Hi guys a Little update
Im trying tò work on myself and trying tò Feel Better about myself, im trying tò adjust myself and how tò act, how my action have affected people how my own insecurities and my own egoism have impacted the people around me, but if i keep myself form betting myself down i Will never heal, and After this month in think ive changed im scared of doing mistaskes again but i think ive thought enought about what i did, and i still think about bee every single day and every single day i miss her, ive been talking tò my Therapist about It and She does Say that even bee did some well impulsive and negative things and and im being to harsh on my self and im putting all the guilty on me but, i know here i messed up and She only wanted love and support and due to my well stress and anxiety i made her feel horribile when She Just needed support because i let my frustration not being able tò help her onto her o and taking things too personaly, its been a fiew month since i tried tò reach out i don't really have a way tò reach out tò her other than tik tok messages since She blocked me on Twitter, She didn't respond so i didn't want tò bother her any further and gave her her time, i don't know if that was a stupid idea but i thought that maybe It was too soon and i needed tò work on myself more, but know i don't know if It comes of Like i don't care and that ive waited so mutch seames Like i don't care because i do care alot and i wanted tò be a Better versione of myself for me and for her thats why, but anyway i was thinking of depicting some of my problema, my growth, the situation i had with bee and the guilt and heat i feel for bee in art exibit, since i wanted tò do It for a long time i want to do something impactful tò show what and how i feel and also as i way tò let myself go i thought that art Is something that makes me reflect and Better myself so i thought that doing It would be a great thing and well thats all, maybe ill try tò send her a message again but i don't want tò make her feel unconfortable














