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21. UAE.

[iloveyou-24seven]

Relationship Goals ☺️ Illustrator: Puuung

[girlstressed]

sorry i cant talk rn im busy thinking about how i should have done everything differently

[iloveyou-24seven]

“Last Dance”

Hi Tumblr, so ayun nag-resign na yung boss ko. Siya pa yung nagpilit sa’kin mag-stay two months ago, tapos siya pala yung aalis. I feel betrayed.

Naalala ko tuloy yung first day na nakita ko siya sa office. Wala lang siya sa’kin noon binili kasi namin yung company nila, tapos chef siya doon, then napadaan siya sa AC, naamoy ko yung pabango niya… ang bango. Ayun, na-crush ko na, lols. Doon ko lang na-realize na pogi pala siya. Tapos eventually, naging boss ko na siya.

One time nag-message siya ng “bb,” kinilig ako kahit alam kong location namin yun. Delulu ko sa part na ‘yon, hahaha.

And then, three years kaming magkasama, seatmates, parehas OC, parang paangasan pa minsan sa kalinisan at kaartehan. Kilalang-kilala na namin isa’t isa. Alam niya bawat galaw ko at bawat hinga ko; alam niya kapag hindi ako okay. Naalala ko pa nung ayaw ko na mag-renew—parang kaming magjowa na nag-break, parehong lutang sa meeting, lols.

Then today, umupo siya sa tabi ko and said, “Let’s do some work. This is our last dance.” Pucha, gusto ko nang umiyak. I just kept smiling para matago yung sadness.

May dumaan na someone and said, “I will miss you, chef. Kimberly will miss you.” Then he replied, “How come? She’s not even sad. I can’t see any sadness she’s just smiling.”

Hindi ko na napigilan sumagot: “Chef, late reaction lang ako, okay? Maybe I’ll react after you leave.”

He just said, “Oh, really.”

Ayun, buong araw wala na akong gana, hindi makapag-focus. Actually, one week na. Naiiyak ako. Last time na na-attach ako sa boss, 19 pa ako kasi crush ko naman yun siya, hahaha e yung ngayon di ko alam. Baka maiyak ako sa last day niya urhhhhhhhhhhhhh huyhuhuhuhuuh

Ewan ko ba. Maybe it’s because of the workload na maiiwan sa’kin. Though simula nung naging boss ko siya, nawala na yung attraction, pure work na. Pero hindi ko pa rin maiwasang titigan siya kapag magkasama kami kasi ang pogi sa malapitan hays waaaaaah feeling ko sasabog ako pag di ko natype to wala naman akong mapagsabihan kasi secret pa nga urggg ang bigat bigat para ako iiwan ng jowa huhuhuhu

[iloveyou-24seven]

Does it make me a bad person that I don’t feel any remorse or sadness when people who have hurt me go through difficult times or hit a low point in their lives?

I say “kawawa naman,” but I don’t genuinely mean it. I don’t wish them harm, I just don’t feel any empathy at all.

[juliastory]

As a woman, I’m more afraid of being unsuccessful than being unmarried 🤷🏻‍♀️

[matabangutak]

Kahit andami na bagong lumabas, babalik at babalik ka pa rin talaga dito sa Tumblr. 🥹

[iloveyou-24seven]

July 30, 2020

I was humiliated and yes, I was incredibly hurt. It was all too much. You are too much. The moment when you said that “I am not happy anymore.” they were heavier than stone. It was like the end to everything that ever meant anything to me. I can’t even sleep and I seriously couldn’t breathe. I didn’t know what to do. I couldn’t fathom any of it. Everything that I thought was mine, I had wholeheartedly treasured just vanished like a popped bubble in front of my eyes.

What does she have but I don’t? I did not know.

What I knew was that you made me feel like my existence, my love was an inconvenience and I was crazy for even thinking there was something special between us. And why did it have to happen to me? Why then? Needless to say, I was in misery.

It’s scary to me how feelings could blind me and take over me like that. But I guess it’s the only way I could ever learn to let go of the people who were never meant to be in my life in the first place, those who do not want to stay.

Most importantly, it was the chance for me to learn, to forgive, to accept and to respect people’s choice even if that choice means my heart getting broken. Perhaps I should be proud that I did give it my all, I had nothing to regret, and be grateful for these precious opportunities to reflect and grow so that I won’t screw up next time I meet a truly worthy person.

January 1, 2024

It took me 42 months to finally found a worthy person, I am elated and enthralled when you came. You are my epitome of love, sacrifice and beauty. You are worthy of healthy love. Thank you for making me believe in love again.

[iloveyou-24seven]

There is kind of love that you don’t need to desperately search for, bc this love found you first.

[iloveyou-24seven]

BBS HEATH

Hi! pinapavote ko yung kapatid ko sa PBB sabi ko i-save niya si Heath. Hindi naman ako super invested sa PBB ngayon, pero every time nakikita ko si Heath, mukha siyang genuine at ang gaan ng presence niya. Kaya vote niyo si Heath, okay? Okay! lxls

[iloveyou-24seven]

I ended up stalking on my best friend after 14 months of no communication. He’s in Japan now with his girlfriend. That was actually our plan three years ago—his first trip abroad, and I was supposed to be the one with him. But here we are. I don’t know… I just feel sad. The plans we made are now being fulfilled, just not with each other. Maybe we really weren’t meant to be together or to even see each other again. I guess he’ll just be a story I’ll keep forever.

[vexheart]

[angeldevil11-deactivated2025072]

[deeplifequotes]

Work on being in love with the person in the mirror who has been through so much but is still standing.

[iloveyou-24seven]

pumasok ako sa work para mag tumblr -- di talaga ako okay todayy..

[iloveyou-24seven]

"I'm in a relationship, yet I still feel lonely." "I have a partner, but I can't open up to her about my feelings or vent my frustrations."

Madalas ko marinig ‘to sa’yo, at masakit kasi kahit ako, hindi ko maintindihan ang sarili ko. Hindi ko alam kung paano ko aayusin, kung paano ko paparamdam sa’yo na mahal na mahal kita at sobrang swerte ko na ikaw yung partner ko. Minahal ko lang naman yung sarili ko, pero bakit ganun, parang sa sobrang pagmamahal ko sa sarili ko, wala na akong maibigay para sa ibang tao? More than a year na, pero hindi ka pa rin nagbago. Mula sa simula, ikaw pa rin yung taong minahal ko. Sana hindi pa huli ang lahat, sana bigyan ka pa ng pasensya ni God.”

[iloveyou-24seven]

He don't deserve me.

I am his first love, his first in almost everything. A true walking green flag, treating me like a princess, selfless in every way, and incredibly handsome—everything anyone could dream of. Yet, what do I give him in return? I treat him terribly, and I can’t even understand why. This is everything I’ve prayed for, but now I’m wondering if I’m taking it all for granted. I love him, but I can’t seem to show him that love or let him feel how deeply I care. It’s so hard, especially because I’ve spent so much time learning to love myself, that now I feel like I don’t have enough to give him. I want to let him go to protect his heart, because he deserves so much more than this. If he leaves, I don’t know if I’ll be able to love anyone else the way I love him. I just hope I can find a way to fix myself.

[thereadmind]