suicide birds

Chloe, 25, Australian. I like to torture myself by watching TV shows and falling in love with fictional characters. This blog is multi-fandom. I will defend Mickey Milkovich until the end of time. My favourite shows of all time are: The O.C, Friends and Supernatural.

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[driverdaily]

GIRLS | 2x06

[luvbey]

I get road rage walking behind people.

[imanes]

just a small dumb bitch…. living in a lonely ditch

[riverdaleladiesdaily]

Don’t call us girls, and don’t belittle us.

[mrchandlerbings]

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[toastbutteregg]

[dailyshameless]

[imissyourmusk]

April 20.

My anxiety has taken over today. I’ve opted out of my responsibilities and have now resorted to laying on the couch with my blanket and my dog.

I used to be super vocal about my mental health and the state I was in, but I feel like in the past few years I’ve closed myself off a lot. I don’t think anyone really knows how I’m coping week to week because I keep most of it to myself and that’s generally because most of the time I am doing well. Then, there’s days like today where I just can’t breathe. So, the couch it is.

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Those Facebook posts where people shit on about doing a friend list cull and that if you make the cut “congrats you’re still worthy of seeing my shitty inspirational quotes and dog photos” are the worst. So I didn’t make one, but I did have a friend list cull.

It was mainly to get rid of one person in particular. She used to be my best friend, my sister. My parents literally called her their daughter and basically helped raise her. But 3 years ago she decided that was all worth losing over the most petty of things you could imagine. I’m not going into the whole story because, frankly, it’s exhausting and quite boring.

Anyway, I’ve still kept in contact with her ever since. Not regularly or anything but we were still Facebook and Snapchat friends. There was the occasional message or comment here and there but we were never close again. Basically today I decided to cut any and all contact.

I finally realised that she doesn’t care. She probably stopped caring the day I said we couldn’t be friends anymore. That’s how she is, cold and brutal, void of empathy.

I recently tried to mend things. Since I got engaged I had been thinking of her a lot. I always thought she would be there for those big days in our lives, and the fact that she wasn’t broke my heart all over again.

So I reached out, and in return all I got was that cold brutal person I had described. She wasn’t always like that. Everything got brought up again and thrown back in my face with an ending of “but sure, I’m always up for a chat.”

It was so hard to write that message and she just tore me down again. It was then and there I realised this is never going to be like it was and today I finally gave up and cut ties. I need to move on. I need to stop investing so much time in people that could not care less about me.

I hope I can finally heal and move the fuck on from this mess.

[imissyourmusk]

So I haven’t been on here in like a million years but I just checked my activity and was so shocked to see that people are still reblogging my gifs like that makes me so happy!! I miss making them tbh

[thatassnicki]

ADELE RAPPING NICKI MINAJ’s VERSE FROM “MONSTER” 🔥🔥🔥

[imissyourmusk]

tonight alive’s new music is so pop it literally sounds like one direction i don’t know how to fEEL

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[cactisaurus]

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