Jealousy in Technicolor @ilikeletters-blog - Tumblr Blog

:)

Then it hit me and I just blurted, ‘I like people too much or not at all. I’ve got to go down deep, to fall into people, to really know them.

Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath (via shakingthemortalcoil)

before we parted you told me: okay, prove to me how observant you are...

i knew it from the way you sat at the far end of the bench

i knew it from how your little gestures disappeared

i knew it from how you spoke.

and i knew all this from barely looking at you between the time the shade still covered the potted plants in front of my feet to when i had to lift my legs on the bench because the sun was beating down on my knees.

and then i knew it from when you barely moved, and from the way i needed to withdraw.

I told you the heat was comforting to me. It reminded me i was still here and I wasn't dreaming, and to an extent, that you were right beside me. It reminded me that for the first time in a long time i was hearing you speak and not imagining all the things you said. I have made so many hypothetical conversations in my mind; little reminders were appreciated. But you were right. We are different. Very much so. But there are still things that remain the same, yet much more we cannot go back to.

I wasn't sure what i was expecting, to be honest. I told you I was surprised with myself; every step i took to get you here was feeble and unsure, but still i was there, and so were you. You said what's the worst thing that can happen: we were both at our lowest, there is only uphill from here.

And then I realized there is something worse: bridges burned can never be rebuilt and sometimes Hope is all that it is: hope. So until now, I hope you were right -- that we are different, that friendship seems fallible, that us being in the same place is a generally bad idea. We never knew how to be friends without overstepping boundaries.

So here I am again, overstepping for one last time, still hoping that you will hear me out (although we both know I have already gotten more than what i deserved): I’m proud of you, and I’m proud of us for getting this far. I’m proud of how far you’ve gotten, and how good everything seems to be going for you, and of everything you have achieved. I can’t offer much, but it’s still on the table; sending you good thoughts and good vibes, wherever you may go, however far away that needs to be from me. PS: I still haven’t met anyone as witty as you.

>Raw Vegan Banana Caramel Chocolate Nicecream Cake<

INGREDIENTS Base: 10 dates soaked and mashed 1 ½ cups oats 2 tbsp maple syrup 1 tbsp desiccated coconut Pinch of cinnamon

1st layer: 3 frozen bananas

2nd layer: 3 frozen bananas 10 dates soaked and mashed 4-5 drops vanilla essence 1 tsp maca powder

Topping: 1 frozen banana 2 tbsp cacao powder 1 tsp acai powder 1 tbsp maple syrup

METHOD: Combine ingredients for base, set into a tray. Combine ingredients for first layer, blend until smooth, pour over base. Repeat with the ingredients for the second layer and set in the freezer. When it hardens, combine ingredients for the topping, blend and set in the freezer until the topping is hard. Top with crushed nuts and Buckinis.

annietarasova

>Hazelnut Banana Pancakes<

INGREDIENTS: (makes 5 pancakes) ½ cup rice flour ½ cup oat bran 1 tbsp hazelnut meal 1 tbsp coconut sugar 1 tsp cinnamon 1 tbsp cacao powder 1 tsp baking powder 1 ½ cups rice milk/any non dairy milk 1 big mashed banana 4-5 drops vanilla essence

Toppings ideas: Maple syrup/rice bran syrup Fresh fruit/berries Granola Nuts Coconut shreds Nicecream

METHOD: Combine dry ingredients first and mix in a food processor until looks like fine bread crumbs. Add wet ingredients (banana, milk, vanilla) and blend. Set a non stick pan on low/medium heat and spray with coconut oil. Use about 1/3 cup for each pancake. Top with whatever you like. Enjoy! X

Instagram: @annietarasova