eternal.

immortality comes with a cost.

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awhile longer. keep on holding out. see it through. make it to the end

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what is there to worry about?

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shoulder the burden. bear it. hold it. a little while longer and it'll be all you have

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pure retribution, insanity's absolution

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so was it you who desired my death all this time?

fear not

your prayers will be answered soon enough

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i will always love you

i will always be burdened by it

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four more winters left to survive

you have no right to die until then

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remembrance is penance

regret and repent

pray

all you have to do is forgive yourself

for all the sins that are yours to bear

(but is it another sin to know you never did anything wrong?)

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running away from fate

escaping from destiny

i beg of you i beg of you i beg of you

please let me be happy

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to live forever is to be sentenced to chasing death

to sin is to live

to be punished is to be alive

raise the white flag

and unconditionally surrender

the only mercy left is your own for yourself

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do allow me death

allow me to be killed by your call

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the rain is gentle today

a dark sky and gray clouds

soft and sweet and shimmering

it's a good day to die beneath a weeping sky

i will live on regardless, though i wish to lay still and silent beneath it

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i do not have the strength to shoulder it anymore

i wish to wither, rot, and decay

my mind tells me death would be kinder

it's a lie, i tell myself, but here i am

flayed open by it regardless

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i am not sure if i can make it to the end with you anymore

the fires devour me, the waters drown me

i have changed you beyond recognition for the better

you know now you are alive and loved

i will lay myself down in the shelter of your soul

you will forget i ever existed and go on living with my traces in your every action

you will spend the rest of your existence cherished

and i will be forgotten

the world thus goes on with you

quietly, without pause, and without grief

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four

seasons of the year, years

until the day of reckoning arrives

and a decision must be made

holding on until the precipice

i hope i'm forgotten at the edge

and left to fall

i will try to catch myself for your sake

but i already know

you would never reach for me

you would never look back

those who look like they'll live forever

are taken for granted, always

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if i brand my sins into my skin, scar myself with what i haven't done

will you forgive me, then, for being wounded by you?

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you did nothing wrong, but i still wish you didn't plague me with thoughts of you

i wake up and fall asleep in tears to the memory of something i can't blame you for

i hope i die in silence, alone and afraid

i hope you die in silence, lonely and loved