definitely do happen I would insist on just calling me “David” if you will. That’s what everyone else does. There’s no need for addressing me in any other manner or fashion. Doesn’t make you any special for doing so…Names are just labels, the only ones that matter are the ones you put on yourself. You get to decide who you are, not anyone else or me…though I may have my opinions and guidance if you take it-

[ihavetohaveyou]

david powers or david williams

𝕬h, ah, ah-We got a curious kind on our hands…Nosy about things they don’t understand, that aren’t their business to…Now! While I appreciate your directness and honesty, I really do…Intrusive questions are often met in life without an answer. C’mon, didn’t catch your name and you expect me to throw mine? Oh, that won’t do-that won’t do at all. Manners, friend…

We all got a price to pay, choices to be made-It is a sacrifice to let go of a part of yourself as sacred to your identity as a last name is…They say, you can’t choose your family but in letting go of my own name I chose mine…Whatever one it is-or something else entirely my name could be doesn’t matter anymore. The boy it belonged to has been lost to time and can’t be found. It’s a name that holds no power over me, try as you might to…But, never hurts to try, huh? There’s no reason not to when getting answers like that is something so sweet, right?

[rocknrollercoastin]

hello dwayne stephe

you gonna finish that last part, pal? What stopped ya?

And a good evenin’ to you, unknown guy

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝕰ver considered changing your last name, Dwayne? “Stephe” has its…appeals-doesn’t it? Suits you better than that pesky last name of yours ever could-

[feralfangedfrights]

I got new dice, heh (no ones allowed to ask me how expensive these were. God I need to put a padlock on my wallet)

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝕹ice. Buttt I do think I have the right to ask how much you spent on those pretty dice you got there, Dwayne…‘Cause those don’t look cheap.

[feralfangedfrights]

They were… a fantastic price. That you totally won’t be mad at me for spending.

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝖀h huh, so I’ve noticed you still haven’t told me how much that was while we were talking…Never said I’d get mad at you, boy. But, well, I expect an answer…

[feralfangedfrights]

Alright, alright! It was... 20.. ish.. bucks..

[ihavetohaveyou]

…

𝕬nd where did you get that kind of money all the sudden? If I were you I’d start talking.

[feralfangedfrights]

And this is why I didn’t want to tell you- and for the record I got it on out last hunt, the dude we murked’s wallet was on the ground and had a shit ton of cash in it. What else was I supposed to do? Not take it?

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝕲uess that’s better than any of the alternatives at play. Rob Max’s wallet…a meal’s wallet…It doesn’t matter to me at all so long as that pocket change doesn’t come from me or mine, Dwayne. If it does then that’s where the troubles lie. More than willing to encourage your little hobbies and nice dice if it doesn’t cost me a pretty penny in doing so like that…Whole lot of things in the world you can get for a 20…

[feralfangedfrights]

Oh you know I wouldn’t go near your wallet, man. Don’t even know where you keep the damn thing!

And yeah, there’s plenty you can get for a 20.. food, clothes.. more dice..

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝕹ot all kinds of truths are meant to come out, some secrets are better kept that way…secrets-Where I keep my wallet will remain one of life’s greatest mysteries-

How many more sets of dice does a boy like you need? Always collecting new ones…Hungry for your fix…Wasting away until you get your paws on another set…

[feralfangedfrights]

A dice goblins greed has no limits, all the pretty rocks shall be mine <3 (.. no matter how my wallet and sanity may protest)

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝖂ell, at least you really do know how to pick ‘em…Pretty dice and rocks…Gotta respect it. There’s no better way to spend your time and wallet then on the things you love, right?

[feralfangedfrights]

Exactly! It’s why I bought Paul and Laddie lunch yesterday- gotta treat my gang right and all that.

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝕬nd treat them right you do! Always have…and always will. I bet they both really appreciated it-you taking them out for lunch…Next time I should do the same for you. Maybe then you might…extend the invitation forward to me…while we’re at it…

[feralfangedfrights]

Heh, oh of course. Takin’ turns spoilin’ each other is one of my favorite pastimes, honestly.

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝕿here’s always a little dance…Us taking turns giving and taking-All relationships are about the push and the pull. You can’t run from it or fight it-Been a while since I’ve gotten to spoil ya, should change that sometime soon…All you have to is name a time and-place and I’ll follow. No expenses to be spared-

[feralfangedfrights]

Hah, man, you know how to flatter a guy.. “no expenses to be spared”, Tch.. Just you wait till I find where Max hides his wallet- then I’ll take ya’ somewhere real nice in return, maybe get ya’ a new coat while I’m at it.

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝖄ou say I know how to flatter a guy like you…Well, look who’s talking, Dwayne. Barely even just got started and you already got me flattered too…Take it from someone who knows the old man inside and out-he keeps it in a safe in his room because he knows I’ll go on to take it if he doesn’t…

[feralfangedfrights]

Hey, well, I learned how to flatter from the best.. and dammit- y’know what kind of lock is on it? Maybe I can find something to pick it with..

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝕳mm, I could agree to that…Would’ve been easier if it was a pickable lock-rotary dial lock was what he used…Gonna need the combination. What I wouldn’t give to see the look on his face when we crack it-Not an if but, when we do…We got the time and means to do it-

[feralfangedfrights]

Damn, yeah the look on his face sure would be priceless, heh. Maybe he wrote it down somewhere? Or we can just try to watch him like a damn hawk or somethin’ whenever he goes to take it in or out of the safe.

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝕶nowing Max, he’ll slip up…and when he does we’ll have what we need to get it. Could always check the break room of the video store while he’s already out? If he’s got it written down somewhere nowhere better than a place we’re not supposed to be-

[feralfangedfrights]

I got new dice, heh (no ones allowed to ask me how expensive these were. God I need to put a padlock on my wallet)

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝕹ice. Buttt I do think I have the right to ask how much you spent on those pretty dice you got there, Dwayne…‘Cause those don’t look cheap.

[feralfangedfrights]

They were… a fantastic price. That you totally won’t be mad at me for spending.

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝖀h huh, so I’ve noticed you still haven’t told me how much that was while we were talking…Never said I’d get mad at you, boy. But, well, I expect an answer…

[feralfangedfrights]

Alright, alright! It was... 20.. ish.. bucks..

[ihavetohaveyou]

…

𝕬nd where did you get that kind of money all the sudden? If I were you I’d start talking.

[feralfangedfrights]

And this is why I didn’t want to tell you- and for the record I got it on out last hunt, the dude we murked’s wallet was on the ground and had a shit ton of cash in it. What else was I supposed to do? Not take it?

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝕲uess that’s better than any of the alternatives at play. Rob Max’s wallet…a meal’s wallet…It doesn’t matter to me at all so long as that pocket change doesn’t come from me or mine, Dwayne. If it does then that’s where the troubles lie. More than willing to encourage your little hobbies and nice dice if it doesn’t cost me a pretty penny in doing so like that…Whole lot of things in the world you can get for a 20…

[feralfangedfrights]

Oh you know I wouldn’t go near your wallet, man. Don’t even know where you keep the damn thing!

And yeah, there’s plenty you can get for a 20.. food, clothes.. more dice..

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝕹ot all kinds of truths are meant to come out, some secrets are better kept that way…secrets-Where I keep my wallet will remain one of life’s greatest mysteries-

How many more sets of dice does a boy like you need? Always collecting new ones…Hungry for your fix…Wasting away until you get your paws on another set…

[feralfangedfrights]

A dice goblins greed has no limits, all the pretty rocks shall be mine <3 (.. no matter how my wallet and sanity may protest)

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝖂ell, at least you really do know how to pick ‘em…Pretty dice and rocks…Gotta respect it. There’s no better way to spend your time and wallet then on the things you love, right?

[feralfangedfrights]

Exactly! It’s why I bought Paul and Laddie lunch yesterday- gotta treat my gang right and all that.

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝕬nd treat them right you do! Always have…and always will. I bet they both really appreciated it-you taking them out for lunch…Next time I should do the same for you. Maybe then you might…extend the invitation forward to me…while we’re at it…

[feralfangedfrights]

Heh, oh of course. Takin’ turns spoilin’ each other is one of my favorite pastimes, honestly.

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝕿here’s always a little dance…Us taking turns giving and taking-All relationships are about the push and the pull. You can’t run from it or fight it-Been a while since I’ve gotten to spoil ya, should change that sometime soon…All you have to is name a time and-place and I’ll follow. No expenses to be spared-

[feralfangedfrights]

Hah, man, you know how to flatter a guy.. “no expenses to be spared”, Tch.. Just you wait till I find where Max hides his wallet- then I’ll take ya’ somewhere real nice in return, maybe get ya’ a new coat while I’m at it.

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝖄ou say I know how to flatter a guy like you…Well, look who’s talking, Dwayne. Barely even just got started and you already got me flattered too…Take it from someone who knows the old man inside and out-he keeps it in a safe in his room because he knows I’ll go on to take it if he doesn’t…

[feralfangedfrights]

Hey, well, I learned how to flatter from the best.. and dammit- y’know what kind of lock is on it? Maybe I can find something to pick it with..

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝕳mm, I could agree to that…Would’ve been easier if it was a pickable lock-rotary dial lock was what he used…Gonna need the combination. What I wouldn’t give to see the look on his face when we crack it-Not an if but, when we do…We got the time and means to do it-

[feralfangedfrights]

I got new dice, heh (no ones allowed to ask me how expensive these were. God I need to put a padlock on my wallet)

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝕹ice. Buttt I do think I have the right to ask how much you spent on those pretty dice you got there, Dwayne…‘Cause those don’t look cheap.

[feralfangedfrights]

They were… a fantastic price. That you totally won’t be mad at me for spending.

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝖀h huh, so I’ve noticed you still haven’t told me how much that was while we were talking…Never said I’d get mad at you, boy. But, well, I expect an answer…

[feralfangedfrights]

Alright, alright! It was... 20.. ish.. bucks..

[ihavetohaveyou]

…

𝕬nd where did you get that kind of money all the sudden? If I were you I’d start talking.

[feralfangedfrights]

And this is why I didn’t want to tell you- and for the record I got it on out last hunt, the dude we murked’s wallet was on the ground and had a shit ton of cash in it. What else was I supposed to do? Not take it?

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝕲uess that’s better than any of the alternatives at play. Rob Max’s wallet…a meal’s wallet…It doesn’t matter to me at all so long as that pocket change doesn’t come from me or mine, Dwayne. If it does then that’s where the troubles lie. More than willing to encourage your little hobbies and nice dice if it doesn’t cost me a pretty penny in doing so like that…Whole lot of things in the world you can get for a 20…

[feralfangedfrights]

Oh you know I wouldn’t go near your wallet, man. Don’t even know where you keep the damn thing!

And yeah, there’s plenty you can get for a 20.. food, clothes.. more dice..

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝕹ot all kinds of truths are meant to come out, some secrets are better kept that way…secrets-Where I keep my wallet will remain one of life’s greatest mysteries-

How many more sets of dice does a boy like you need? Always collecting new ones…Hungry for your fix…Wasting away until you get your paws on another set…

[feralfangedfrights]

A dice goblins greed has no limits, all the pretty rocks shall be mine <3 (.. no matter how my wallet and sanity may protest)

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝖂ell, at least you really do know how to pick ‘em…Pretty dice and rocks…Gotta respect it. There’s no better way to spend your time and wallet then on the things you love, right?

[feralfangedfrights]

Exactly! It’s why I bought Paul and Laddie lunch yesterday- gotta treat my gang right and all that.

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝕬nd treat them right you do! Always have…and always will. I bet they both really appreciated it-you taking them out for lunch…Next time I should do the same for you. Maybe then you might…extend the invitation forward to me…while we’re at it…

[feralfangedfrights]

Heh, oh of course. Takin’ turns spoilin’ each other is one of my favorite pastimes, honestly.

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝕿here’s always a little dance…Us taking turns giving and taking-All relationships are about the push and the pull. You can’t run from it or fight it-Been a while since I’ve gotten to spoil ya, should change that sometime soon…All you have to is name a time and-place and I’ll follow. No expenses to be spared-

[feralfangedfrights]

Hah, man, you know how to flatter a guy.. “no expenses to be spared”, Tch.. Just you wait till I find where Max hides his wallet- then I’ll take ya’ somewhere real nice in return, maybe get ya’ a new coat while I’m at it.

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝖄ou say I know how to flatter a guy like you…Well, look who’s talking, Dwayne. Barely even just got started and you already got me flattered too…Take it from someone who knows the old man inside and out-he keeps it in a safe in his room because he knows I’ll go on to take it if he doesn’t…

[thoushallnotfear]

// Open RP //

TW: Mentions of parental abuse (canon-typical to the musical)

It wasn’t real. Michael knew it wasn’t real, because it couldn’t be real. His family had escaped Arizona, he was no longer in that house, he was no longer around him. His father couldn’t hurt him here, and Michael knew that. But when the shadows of his house elongated, and the room spun, and Michael’s vision came back with his father standing in the corner of his room, Michael’s panic was very real. Despite every logical reason he could give himself on how his father couldn’t have followed them, how it made no sense that he would’ve even been able to find their house, no amount of logic could make him disappear. Not at first, at least.

It wasn’t anything new. The usual berating, the usual yelling… the usual moves to harm. Michael had hoped everything he’d been through lately would arm him to actually fight back more, or run as far away as he could, but he just… froze. He couldn’t do anything. He felt so powerless. Just like always.

He squeezed his eyes shut, bracing himself over what was to come.

And then… nothing. Like it never happened. His father was gone. The room was normal. But Michael’s panic remained.

Michael scrambled to his feet, running out of the house and making a beeline for his bike. He didn’t know where he was going, he only knew he needed to be anywhere but here. He rode with nothing in his head but the pounding of his heart in his ears, until he came to the beach near the pier. He parked his bike, jumping off of it and slumping down onto the sand, his breathing still heavy.

It wasn’t real. Michael had been right.

But at one point, it had been.

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[ihavetohaveyou]

𝕯avid had been at the beach that night too, for no particular reason at all besides wanting to be there. He’d been sitting on an old supply box in the sand, legs crossed on top, sitting with a kind of tailor’s posture. He had been humming a song that matched the nearby sea he avoided getting into if he knew what was good for him. Always the observer, never the doer. His song calm as it was in its serenity had an alluring call to it, like a siren if only he was one. Those were reserved for Mallory and her world he’d never understand. But, in this eerie, placid state, David felt more bored than tranquil. Eyes glazing over with boredom. Like even now the blonde needed something of excitement to happen to make tonight more…Memorable.

And that rush of adrenaline and anticipation came in Michael crashing and burning down on the sand not too far away from him to see. Always was an exciting thing…Seeing Michael-even if the boy looked like he was in pain. Pain about his past…David knew what that was like, the push and the pull of letting go…

“Tough night tonight, Michael?” He called out, his voice smooth and soothing, like a parent looking to comfort someone else’s sad and distressed child.

The platinum blonde vampire wanted to be everything he could be for him…Whatever Michael needed was what he would be tonight.

He had ran before-ran from the memories he hated, ran from the world, who he was, who he was supposed to be. But, the brunette had something David didn’t back then: he had him to fall back on if he’d do it…Boys when they got like this required gentleness, a crooning and steady hand pushing them where they’re going to go and he was ready to be that for Michael if he didn’t try to run away from him too-Wouldn’t be a first.

“C’mon, seat just vacated…” He readjusted his position, legs now dangling as he patted the area next to him for Michael to sit beside him. His perfect skin ethereal and uncanny under the beach’s moonlight.

“Not gonna hurt ya,” He grinned. “Just talking…”

[thoushallnotfear]

Michael’s gaze swivels to find David perched on his supply box, his eyes still visibly glazed over from his panic. “David?” He replied, the look on his face mixed with pain both from his predicament and from being found, like a child who had been caught in a position they didn’t want their parent to see them in, but still desperately wanted that parent’s comfort.

Still, Michael pushes himself to his feet unsteadily, stumbling towards the blonde and stumping down into the spot next to him.

“I’m okay,” he gets out through short breaths. “Nothing even… nothing even happened. Just… need to catch my breath.”

He tries to meet David’s eyes to back up his words, but it was difficult to do so. He feels so vulnerable. He almost wishes no one could see him at all.

[ihavetohaveyou]

“𝕯on’t seem particularly ok there, Michael.” David had taken notice to Michael’s stumbling around, the way the boy was breathing like every breath he took might as well be his last…The vampire didn’t believe him for a second when he said he was ok and wasn’t afraid to show it as much, being brazen and blunt even as gentle as he was trying to be with him. “Just ‘cause it didn’t happen doesn’t mean it didn’t feel real.”

“Go on…Breathe in…” David curled his fingers up into a fist. “And breathe out…” He opened his palm back up like he was just about to drop something. “Trust me, Michael…It’ll help with what you’re feeling.” He crooned.

The immortal had a feeling of what the boy was going through, sympathizing with it even if in his own way-“I won’t push ya to talk.” He shrugged one shoulder, putting his hands up in front of him defensively. “But, I’ll listen if you want to. It’s your choice.”

“Nice night we’re having…” He shifted his focus to the sea, kicking his legs as they dangled off the box. “Great time to be out here, isn’t it?” It was an abrupt change, but one to give Michael space if he wanted it.

[thoushallnotfear]

Michael can’t meet David’s eyes. David sees through him on the best of days, and he knew it must be obvious this was not the best of days. Michael finds himself focusing on David’s hands as David begins to run him through a breathing exercise. He struggles to follow the pattern for a few moments, but he’s eventually able to match the rhythm David has set, closing his eyes and focusing just on the sound of the ocean and David’s voice.

After a few moments, Michael speaks again. “I’m sorry. It wasn’t… it wasn’t even anything new. It wasn’t anything I haven’t told you about before. Just… I don’t know. It felt like a nightmare, but I don’t think I was asleep. It’s… dumb. I’m sorry.”

Michael looks back out towards the sea. “Yeah. It is a really nice night out,” he says. As he often does, he finds his eyes drifting back towards David, studying him. “Beautiful,” he says absentmindedly.

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝕯avid pointed his index finger up. “There’s nothing stupid about what you just said, Michael.” The blonde put his arm around Michael’s shoulder gently, pulling the boy closer to him. “Sometimes our mind doesn’t like to let things go when it should…Holds on to the past with all it’s got…” It sounded like to him Michael had been hallucinating again, something they’d talked about before. “It’s natural. When the father that made you did that to you…It’ll get better soon. You’re safer here than you’ve ever been there. I got you.” He patted Michael gently on the shoulder.

“Trust me, there’s a lot of beautiful things out here tonight, Michael…” David’s eyes were on him as he said that, nothing about the shore or the sea was as beautiful or captivating to the century old being as Michael was to him. The vampire delicately ran his fingers through the brunette’s curly locks with a pleased hum as he did it.

“Glad you came here tonight…Talking with me even if you didn’t intend to.” They were alone together, nobody else there but them to enjoy this moment and even in Michael’s suffering state David found enjoyment just sitting beside him, something sweet to him about the vulnerability, the way his boy needed him now more than ever go to him in a way that made his heart swell with something almost warm after a lifetime of cold.

[thoushallnotfear]

Michael flinches a little at David’s touch, but only a little. He closes his eyes and nods at the blonde’s words, leaning closer to him. “You’re right, I know,” he says. “I know I’m safe here. Thank— thank you.”

Michael opens his eyes enough to follow David’s gaze as he continues to speak, his heart rate spiking again for completely different reasons than before. He closes his eyes again as he allows David to run his fingers through his hair, his expression relaxing.

“Thank you,” the boy repeats. “For… for everything,” he says. A part of his stomach twists as he says it, though; if he is hallucinating again, it is because of his half-vampiric nature, something he was only informed of after David had made the choice for him. And with everything else that had come for that, could Michael say what he said with his full chest?

He wants to mean it. He wishes he meant it.

He hopes his line of thought doesn’t show in any way, even if he feels a bit of tension in his posture again, or if his contented expression doesn’t quite hide his uncertainty.

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝕯avid had caught Michael’s small, but unmistakable flinch under his touch. The flinch of a boy who likely wasn’t touched this way a lot. That weak resistance against the vampire’s grip on him and his ways-In more ways than one.

The blonde had chosen to ignore it. Not out of not seeing it, but out of awareness that this was a part of a bigger plan in motion than a tiny flinch could ever come between. Michael was still uncertain, fighting in never ending conflict in his mind and you could feel that tension permitting his being. The brunette was getting there but he wasn’t ready to give in and succumb to them yet-He hadn’t always been ready before either, neither were his boys…All Michael needed was what Star needed: time and patience and David was nothing if not someone who knew how to wait. Sometimes it felt like it was all in his mind too.

“No need to thank me, Michael.” He grabbed the boy’s hand in his free one, providing Michael with both of his arms to catch him when he fell-an embrace loving and gentle but ultimately damning too in its coldness and difficulty to get out of. Like David needed to hold on to the half-vampire as much, if not more than Michael would ever need his attempted sire to do for him. “Always look out for one of my own. I know what you want…what you need even before you tell me you do. Didn’t just give you a part of me for no reason, did I?”

“You’ll see it too one day…That I gave you everything…Even if you don’t now.”

“Hallucinations are a part of the process into becoming one of us…You’re well on your way. You wanted to belong somewhere, right? Well, you belong now…Here…With me…And I won’t let any shadows from your past come and get you tonight. Screw your dad, Michael. He can’t ever hurt you again.”

[thoushallnotfear]

Michael allows himself to fall back into David’s embrace. It was in moments like this he realized how starved he was of that comforting affection. He had been keeping his brother at arm’s length, and he had convinced himself that he hadn’t needed it from his mother, after all the times she failed him. But god, did he want it. Of course he wanted it.

Still, the lump in Michael’s throat remains as he listens to David’s words. Nothing gets by David; Michael should know this by now. And David wasn’t saying anything that wasn’t true— David did know what Michael needed, time and time again. The feeling of belonging he had gotten from David and the other boys was unparalleled. So Michael found himself nodding along. Hadn’t he gotten exactly what he asked for?

But he didn’t want to hurt anyone.

Or did he?

“…sometimes,” he starts, his voice quiet and uneven, “when I wasn’t wishing I could just disappear to escape everything… I wished I could kill him.”

It was something he had never admitted out loud to anyone, because Michael still remembers all the good times he had with his father. He had loved him. And how could you say you wished you could kill someone you loved?

But it was true.

And there was no point trying to hide anything from David, anyways.

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝕯avid didn’t judge Michael for the admission of what he knew to be true. He’d already gathered a lot of people who claim to hide behind pacifism just hadn’t met the right person to hurt yet, had they? The injury that had once been on Michael’s stomach, left there by the man he had to call a father who didn’t deserve a boy like him had been healed by his gift, but the bruise and scars were the deepest kind-etched below the flesh and somewhere deeper inside.

The vampire knew what it was like to want to go after the father that made him, but time among other circumstances had made it impossible to ever gain that kind of closure. Daddy dearest died a long time ago of old age and his sire might as well be an unkillable force in of himself. So, the blonde walked alone, wandering like a ghost on unfinished business…

He knew the boy was a killer.

Just hadn’t found the right person to stop the hunger inside.

“Then go on…” He slowly drew circles in the flesh of Michael’s hand with a sharpened nail. “Do it. Nobody here to stop you. Way I see it, boy. You need to feed and that bastard needs to die.”

David’s voice remained calm, deliberate with every word. He weeped for Michael’s sorrow, impassioned by his boy’s rage-but, for now sweet enabling and crooning would have to do it for him. “Some people deserve to die, Michael. Learned that a long time ago. Doesn’t make you or me bad to think that.”

“Suffering should be ended. Tell me, Michael, which one of you should it be?”

“Him…Or you?”

[thoushallnotfear]

Michael stiffens. He stares off towards the water, thinking about David’s words, meditating on them as David’s finger pressed into his hand gently. A claw that could slice him open if David so chose, but was instead being used to encourage him to make his own attack.

“I… I could do that.” He speaks in barely a whisper, less as something he’s saying and more something he’s thinking aloud.

It was always something that had felt completely impossible before. An fantasy played out in his mind when Michael felt weakest or angriest, of making sure his father could never hurt him again, of hurting his father more than his father had ever hurt him, of pushing him down and kicking him in the stomach and making him cry and—

But it had only ever been a fantasy. Michael had never been stronger than his father. He never would have been able to do it.

But that was before. Before Santa Carla, before the change, before David.

Now he had the power.

What would stop him if he did it? Certainly not his father. The cops would never catch him, they never caught any of the boys. Sure, he promised himself he’d never go back to Phoenix, but for this, maybe an exception would be worth it.

And then he could be what David wanted him to be. Forever.

“Someone needs…” he speaks slowly, voice low and raspy and so goddamn angry, “…to put that bastard in his place. And why shouldn’t it be me? Who better?”

[ihavetohaveyou]

“𝖂ho better than you, Michael?” David agreed in full with the boy. His agreement came with a lull, eyes-half open and lidded. Michael was his boy, the puppy he’d taken off the run and kept as his own…Looks like he was finally growing some teeth of his own more than the ones he already knew him to have-

“You’re stronger than you think you are…Because he made you feel weak…and scared and alone…But, you’re not alone anymore.”

The blonde’s eyes darted to the earring he’d given to Michael that first night…Under the pier for his ear-so Star’s piercing wouldn’t close up. The one he had intended to take back from the boy after they ate, however Max’s-intrusion led to the boy’s survival and him letting the earring be kept by him. A dagger, silver and sharp as a sword dangling beneath his ear…The choice he’d given him…To reclaim his own power when the time comes and soon, he would it seems-

“He took your power, Michael. Made your life hell like that for so long. Only inevitable a boy like you would start fighting back. Way I see it is you have to take it back…your power.”

David knew what he was indulging in convincing Michael of these things…Playing with fire when he loved to burn-

“I gave you the tools. All you have to do is use them.”

“Men like that are…like dogs, Michael.” He broke up the hand holding to hold the brunette’s face instead, that same finger from before now tracing down Michael’s jawline instead. “Some dogs…can be kept…trained.” His face darkened as he pulled away. “Others…Have to be put down.”

He said that last part with bitterness, his own nosing scrunching up a little as he looked away.

“Let out the monster inside, boy. Sounds harder than it is…You got all this rage you don’t understand yet. Don’t fight it…Let it take you in and see where it takes you…and set yourself free.”

[thoushallnotfear]

Michael closes his eyes, leaning into David’s touch, the blonde’s every word stoking a fire in him. David made him feel like a live wire, full of electricity and power and coiled and ready to be used to set everything alight. And oh, how beautiful David made it sound like everything would look when it burned and blew up.

He could picture it now: standing above his father, ready to tear into him, mouth watering, ready to taste the very blood that ran in his veins. Maybe by consuming it, he would finally take back any part of him that still belongs to his father.

But as he envisions his bloodied future in his mind, the image shifts: suddenly, he’s not standing over his father anymore. In his father’s place is Sam, the look of sheer terror on his face a direct parallel to the look Michael remembers from the night he crashed through their bedroom window. The night Sam thought Michael was going to kill him.

The image doused the fire around his heart almost in an instant, and icy cold shooting through his veins. He suddenly felt sick.

If he did this… if he gave into his anger, despite how much his father may deserve it… who would be the next victim of his wrath?

Forever he would hold this hunger for blood, should he take this road. Forever he would hurt people the same way his father hurt him.

If he did this, he truly would be setting a monster free.

Michael inhales sharply, eyes shooting open. His eyes dart around, David filling his vision. There’s nowhere he can look that the vampire isn’t, not when they’re this close. He searches instead for something, anything to tell David. His stomach drops at the mere thought of how David may react if he backs out now.

“…And once it’s done,” he starts, his voice weaker than he wishes it was, “How do I determine… who needs to be ‘put down’ next?”

It was the best he could come up with, even though it didn’t get to the heart of his issue. He wasn’t worried about killing the right people; he was worried about becoming the wrong one.

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝕳e was losing him…Michael. That weak doubt from inside him coming back and faster than he expected too, even if the boy was still leaning into his touch like he knew it to be where he belonged…His grip on him still tight literally if not figuratively too…Could tell he had to win him back over to his side, get that boy on the same page with him and quickly before he would retreat too far away back into the light for him him to come out and find…

David saw that rage in Michael, the anger and hurt of a killer raised and breed. He didn’t have to make Michael anything he already wasn’t. Deep down there was a rebel inside him-a monster as violent and as real as he was too. In that he saw himself in the brunette-they really were the same underneath it all…Michael just wasn’t willing to go as far but he would…and he will…soon. He had to wait for it-if that was what it took. As long as it was he’d nurture the monster he saw in him and wanted to set free on the world that didn’t deserve him. Then they could be one together.

Every full vampire he’d known had taken a different approach to the diet. Learning how to cope with the inevitable of their fate was a difficult road they all had to navigate-Some of them were more willing to adapt than others…Others would only kill who they must. The assholes, the slimes, the people who didn’t deserve to breathe the air with the rest of the living and undead…

Then some of them, like Star…Wouldn’t cope with that reality at all. Fighting tooth and claw to not have to feed. Stubborn girl she was…

Pain in the ass-Tore him up inside to see her like that even if she brought it on herself. But, Michael wasn’t like that. He had to decide for himself what it would be when the time came to eat.

Michael was running from something that was always going to happen. No point in fighting when he was going to give in. They always did…Every one of them…

And so will Star too, then they’ll all be as happy as he envisioned it. Could practically smell the gratitude and smiles already…their sire…savior…lover-He just wanted them to be happy and nowhere else could they be happy than with him.

“Whoever you’d like to feed on next.” He said finally after a pause. “Some of us are pickier eaters, Michael. Those of them only partake in eating the ones who deserve it. The shit stains of the world who need to be cleaned up…And some of us aren’t. We eat who we can…Regardless of who they are.”

“It’s your choice…Who you feed on…” His legs began moving again, one lightly bumping Michael’s as he spoke. “So long as you eat.”

“This world’s a buffet for our kind-An…all you can eat buffet of different kinds of courses. If not your father, someone else. As bad or as good as you need them to be to sleep with us at night. You’re there with us, the table set-you have to decide who you want off the menu, Michael. Can’t make that decision for you…”

[thoushallnotfear]

So long as you eat.

Of course David caught Michael’s apprehension immediately. Michael was an idiot for thinking he could play it off. Suddenly he wished more than anything that he could tap back into that rage he had felt moments prior. It had felt destructive and all-consuming, but he had felt in control then. Now, that feeling of control slipped out of his grasp. He wished giving that control to David didn’t make him feel like a caged animal, but he couldn’t get over that feeling either.

Michael was trapped. He’d been trapped ever since he drank David’s blood, hadn’t he? The second he did, he signed his life away to the vampire, whether he had fully known it at the time or not.

And he knew it more than he had been willing to admit.

Michael had spent the past little bit convincing himself he was completely oblivious to what he was doing when he drank from that chalice. But when he was fully honest with himself… he had seen how all the boys deferred to David at every turn. He had seen how Star bent to his will, even as she warned him to run away. And he had felt within himself the way he wished to follow David like a sailor being called by a siren song. Even if Star hadn’t been insistent that he drank, can he truly convince himself that he wouldn’t have done just that?

There was no one to blame for his position but himself.

Michael wanted so badly to pull away, to stand up for himself, but the words died in his throat. One look at David killed all his resolve. David was so beautiful, so alive, so powerful. Michael was nothing compared to him.

If he truly thought about it, his father was going to drink himself to death anyways. All Michael was doing was speeding up an inevitable fate.

Voice still shaky, Michael speaks again. “…I don’t know how to do it.”

An admission of weakness, maybe, but also a true statement. Michael needed guidance. Michael needed David, didn’t he?

[ihavetohaveyou]

“𝕴 don’t know how to do it.”

They rarely did…Know how to do it. Taking the last step was taking a leap of faith and hoping you fly and don’t fall…Once you reach the end of your road there was no turning back, the daylight will fade-no light at the end of the tunnel to tell you where you were going as you reach your final destination. Bloodied hands can’t be cleaned, the crimson…It sticks to ya for the eternity you long last. Spotless on the surface, but the mark of your sacrifice always remains under your fingernails…

What Michael was searching for was guidance and David wanted to give it to him. He wanted to be everything he ever could be for the boy in need-the boy who hadn’t yet run away even in spite of knowing what he was now.

The brunette maintained an innocence but complicity-both him and Star reluctant to kill but turned a blind eye to the killers they could call family…That was enough proof to the blonde that they both had what it took-that he chose well in them even if they didn’t see that themselves yet.

If Michael knew what was in the chalice or not didn’t matter. David had cut his hand out in the open in front of the boy, pouring it in-always clear what he was drinking even if he didn’t mention the…side effects of drinking or what would happen if he didn’t…In his blood he’d given Michael a gift, a part of himself to keep and carry within for as long as he should live if he chose to accept the offering-His heart and blood with him now and he said yes…Wasn’t so easy to turn back now, was it? Not without turning against him, and that wouldn’t be so advised-if you’re not with David, you’re against him, his boys would follow too-loyalty defined their brotherhood and coven and Michael was a part of it…Something bigger than himself-

To throw that away would be a fruitless venture-Then he’d be alone again. Belonging nowhere and that was even if David would ever let him go on his own-When you join the brotherhood you don’t so easily leave-

But, he never wanted that. Not when he poured so much of his…affections and attention into the boy sitting beside him…A Michael couldn’t be so easily replaced…A lost soul like his was something special and delicate-The blonde wanted him and intended to keep him, like all the other boys he’d met before him. But, this time it felt like more of a pressing matter to him-The connection between him and Michael something new and rare to the century old vampire who’d met a lot of people as he walked the world-Addictive as it was thrilling-To hold Michael was to feel held in return too and David could get used to that if he was so allowed.

“That’s always the hardest part…Knowing where to start…” David started for him, gently holding Michael’s hand up. “Don’t have nails like me but you could. All you gotta do is grow ‘em out.” He nudged the boy with a taunt in his throat as he held his own hand up, calloused with experience, youthful in age-

“Feel that anger inside you felt when you punched me and turn that to a weapon. You’ll know what to do. Don’t fight it. Instinct with have its away.”

“Used to be hungry too…For something more-like you, Michael.” It was a soft admission by David-he knew where the half-vampire’s story starts, he’d been on that road before… “Look at me now: I’m not hungry anymore.” He grinned. All of Santa Carla was littered with the proof of the blonde’s own hunger and greed-missing posters, broken up families that’ll always be missing a part, never a whole again…To think, ‘The Murder Capital of the World’ didn’t have to be like this, screams in the dark, blood hidden under neon lights-All this turning and carnage leading back to the singer with a gentle croon and a smile as he pulled you under where you’d never come back up again.

“Don’t you want to feel that too? Full…in heart, mind, and stomach…”

[feralfangedfrights]

I got new dice, heh (no ones allowed to ask me how expensive these were. God I need to put a padlock on my wallet)

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝕹ice. Buttt I do think I have the right to ask how much you spent on those pretty dice you got there, Dwayne…‘Cause those don’t look cheap.

[feralfangedfrights]

They were… a fantastic price. That you totally won’t be mad at me for spending.

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝖀h huh, so I’ve noticed you still haven’t told me how much that was while we were talking…Never said I’d get mad at you, boy. But, well, I expect an answer…

[feralfangedfrights]

Alright, alright! It was... 20.. ish.. bucks..

[ihavetohaveyou]

…

𝕬nd where did you get that kind of money all the sudden? If I were you I’d start talking.

[feralfangedfrights]

And this is why I didn’t want to tell you- and for the record I got it on out last hunt, the dude we murked’s wallet was on the ground and had a shit ton of cash in it. What else was I supposed to do? Not take it?

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝕲uess that’s better than any of the alternatives at play. Rob Max’s wallet…a meal’s wallet…It doesn’t matter to me at all so long as that pocket change doesn’t come from me or mine, Dwayne. If it does then that’s where the troubles lie. More than willing to encourage your little hobbies and nice dice if it doesn’t cost me a pretty penny in doing so like that…Whole lot of things in the world you can get for a 20…

[feralfangedfrights]

Oh you know I wouldn’t go near your wallet, man. Don’t even know where you keep the damn thing!

And yeah, there’s plenty you can get for a 20.. food, clothes.. more dice..

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝕹ot all kinds of truths are meant to come out, some secrets are better kept that way…secrets-Where I keep my wallet will remain one of life’s greatest mysteries-

How many more sets of dice does a boy like you need? Always collecting new ones…Hungry for your fix…Wasting away until you get your paws on another set…

[feralfangedfrights]

A dice goblins greed has no limits, all the pretty rocks shall be mine <3 (.. no matter how my wallet and sanity may protest)

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝖂ell, at least you really do know how to pick ‘em…Pretty dice and rocks…Gotta respect it. There’s no better way to spend your time and wallet then on the things you love, right?

[feralfangedfrights]

Exactly! It’s why I bought Paul and Laddie lunch yesterday- gotta treat my gang right and all that.

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝕬nd treat them right you do! Always have…and always will. I bet they both really appreciated it-you taking them out for lunch…Next time I should do the same for you. Maybe then you might…extend the invitation forward to me…while we’re at it…

[feralfangedfrights]

Heh, oh of course. Takin’ turns spoilin’ each other is one of my favorite pastimes, honestly.

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝕿here’s always a little dance…Us taking turns giving and taking-All relationships are about the push and the pull. You can’t run from it or fight it-Been a while since I’ve gotten to spoil ya, should change that sometime soon…All you have to is name a time and-place and I’ll follow. No expenses to be spared-

[feralfangedfrights]

I got new dice, heh (no ones allowed to ask me how expensive these were. God I need to put a padlock on my wallet)

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝕹ice. Buttt I do think I have the right to ask how much you spent on those pretty dice you got there, Dwayne…‘Cause those don’t look cheap.

[feralfangedfrights]

They were… a fantastic price. That you totally won’t be mad at me for spending.

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝖀h huh, so I’ve noticed you still haven’t told me how much that was while we were talking…Never said I’d get mad at you, boy. But, well, I expect an answer…

[feralfangedfrights]

Alright, alright! It was... 20.. ish.. bucks..

[ihavetohaveyou]

…

𝕬nd where did you get that kind of money all the sudden? If I were you I’d start talking.

[feralfangedfrights]

And this is why I didn’t want to tell you- and for the record I got it on out last hunt, the dude we murked’s wallet was on the ground and had a shit ton of cash in it. What else was I supposed to do? Not take it?

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝕲uess that’s better than any of the alternatives at play. Rob Max’s wallet…a meal’s wallet…It doesn’t matter to me at all so long as that pocket change doesn’t come from me or mine, Dwayne. If it does then that’s where the troubles lie. More than willing to encourage your little hobbies and nice dice if it doesn’t cost me a pretty penny in doing so like that…Whole lot of things in the world you can get for a 20…

[feralfangedfrights]

Oh you know I wouldn’t go near your wallet, man. Don’t even know where you keep the damn thing!

And yeah, there’s plenty you can get for a 20.. food, clothes.. more dice..

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝕹ot all kinds of truths are meant to come out, some secrets are better kept that way…secrets-Where I keep my wallet will remain one of life’s greatest mysteries-

How many more sets of dice does a boy like you need? Always collecting new ones…Hungry for your fix…Wasting away until you get your paws on another set…

[feralfangedfrights]

A dice goblins greed has no limits, all the pretty rocks shall be mine <3 (.. no matter how my wallet and sanity may protest)

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝖂ell, at least you really do know how to pick ‘em…Pretty dice and rocks…Gotta respect it. There’s no better way to spend your time and wallet then on the things you love, right?

[feralfangedfrights]

Exactly! It’s why I bought Paul and Laddie lunch yesterday- gotta treat my gang right and all that.

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝕬nd treat them right you do! Always have…and always will. I bet they both really appreciated it-you taking them out for lunch…Next time I should do the same for you. Maybe then you might…extend the invitation forward to me…while we’re at it…

[feralfangedfrights]

I got new dice, heh (no ones allowed to ask me how expensive these were. God I need to put a padlock on my wallet)

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝕹ice. Buttt I do think I have the right to ask how much you spent on those pretty dice you got there, Dwayne…‘Cause those don’t look cheap.

[feralfangedfrights]

They were… a fantastic price. That you totally won’t be mad at me for spending.

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝖀h huh, so I’ve noticed you still haven’t told me how much that was while we were talking…Never said I’d get mad at you, boy. But, well, I expect an answer…

[feralfangedfrights]

Alright, alright! It was... 20.. ish.. bucks..

[ihavetohaveyou]

…

𝕬nd where did you get that kind of money all the sudden? If I were you I’d start talking.

[feralfangedfrights]

And this is why I didn’t want to tell you- and for the record I got it on out last hunt, the dude we murked’s wallet was on the ground and had a shit ton of cash in it. What else was I supposed to do? Not take it?

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝕲uess that’s better than any of the alternatives at play. Rob Max’s wallet…a meal’s wallet…It doesn’t matter to me at all so long as that pocket change doesn’t come from me or mine, Dwayne. If it does then that’s where the troubles lie. More than willing to encourage your little hobbies and nice dice if it doesn’t cost me a pretty penny in doing so like that…Whole lot of things in the world you can get for a 20…

[feralfangedfrights]

Oh you know I wouldn’t go near your wallet, man. Don’t even know where you keep the damn thing!

And yeah, there’s plenty you can get for a 20.. food, clothes.. more dice..

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝕹ot all kinds of truths are meant to come out, some secrets are better kept that way…secrets-Where I keep my wallet will remain one of life’s greatest mysteries-

How many more sets of dice does a boy like you need? Always collecting new ones…Hungry for your fix…Wasting away until you get your paws on another set…

[feralfangedfrights]

A dice goblins greed has no limits, all the pretty rocks shall be mine <3 (.. no matter how my wallet and sanity may protest)

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝖂ell, at least you really do know how to pick ‘em…Pretty dice and rocks…Gotta respect it. There’s no better way to spend your time and wallet then on the things you love, right?

[feralfangedfrights]

I got new dice, heh (no ones allowed to ask me how expensive these were. God I need to put a padlock on my wallet)

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝕹ice. Buttt I do think I have the right to ask how much you spent on those pretty dice you got there, Dwayne…‘Cause those don’t look cheap.

[feralfangedfrights]

They were… a fantastic price. That you totally won’t be mad at me for spending.

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝖀h huh, so I’ve noticed you still haven’t told me how much that was while we were talking…Never said I’d get mad at you, boy. But, well, I expect an answer…

[feralfangedfrights]

Alright, alright! It was... 20.. ish.. bucks..

[ihavetohaveyou]

…

𝕬nd where did you get that kind of money all the sudden? If I were you I’d start talking.

[feralfangedfrights]

And this is why I didn’t want to tell you- and for the record I got it on out last hunt, the dude we murked’s wallet was on the ground and had a shit ton of cash in it. What else was I supposed to do? Not take it?

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝕲uess that’s better than any of the alternatives at play. Rob Max’s wallet…a meal’s wallet…It doesn’t matter to me at all so long as that pocket change doesn’t come from me or mine, Dwayne. If it does then that’s where the troubles lie. More than willing to encourage your little hobbies and nice dice if it doesn’t cost me a pretty penny in doing so like that…Whole lot of things in the world you can get for a 20…

[feralfangedfrights]

Oh you know I wouldn’t go near your wallet, man. Don’t even know where you keep the damn thing!

And yeah, there’s plenty you can get for a 20.. food, clothes.. more dice..

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝕹ot all kinds of truths are meant to come out, some secrets are better kept that way…secrets-Where I keep my wallet will remain one of life’s greatest mysteries-

How many more sets of dice does a boy like you need? Always collecting new ones…Hungry for your fix…Wasting away until you get your paws on another set…

[ihavetohaveyou]

(So this was supposed to be out before the end of pride month but that didn’t happen that way for various reasons but I thought I'd still share some blog insight into the history of this David's Sexuality anyway even if it’s July now!)

|| Genderqueer || Pansexual || Polyamorous

.⋆♱ Overview! ˖ ݁♬⋆.˚𝄞

David had always been queer his entire life, but for a long time didn't know how to cope with it or define it. He'd been born in the time where homosexuality wasn't illegal in theory, but "indecency" was, which acting on queer urges in public was considered to be at the time. He had also come from two Arab immigrant parents-to this day homosexuality is illegal in many Arab countries and is frowned upon and traditionally considered sinful by both Islam and Christian faiths alike.

For that reason, David didn’t really realize he was queer til he was in his early teens (pre-earthquake) in spite of always feeling like something was different about him than the rest of his peers.

When he was 14 he had his first crush on a boy. Their friendship turned to rough housing which turned to other desires he knew he wasn’t “supposed to” have. So he felt guilt and shame over it for a long time-Keeping it all inside and settling for just friendship with him. (This was always a habit of David’s-hiding his feelings behind a mask of some type, the mask has just changed significantly over time.) Eventually he threw caution to the wind one day and planned to try and ask the boy to meet him for a date but he found him with a girl instead. (If the boy was straight or bi/pan and in the closet is not really relevant for this discussion.) All that really matters is that it set David up to feel stupid for thinking about admitting feelings to someone and he ended up having his first kiss with a girl he didn’t like romantically (no particular reason why, they just didn’t hit it off the way they were expected to) that his parents like to-kiss away the shame so to speak. It didn’t work. He only felt worse after that.

This left David in the closet really until his vampirism-where he slowly began to feel more free and open to exploring himself that way when nobody could hurt him or judge him for the way they did before.

♪ ༘⋆Extra Headcanons! 🦇 ݁ ˖ִ ࣪

Due to his age while we label it as pan, genderqueer, and poly David would not use that kind of language and instead just feels more generally fluid in his feelings and presentation in all aspects.

The combination of his previous experiences with coming out and trauma from abuse and the war made him struggle with psychical intimacy or affection for a long time- (in spite of how affectionate he is now he still struggles with taking it from other people if he doesn’t know them that well) it took a long time as a vampire and around the boys for it to get better.

Outside the gender binary but has no fucks to give about pronouns really. He/him because it’s easiest and everyone uses that for him anyway. He just wears and acts how he wants regardless of what is societally expected of him.

While pan he does have a (noticeable) male preference overall.

If we’re going for a poly!boys angle, he likely figured out he was poly through Marko/Dwayne (depending on your preferred turning order)’s arrival into the group as another vampire.

[feralfangedfrights]

I got new dice, heh (no ones allowed to ask me how expensive these were. God I need to put a padlock on my wallet)

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝕹ice. Buttt I do think I have the right to ask how much you spent on those pretty dice you got there, Dwayne…‘Cause those don’t look cheap.

[feralfangedfrights]

They were… a fantastic price. That you totally won’t be mad at me for spending.

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝖀h huh, so I’ve noticed you still haven’t told me how much that was while we were talking…Never said I’d get mad at you, boy. But, well, I expect an answer…

[feralfangedfrights]

Alright, alright! It was... 20.. ish.. bucks..

[ihavetohaveyou]

…

𝕬nd where did you get that kind of money all the sudden? If I were you I’d start talking.

[feralfangedfrights]

And this is why I didn’t want to tell you- and for the record I got it on out last hunt, the dude we murked’s wallet was on the ground and had a shit ton of cash in it. What else was I supposed to do? Not take it?

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝕲uess that’s better than any of the alternatives at play. Rob Max’s wallet…a meal’s wallet…It doesn’t matter to me at all so long as that pocket change doesn’t come from me or mine, Dwayne. If it does then that’s where the troubles lie. More than willing to encourage your little hobbies and nice dice if it doesn’t cost me a pretty penny in doing so like that…Whole lot of things in the world you can get for a 20…

[feralfangedfrights]

I got new dice, heh (no ones allowed to ask me how expensive these were. God I need to put a padlock on my wallet)

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝕹ice. Buttt I do think I have the right to ask how much you spent on those pretty dice you got there, Dwayne…‘Cause those don’t look cheap.

[feralfangedfrights]

They were… a fantastic price. That you totally won’t be mad at me for spending.

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝖀h huh, so I’ve noticed you still haven’t told me how much that was while we were talking…Never said I’d get mad at you, boy. But, well, I expect an answer…

[feralfangedfrights]

Alright, alright! It was... 20.. ish.. bucks..

[ihavetohaveyou]

…

𝕬nd where did you get that kind of money all the sudden? If I were you I’d start talking.

[feralfangedfrights]

I got new dice, heh (no ones allowed to ask me how expensive these were. God I need to put a padlock on my wallet)

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝕹ice. Buttt I do think I have the right to ask how much you spent on those pretty dice you got there, Dwayne…‘Cause those don’t look cheap.

[feralfangedfrights]

They were… a fantastic price. That you totally won’t be mad at me for spending.

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝖀h huh, so I’ve noticed you still haven’t told me how much that was while we were talking…Never said I’d get mad at you, boy. But, well, I expect an answer…

[phoenixonamotorcycle]

Can someone tell @ihavetohaveyou to stop hanging on my ceiling and distracting me like this while I’m trying to sleep?

He’s driving me nuts.

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝖄ou know you like it, Michael. No point in lying about it when I see right through you…And so clearly, too, right? Look at me…just hanging around now…Watching you while you sleep-Not hard to see how especially weak you are for me when I’m in bat form, is it?

[phoenixonamotorcycle]

I’d rather you just fly down here and sit with me instead of ominously staring at me with those soulless eyes. Makes me feel like I’m gonna get eaten…or something.

[ihavetohaveyou]

𝕬w, but I only just got started! Oh, Michael I wouldn’t eat you! I’m merely asserting my dominance over you in every means I can in every facet of your life by watching the boy I adore while he sleeps! Come on, I’d only eat you if it was necessary…Or if you look like you’d taste good enough for me.

We’ll have to agree to disagree. If anything I have an…abundance of soul in my eyes-and…otherwise.