I couldn't be more happier with the choices I have made recently, I liked a guy who turned out to be the biggest dick that I have ever met in ages, the fact that he made me feel so low about myself makes me so angry as I know I'm so much better than that and he doesn't deserve me in any way. He thought that I was going to be another one of his one night stands, but he couldn't be more wrong. He kept saying all these things to me which didn't mean anything and then going for my friend didn't really help. I have decided to stop caring about people that don't give two shits about me and I should finally be happy with who I am. This year has been full of disappointments and losing friends etc. my fitness wasn't too good either, I started to go back to the shitty place which I have been in before several years ago, full of negative thoughts and feeling like shit which drained me physically and emotionally, but I have realised that maybe I don't need to be constantly worried about little things and what others think about me. I got asked how I got more confident and sassy, it's because I stopped giving a shit about things and the changes start with within yourself! I have also gained a few friends who I never thought I would be friends with and they help me go trough a lot. I can't believe that I have rejected so many guys for just one guy who thought of me as a sex object and that was it. I have been asked out by guys which actually gave a shit about me and that makes me so angry at myself at how stupid I was for not seeing the good people in my life. My family and friends (especially cyberomance) have been here for me every single day, I was a nightmare for the past weeks and they put up with me and made me feel better! I wanna thank Cathy for being the bestest friend in the world, I'm so happy that we actually liked one direction back in the day and that brought us together because I don't know what I would do without you! We've been friends for nearly 5 years now (it's crazy how fast the time goes), thank you for everything you're amazing and I know you've had hard times but you've got through those times and you're one of the strongest people I've met, love you💞
