Baby🤍

20F, SW: 145lbs HW: 151lbs CW: 141lbs GW1: 135lbs UGW: 125lbs height: 5’5” not pro

[immaculateanastasia]

[immaculateanastasia]

i’m high asf rn and I did a workout because I feel like the mind-body connection is better whenever i’m high and I can actually feel it where i’m supposed to. fuck am I rambling ? oh well. anywhos I just bought some stupid shit to put in my house. the shit that’s in here now is just so out of pocket i’m over it.

[immaculateanastasia]

2 day fast ⛓❤️

[immaculateanastasia]

In the end... I hope we can all find peace in our bodies.

Unfortunately i have a long way to go till i reach the end. Peace seems like such a far fetched idea. I am constantly over aware of my body. If i pass a mirror i will look to see how fat i look. I am struggling. I am so terrified of looking fat but I’ll eat. And after every time i eat i regret it. I feel out of control when it comes to food. I just want to be stubborn when it comes to not eating. I want it to get so bad that someone has to make sure I’ll eat.

Please just let me be skinny already. I am tired.

[immaculateanastasia]

oh to be bella hadid skinny...

[immaculateanastasia]

I can’t even stand to clean my stomach in the shower. Like it hurts me to even think that I’m about to clean my fat stomach.

[immaculateanastasia]

allowing myself to eat what I want for christmas and the day after but DONT GET IT TWISTED we restricting as soon as that’s all over.

[immaculateanastasia]

I binged yesterday so we not gonna acknowledge my stomach till after I finish my 48 hr fast

[immaculateanastasia]

was doing good for a week (staying under 800) then my mom brought home some bomb ass chips and this bakery bread and so you know where that leads.... I hadn’t binged in soo long :( soo another 2 day fast.

[immaculateanastasia]

we are in control. I will devote myself to getting skinny. It is going to happen we just have to wait for time to pass.

[immaculateanastasia]

I just weighed myself and holy fuck I regret it:)

[immaculateanastasia]

[immaculateanastasia]

:(

[immaculateanastasia]

my mom just told me I look like I lost weight in my face 🥺👉👈 maaaa stop itttt ;)

[immaculateanastasia]

you guys i’m craving mac n cheese and chocolate so hard rn

[immaculateanastasia]

highkey thinking bout sum FRENCH FRIES RTFN

[immaculateanastasia]

i’m fucking scared I won’t get skinny on my own. I can’t help but think I need a coach to help me... I know how toxic they are but I need skinny....