it is difficult to say whether phil helped her or not. she would like to think that he did, but it feels complicated, unclear. they spent a great deal of time together, but they kept so many secrets from one another that it feels as though they hardly knew one another at all. she was a different person. and phil –– she doesn't know what happened to him. where he'd gone. it hardly feels worth bringing up, now.
"roman."
it wasn't like that, she wants to say again, but what was it like?
"i'm sorry." she steps closer, a hand circling his wrist. "i wouldn't lie to you. about any of it."
these complications were things that did not come up in a typical relationship; but nothing about them was typical. not their circumstances, not their pasts, not their families or even their friends. if they needed to allow some grace to themselves they should have it.
" i know you wouldn't. " he presses his fingers into her wrist. " -- i know. "











