Internal Chaos

Katie. 27. Ontario.

[ruinedchildhood]

[lsleofskye]

waiting for them winter nights | itserksen

Location: Kongsberg, Buskerud County, Norway

[opticallyaddicted]

Amazing Transparent Church in Borgloon, Belgium

The architect group, Gijs Van Vaerenbergh, built this church in Borgloon, Belgium. It doesn’t look like anything special… from certain angles. From other angles, the structure reveals itself to be something else entirely.It consists of 100 layers of stacked steel, that are equidistantly staggered in a way that illusively change in appearance based on where the viewer is standing.

Thanks Chris

[writerlyn]

Must defrag the church.

[kursedkitties]

Tiny teeth

[catsbeaversandducks]

Mr. Sandman

Video by Ed - SOUND ON!!!

[princesstigerbelle]

I love these videos so much

How do I do this with my cat???

What app is it???

[absinthianx-deactivated20250901]

me: *puts earphones in*

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me: *plays music*

[sadillite]

“I felt confused about how I felt, and all I knew was that I was sadder than I had ever been in my life.”

— Judith Ortiz Cofer, from The Year of Our Revolution: Stories; “Making Love in Spanish,” (via violentwavesofemotion)

[greelin]

haha *mentally and emotionally detaches*

[mysimpsonsblogisgreaterthanyours]

[pokemonpika77]

Guys, this is season ONE of the Simpsons.

[naturaekos]

“If possible, you should help others. If that is not possible, at least you should do no harm.”

— Dalai Lama (via naturaekos)

[riverwindphotography]

Stormlight: Teton Range, Grand Teton National Park, Wyoming

© riverwindphotography

[bloodyoathmate-deactivated20180]

[mishasminions]

I JUST LOVE THE FACT THAT THE SUBMARINE HAS A MANUAL WINDOW CRANK

[teathattast]

[galina]

On the lake at Bohinj—the water is surrounded by mountains, and is so clear that we could see the fish swimming far below us. No petrol engines are allowed on the water to preserve its clarity, which meant that our boat was solar-powered and completely silent. 

[theunitofcaring]

load-bearing

Sometimes people hit a place in their life where things are going really well. They like their job and are able to be productive at it; they have energy after work to pursue the relationships and activities they enjoy; they’re taking good care of themselves and rarely get sick or have flareups of their chronic health problems; stuff is basically working out. Then a small thing about their routine changes and suddenly they’re barely keeping their head above water.

(This happens to me all the time; it’s approximately my dominant experience of working full-time.)

I think one thing that’s going on here is that there are a bunch of small parts of our daily routine which are doing really important work for our wellbeing. Our commute involves a ten-minute walk along the waterfront and the walking and fresh air are great for our wellbeing (or, alternately, our commute involves no walking and this makes it way more frictionless because walking sucks for us). Our water heater is really good and so we can take half-hour hot showers, which are a critical part of our decompression/recovery time. We sit with our back to the wall so we don’t have to worry about looking productive at work as long as the work all gets done. The store down the street is open really late so late runs for groceries are possible. Our roommate is a chef and so the kitchen is always clean and well-stocked.

It’s useful to think of these things as load-bearing. They’re not just nice - they’re part of your mental architecture, they’re part of what you’re using to thrive. And when they change, life can abruptly get much harder or sometimes just collapse on you entirely. And this is usually unexpected, because it’s hard to notice which parts of your environment and routine are load bearing. I often only notice in hindsight. “Oh,” I say to myself after months of fatigue, “having my own private space was load-bearing.” “Oh,” after a scary drop in weight, “being able to keep nutrition shakes next to my bed and drink them in bed was load-bearing.” “Oh,” after a sudden struggle to maintain my work productivity, “a quiet corner with my back to the wall was load-bearing.”

When you know what’s important to you, you can fight for it, or at least be equipped to notice right away if it goes and some of your ability to thrive goes with it. When you don’t, or when you’re thinking of all these things as ‘nice things about my life’ rather than ‘load-bearing bits of my flourishing as a person’, you’re not likely to notice the strain created when they vanish until you’re really, really hurting. 

[thefabulousweirdtrotters]

Ibex standing on a chimney at Merlet, above the Chamonix Valley in the Haute-Savoie, France.

[flyingeagleclaw]

This gave me a full gambit of emotions.

[florial]