usually doom scroll on this app but lowkey been so bored lately so ima make this my personal little journal. plus I can always look back at this and remember how dramatic i love being.
its almost 3am and I know I have to sleep but at the same time I dont want to but what else is new 🤷♀️ my mind has been racing lately for no reason, I swear it goes so fast that my thoughts just turn into mush and now I just look like a zombie going thru life, not to mention I've been putting off the book I've been reading cause I KNOW it's a good book but I feel like I have no motivation to read it and I actually want to enjoy it.
I need to pick up a hobby, something to do by myself. I cant go out every day and I feel I've been getting too dependent on my friends and oh no thats not good at all. I mean I can go out all day but I feel that I'm just avoiding all my problems and they're kind of piling up in my brain. ugh thats literally the worst.
if hannibal caught me and placed my brain on a platter I'm afraid there's nothing he can do to make it look appealing. speaking of culinary arts I've recently watched Voicemails for Isabelle and zooweemama that man is fineeee, and that main actress?? she's stunning. i watch this podcast called Take Your Shoes Off with Rick Glassman and he had her on, it was my first time even seeing her so my first impression of her was just based off that. she's smart, stunning, witty, and overall seems like such a sweet person.
some people have it all dont they?
anyways I've been lying down in a uncomfortable position typing this out and my arm is starting to hurt. I'll see if I remember to do this tomorrow or if I'll want to.