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Loving Endlessly

This morning i had a thought. People always say you aren’t supposed to teach someone how to love you but that is really cruel to say. The people you love may have never been loved correctly themselves, so they don’t know any better. It’s fucked up to expect yourself out of other people when everyone’s story is different, I feel like this saying mainly exists amongst young women specifically ones in toxic relationships, so its usually said in a motivational manner. That, I can get behind because after voicing your feelings and still being ignored that shows the other person doesn’t care to learn You and they’re in it for the wrong reasons. I believe you can’t change people but you can influence them and the rest is their choice.

Something else I noticed is that those who do not love themselves are not capable of genuinely loving others. You should Love without expecting anything in return, that is real Love. When you are Loving someone out of hope they reciprocate that same energy back to you it’s not genuine, your Love has limits. You’re subconsciously teaching yourself & that person that you have to do certain acts to be Loved, that simply existing and being yourself isn’t enough, you have to be a pleaser as well. :// it’s important to Love yourself so the Love you give can be endless.

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calm ur thoughts in five minutes

first ask what is really causing me to put so much energy into this thought. ask yourself why does this matter to me? should it matter to me? after finding those answers and getting to the core, you have to give yourself reassurance. not the boring basic “its all in your head”. Give her logic, reminded yourself what you already know to be true. Not what anyone has told you, not what your thoughts are telling you, but what you have physically seen for yourself. Go to trial & provide your mind with evidence that proves that these thoughts are false. it sounds a little insane but you have to split from that little voice feeding you bad thoughts and talk yourself out of it as if you were trying to settle a debate, except you give the negative side no room for rebuttal.

for example, i used to have a hard time making a song cuz i would keep overthinking it. So why was i obsessing over this? Out of fear that the song won’t be relatable or “good”. although i make music from my heart, some people are so judgmental that i’d doubt my own self expression sometimes. how fucking crazy does that sound?

how would i reassure myself? number one. I Like My Own Music, Thats What Matters. i already proved to myself that i make good music because i listen to myself every single day. i made music for my own ears before i ever uploaded a song, it was never hard for me because i’m Just being myself, saying what i want hear. So i should Just continue doing that.

number two, Music Is Universal, Never Ending. some songs don’t get love during their era until someone puts it on tiktok 30 years later and some of my current favorite songs/ artists aren’t liked by everyone either. the point is to Just keep creating things that make Me feel good and pray the right people to find it eventually.

number three, My Songs Have Helped People. i know this to be true because i interact with the Girls, i hear their stories of finding me during a rough time and my music helping them. i see people with loveloudcryquiet tattoos. my mantra imbedded in their skin. i have to be doing something right.

so this is all proof that what i say in my music Just has to be true to me, i can’t be ashamed of myself. Being myself is what has inspired others and got me here in the first place, so why question myself now? And Just like that the thought goes away, i’m able to prove it wrong.

To sum this all up, you need meet your negative overthinking with assertive logic. tell that bitch she’s not making any sense literally. treat negative thoughts like shes a bitch you hate, would you feed your enemy if they came into your house uninvited or would you fight for the peace in your home?? Exactly. Be kind to Ur mind U have to live there for a while, keep it peaceful by any means. 🐞

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love loud but cry in silence