After about 5 or 6 years of having this account I’ve decided to give up tumblr. I have hit rock bottom so many times, each time worse than the last, there has been more hushed tears and bloody nights than i can count, and i was nonetheless consumed in the (my) sadness. I thought I was using my tumblr as a outlet to soothe my sadnesses but i’m coming to realize that this site and all the sad post, movie quotes, and tearful post only ever left me in a sad state. This site made me know that I wasnt alone which made me think it was okay to be sad. In the span of under 2 years i’ve been to 4 partial l hospitalization programs and 2 Community Based Acute Treatment, and group therapies. I never imagined myself to be in such a low place to due depression. In 6th grade i thought i was just little sad but 6 years later and i’ve been diagnosed with major depressive disorder, general anxiety disorder, post traumatic stress disorder and i suffer with flashbacks and panic attacks with my 19th birthday approaching I know that I have come along way from a very dark place and i’m going to continue to get better but I cant be on tumblr anymore because it only decreases my growth. I know tumblr isn’t the blame for my depression but it made me think it was okay to be so sad. I hope all my followers find happiness within themselves someday.
