scoliosis thinkin...i got Thoughts (idk if it's poetry exactly but it's not just casual writing either, i was making a pb&j sandwich so i can take some ibuprofen)
a list of weaknesses, ranked:
1: the ends of my clavicle begin to burn and ache when i'm upright too long. i don't know how to fix this. i don't know who to ask.
2: my hips. they're getting better. they don't spasm to the point of making it difficult to bear weight.
3: I'm not carrying myself right.
4: Posture. How do you maintain good posture when you don't have a choice?
5: my brain. i know what high-caliber pain management feels like now. i didn't like it. it made me tired. i did like not hurting all the time.
6: breathing deeply feels bizarre. my left side expands, too, now.
7: the numb spot between my shoulders. nerve damage. i'm getting used to it but it can still itch, which i think is bullshit
8: i can feel the rods, sometimes. when i move too emphatically or too much.
9: what am I supposed to do now?