I live in space

I'm Sage | 27 | trans guy | 8/19/16

[imjustaradkid]

Just when I was happy again. The cycle repeats

[imjustaradkid]

If I was gonna propose to you it would’ve been in the mountains at a secluded cabin just me and you. There would’ve been snow falling just like you always wanted. The ring would’ve been custom designed just to your liking and not a cliche diamond because you never cared much for diamonds. You’ll never know any of those things even tho I’d been planning them for 2 years now. You got engaged on Christmas Day in southern kentucky to a man that got you a cliche diamond ring. I just hope you’re actually happy this time

[imjustaradkid]

You say we’re best friends. You tell me all your secrets and I tell you most of mine. I don’t tell you I still love you. You find a man you love that isn’t me and you get engaged on Christmas Day. I tell you congrats even tho my heart is broken again. You told me it’d always be me and you. You told me you were still banking on our pact to get married in 7 years. I guess I was just a good fuck. Good thing I didn’t tell you I still love you. I still love you.

[keinusernamee-deactivated202501]

how about a midnight car ride ? yes or yes

[imjustaradkid]

I’m tired of being sad. I’m so fucking tired

[imjustaradkid]

All I crave is intimacy. To feel close to someone again and love again. I think I’m incapable and not worthy. Idk what to do

[thepersonalwords]

““I’d be smiling and chatting away, and my mind would be floating around somewhere else, like a balloon with a broken string.” - Haruki Murakami, The Wind-Up Bird Chronicle”

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[animatedtext]

[imjustaradkid]

I can’t describe the amount of pain I’m in. The universe has been working against me my entire life and now it’s become obvious. I don’t want to keep living without you guys. It’s not fucking fair that everyone else can keep going. Everyone else just keeps living and posting memes like everything is fine. I’m not fucking okay. I’m so angry. I loved you all so much. You weren’t supposed to die this young. I was supposed to protect you and I was across the fucking country. Fuck I love you guys. I need you guys

[rcah]

[rosewitchhh-deactivated20211123]

“be safe" "drive safe" "get home safe" is a love language.

[imjustaradkid]

I am so much more than tired. So much more than exhausted. I can’t put into words how much I don’t want to keep doing this. How much I want to stop existing

[amargedom]

“Yes, be patient with me. My heart is heavy.”

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[amargedom]

““The truth is, everyone is going to hurt you. You just got to find the ones worth suffering for.””

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[rosespell]

[neckkiss]

MILK AND HONEY pt.2

[destroymylife]