[eliminated]

[compulsive]

[imfeelinthis]

u will never know how much damage you did to me. somehow i’m still the bad guy though. all i have energy for anymore is saying “okay”.

[imfeelinthis]

i’ve never been in something so toxic before in my life. i feel like i’m being suffocated and i have to get out. i know i’m gonna be sad because it’s something else that has failed but of course it did bc she’s not you. i’m scared to start over all over again. i have no choice though. i just want you to hug me. she drives me fucking insane and i’m projecting that onto everyone in my life. im not crazy. i’m not. she makes me loose my fucking mind. i want her approval bc she never gives it to me and makes me feel like shit. how sick is that? i’m drowning. i’ve been drowning. i need to move. i’m trying so hard. i lost myself when i made myself loose you.

[imfeelinthis]

just the sound of your voice raising in the slightest way make me physically sick. i just don’t know how to carry on

[imfeelinthis]

i get drunker thinking about u

[imfeelinthis]

i’m not who you thought i was and now i’m not who you want either

[understands]

[imfeelinthis]

yes. i’m asking for help

[imfeelinthis]

i need ur voice

[imfeelinthis]

my anxiety makes me want to kill myself

[imfeelinthis]

why do i see pictures of mea year ago and feel the way i did in that moment.

i feel pain

i feel left

i feel like i wasn’t enough for u

i feel a tightness in my chest

i hurt you but yet i feel like i’m left with more pain

i don’t want you, i never will again

somehow i still can feel all the bad things and anxiety you brought along.

[compulsive]

[pussydeity-deactivated20151212]

i just want to be touched really hard

like by a car

hit me with a car 

[imfeelinthis]

i would leave everything and everyone for you. for the rest of my life i’m willing. just tell me exactly what you want and i’m there. i just feel so pulled and confused. i just want to know if this is a game or not

[imfeelinthis]

i want you now and forever but i’m so scared. what if i want it more than u

[imfeelinthis]

time will make it stop hurting but it will never make it better. we can never go back but that’s all i want.

[imfeelinthis]

if it’s real it will be again one day