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@iitsspencer

there’s a brief look of concern that washes across his features as he looks at her.. honestly, tommy can’t even believe that after what he did– she’d come to him. but the concern is replaced by anger as he’s helping her take care of the brand ( that he so put on her..) and it’s a few minutes of silence before he speaks. ‘’ why’d you lie to me, erin ?? ‘’ suddenly he’s looking  up at her, slowly removing his glasses. ‘’ why ? i wouldn’t have judged you either way. you see how fucked up i am, and you– you didn’t.. judge. i’m just some guy with snake fangs, who’s.. lucky enough to have you. but– but why ?? ‘’

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she remains quiet eyes glued to a spot on the carpet that held more interest than anything else in the dim room as she's helped with the searing reminder of her recklessness. it should've surprised her but it didn't when the name erin spilled, nothing would surprise her anymore and she could laugh at that notion. WHATCA' GON' DO WHEN THAT SNAKE STRIKES ?? she doesn't want to say she can't trust ANYONE but that's what it boiled down to, right..? it still hurt to have it rubbed in that she had lie but she didn't know how to properly show that other than remain looking at the carpet rather than him like some stubborn child. "some people just need to have some secrets just for themselves." the words sounded off to her own ears. he deserved a better explanation than the weak one she'd offered up.

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rounding the corner, the masked figure aims the gun at them. ‘’– don’t move, and who knows you may actually survive. test my patience, and you’ll end up dead. got it ?? ‘’ nodding once, an evil grin comes across their features. ‘’ now let’s play a game..’’ 

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it was just an exercise. maybe if she kept saying that she'd start believing it. she wished for her gun but instead settled on a broom as her weapon the light on her phone only went so far. turning a corner her breath caught in her throat as her phone dropped out of her hand to the ground, "you REALLY don't want to go through with whatever you were planning."

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❛ well, let’s see—– you drink way too much caffeine, which is pretty rich coming from me. you fall asleep on benches in the middle of a freakin’ town with serial killers & gangs, you’re always losing your glasses—— ❜ he’s unable to keep a straight face as a light-hearted chuckle parts from his lips straight after; indicating he was only teasing the blonde before him. ❛ of course you’re a good fit, er. if i was in your shoes i would have cracked from the pressure already, i don’t know how you do it. it must be pretty hard having to lie to everyone around you, you know ? why do you ask anyway ? has something happened, did you.. blow your cover or something ? ❜

her mouth hung open to say something in protest but she quickly shut it when he went on a smile curling on her lips instead. " thanks j. i resent that remark about my glasses though, i know where they are. i'm sure you'd do just fine if you were the one undercover. is it weird that it's ᴡᴇɪʀᴅ to hear er in reference to me now .. ? " at the question she looked down ᴘʀᴇᴛᴇɴᴅɪɴɢ to look intently at her papers and gave a shake of her head. " no nothing like a blown cover. just thought at this point i'd have more than i do.

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( tommy )

he almost winces at the mention of causing trouble, avoiding her gaze. tommy shifts nervously and lets out a laugh. ‘’ i had my fair share during the purge, trust me.’’ his tone is void, staring down at his hands. ‘’ i’m.. sorry.. for just– being.. i dunno.’’

remaining quiet she watches him chewing on her lower lip. fiddling with the cap of the bottle it doesn't take her long to find an answer with a shake of her head and small smile, " you don't need to apologize. more so since you don't even know what you're apologizing for.... give me your hand. " she said holding out her own for him.

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( tommy )

looking down at he, he extends a hand out with a bottle of water in his hand. ‘’ i got you something. figured you.. could use it, you know ?? ‘’ he muttered, sitting down beside her. ‘’whatcha’ workin’ on ?? ‘’

she found herself smiling and reaching out for the bottle of water being offered to her." thanks. " she said closing her laptop, moving her laptop to the free space on her other side. she leaned her head against his shoulder for a moment before moving away. that's probably not the smartest thing to do. unscrewing the lid she took a small sip from it. " gang related stuff. nothing exciting. what have you been up to sir? hopefully not causing trouble. "

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click. click. click. save for the chatter that would drift from further down the hall her typing away on the keyboard was all that broke the silence she found herself in. sitting out in the hall felt better than sitting in the hotel room. she shifted in her seat and let out an over exasperated sigh and rubbed her temples.

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" you think i was a good fit for this kind of thing..? -- this whole reason i'm in rosewick thing i mean. " she attempted to be nonchalant with the question her eyes on the papers she was sorting through they were little snippets of things she'd seen in rosewick, most to do with what happened at the cabin or during the purge. if she chewed on the inside of her cheek anymore she was going to draw blood.

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who is it hardest to lie to about your true identity?

" tommy. i love him -- that's still weird to say -- but i do. and it hurts so much that he doesn't even know my name. he has all these kind things to say about me and he doesn't even know the name of the person pressing kisses to his lips, the person praying he never has to learn from someone hiding in the shadows the one he's given his affection to. when it spills -- if it spills -- he's going to hate me and i wouldn’t blame him. "

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( tommy )

‘’ honestly, all people ever did was run from me. you were the first one who didn’t. ‘’ he murmurs keeping his head down. when she grabbed his hands, tommy brought his head up with a curious glance– immediately turning into shock. ‘’ you.. you love me ?? ‘’ tommy stutters, looking at her in awe. ‘’.. this.. this might be the best news i’ve ever heard, because.. i love.. i love you too.’’ tommy grins slightly before averting his eyes. ‘’ i’m sorry i’m such a fuck up.’’

      "WHAT CAN I SAY? i'm some kind of different." the corners of her lips turned up slightly before she was nodding her head yeah coming out as a squeak. she couldn’t stop smiling, "well that's good to hear." twisting excitement in her stomach made it difficult to pull words out of vocabulary. a frown taking a place on her face, she let go of one of his hands and turned his face back towards her. "stop that. please? -- one of these days i'll tell you something that"ll make you rethink that. now how about we get of the street, get you cleaned up, and stay out of any further trouble..?"

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( tommy )

instantly he becomes quiet when hearing her talk, looking up at her. tommy wipes the blood from his mouth, only shaking his head in response. ‘’ i’m– it’s.. it shouldn’t be alright, with what you just saw. i should’ve told you about this, i should’ve told you how– how i’m this fucked up human being who has SNAKE FANGS and.. and my god spencer, i’m just sorry for treating you like crap. i’m sorry for all of it.’’ he says, trying not to cry. bringing his hands up to his head, he tugs at his hair almost wanting to yank it out. ‘’ please.. please just.. forgive me.’’

      HER HEART WAS BREAKING and she was stuck where she was listening to him her lips in a tight line and her brows furrowed as she tried to grasp at a single proper idea. "is that what you were thinking or possibly hoping i'd say? maybe thought i'd run too." she started the words rolling out of their own accord. "it's... it is what it is. i really don't know what to say... everyone's fucked up though. in their own personal hell kind of way. everyone's got a secret or SOMETHING." her feet were moving again and she grabbed his hands not really minding the blood, it could be washed away. "i do. -- you wanna hear something you might find possibly fucked up from me..? i love you, tommy."

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( tommy )

pushing the hair out of his eyes with a bloodied hand, his blue orbs widen and he lowers his head. ‘’ i– no. spenc.. please.’’ he murmurs again, trying his hardest not to get choked up. ‘’ you– you always told me not to worry. but.. but i’ll always worry, because i’m afraid.. i was afraid you’d find out about this.’’ tommy brings his hands up to cover his face, shaking his head. ‘’ i’m sorry for what.. what i’ve done.’’

      "YOU AREN'T GETTING RID OF ME. so just STOP. okay..?" she only hoped her voice didn't give away the turmoil. he wouldn't hurt her, she trusted he wouldn't at least. her lips pursed she listened, her head was an absolute no longer knew how to function and shift through things MESS. shoving the gun into her back pocket she took another handful of steps towards him out of instinct. she reached out for him but let her hand fall to her side. "y--you.... i...." she had trouble stringing her words together for a proper sentence. "it's going to be alright. don't apologize."

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( tommy )

his face is buried deep into someones neck, practically ripping them apart with his teeth. tommy can feel the life draining from them, and he brings his head up the moment he hears the FAMILIAR voice. though he tells himself mentally not to say a single word, it doesn’t stop him. ‘’– stop spenc. go… go away.’’ he forces the words out, turning in her direction with a dark look. ‘’ don’t.. don’t wanna hurt you.’’

      SHE LOWERED HER GUN and her heart leapt into her throat at the sound of his voice. it took a moment and few steps towards him before his words sank in and crumbled the smile of relief that had inched it's way on to her face. the scene was a hard one to wrap her head around, he had --- she shook her head and the thought out of it hues solely resting on him and nothing else. he had to be alright. "i can't. i-i won't. it sounds like you're worrying again, what'd i tell you about that..?" the smile didn't quite reach her eyes that time as she took another step towards him.

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      HER HEART THUMPED uncomfortable in her chest. not even the weight of the pistol in her hand was much comfort. she was trained, but this -- this was something else. home was where she should be but TOMMY he was quickly becoming her home (though she was far from admitting that to him) and he wasn't answering his phone. "TOMMY." she called out jumping at every single crash, car alarm, and gunshot. "tommy where are you?" it barely came out. she just had to swallow the lump in her throat and press on. "tommy please." ( @tommyveter )

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( tommy. )

adjusting his glasses, he only shrugs. ‘’ what do i make of it ?? it’s a load of shit. literally, the kid looked traumatized while he was getting put into cuffs. both of them didn’t do it, but hey– that’s rosewick’s justice system for ya’. someone gets murdered, pin it on two innocent people.’’ tommy’s hand slides to hers, bringing it up to press a kiss to her palm. ‘’ – and you ?? how are you taking this ?? ‘’

      SHE KEPT QUIET pursing her lips and lowering the cup she'd been taking small sips from. at least he was on the same page as her, it was actually somewhat a relief. "yeah. i'm starting to realize that." she mused a smile turning the corners of her lips up briefly at the little sign of affection, "better be careful tommy. if a isn't in a cell then they're still out here WATCHING ." there was both some joking and a form of warning to be found in her words. there were several hundred combination of words to answer that, but she was failing at finding one that didn't find one that didn't worry him or give away too much detail. "i'm just tired. don't know how to take something like this."

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