last ditch effort

this is my secret blog so i can express myself without feeling the eyes of my peers

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i think going to the shawn mendes world tour concert in 2016 as my first concert changed the trajectory of my life

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sometimes i feel like i am wayyyy too sensitive for anything ever but other times i revel in my feelings so hard i have such an immense gratitude for the ability to feel anything at all. that being said i have a heartache stomachache and i want to throw a fit.

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why cant i just be in emotional pain without the bodily reactions that come with it (i have a stomach ache)

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turn OFF ur sad girl music (bastille) and turn ON ur parasocial besties podcast (binchtopia)

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mosquitoes are my enemies im waging war

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crying headaches are RIDICULOUS i feel like my skull is full of rocks

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my heart is broken and everything hurts and everything is beautiful and there is love pouring out of my pores and it hurts but what doesnt hurt these days

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i keep thinking my life will never change or that i will never change and that i will feel this way forever but really change is always happening microscopically and i may never realize it until years and years later

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saw u in a dream and wanted to stay with u forever and ever so i didn’t wake up until noon the next day

[kosmogrl]

I have changed so much. but I haven’t changed at all.

[stuckinapril]

In my everything makes me burst into tears era

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no depeche mode i will NOT enjoy the silence