☆Zizie☆

Haiii♡

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Haiii, let me introduce myself :3

My name is Zeynep, but you can call me Zizie or Zey.

I'm 16 years old.

I'm from Türkiye but i can speak English too.

I'm Muslim and aroace.

I sometimes can stop posting smtg cuz of my low motivation.

I always draw myself with hair.

I'm a big fan of Sprunki <3

Let me tell u what u can do:

You can do art collabs with me.

You can make fanarts.

You can talk to me but with commenting.

We can be our moots :3

And let me tell u what u can't do

Commissions.

Saying bad things about my moots.

Saying anything about my clothes (for example, "why do you open your hair? That's haram.")

Saying Islamophobiac things.

Being racist.

Trying to make me Non-Muslim with words cuz of my dress style.

Okiii, that's all for now. Let me show u myself with a drawing :33

This is me irl but, in the drawing, hair is longer than the real one (plus, i cant open my hair irl so, i draw myself with hair-)

A lil note:

"A" is my big brother's name, i mean, the first letter of his name so, don't tell me or anyone that i have a bf (i mean boyfriend, not best friend) cuz i don't have bf-

Instagram:

https://www.instagram.com/author_owu?igsh=bGxobWRzZWF5N2s0

Art fight:

Art Fight

An art gifting game

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TW: ACCIDENT SCARS (NOT SH BTW)

Author's core in her dream:

(Yea that's so dark and it sometimes happens when im in the depressive feelings-)

And her core in real life:

(That's real but I can't show it very good cuz of my problems srry :_0)

If you wanna draw one of them or two, you can draw them <3

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I'm sorry if i open the same subject but i need help about it.

I'm so f-cking mad at my family. Cuz they still say that my thoughts are coming from Shaytan (Satan) and Nafs (the monster in people's bodies but its about thoughts and imaginations). But i really cant understand them cuz i have these thoughts since i was 14 but i couldnt tell them that thing. I wanna fight with them but I don't want it in the same time. I said that I won't wear bikini or anything like it but they still don't believe me. They say "you're delusional when the summer came, you weren't like this. If your past side was here, she'd say that you got crazy to you" to me wth.. I didn't get crazy or delusional. This is just a request. And they said "if you do this, we will be in the Hell" to me BUT THAT DOESNT MAKE SENSE. Only I'll get sin about it, not you all. And maybe I can't feel comfortable in it anymore, even if I was wearing it for 3 years. And i REALLY PROMISE, i WONT find a boyfriend or make up on my face or wear anything like bikini and crops. Look, when I took my burkini (a swimsuit for hijabi people) off in the sea, i felt so comfortable with swimsuit (it wasn't bikini btw). But they said that it came from Shaytan again.

Idk what to say anymore..

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My summer clothes <3 (sadly, not real)

I wish i could wear these but they're so expensive and my mother can break all of my bones if I wear them bruh-

Btw if u wanna draw me with summer clothes, you can draw me :3 (and you can add yourself too)

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Today is my birthday omg yayyy 🥹

My ugly ass face

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Happy bdayy mai besto furendoo <3

Me irl <] Cleo irl <3

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Hmmm 5 post...

i remember that i posted 100+ posts but i deleted all of them cuz of my mental problems- but i hope uhh.. i wont delete my new posts anymore cuz... im better than the past me :_3

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Hai im back :]

(It's me btw)

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I realized smtg.

I realized that my mother is so strict about my religious things. My mother's sister wasn't wearing hijab in the past but she didn't force her sister to wear it. But when I say that, she says "this is my red line, you can't open your hair, dot" to me. I cant understand it. The religion doesnt force anyone to do the things what are in it to not make it harder, but, why does everyone force me to do the religious things..?

I wont wear crops or mini skirts or smtg else like these, I promise her, but she doesnt believe me, she doesnt understand me. I said "I'll pray Salah, I'll read Quran but only my hair will be opened" to her but she still doesn't trust me.

My big brother talked to her but she still says that its her "red line". Weird. So weird.

This is unfair and I wont be crushed by it...

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No one cares about me, even my closest people too. But im smiling... not cuz of the happiness. Cuz of the sadness... No one will care about me like the past... even my closest people. I dont think about my future, cuz idk will i live my future... hihih :)

Şimdilik hoşçakalın...

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Я не заслуживаю жизни.