THINK OF ME
Entry 1 September 8, 1997-
When you breathe shallows think of me when that sweet little pressure enters your chest think of me that lump in your throat like the world is caving in wish the ground would swallow you whole so scared it just might your life is ending think of me your soul is dying think of me I will be your anxiety the unshakable feeling of doom that haunts you as I do I will be the death of you as you were mine when you kiss her think of me when you kill her think of me think of me because I'm here
Entry 2 November 8, 1997-
When she lies with you does she know we lay beneath you when she dines does she fathom the meat she chews upon you were so proud of us does she know of us will you tell her the sins you have commented do you regret us I regret you does she know your name or has it changed EDIT NOVEMBER 9 - she knows now
Entry 3 December 8, 1997-
You try to run away but you can't let me go whos next what happens now the world is changing you can't hide forever you can't kill forever you can't live forever I'll make sure of that you can't bring life in when you've taken so many
Entry 4 January 8, 1998-
You don't deserve to smile you don't deserve to breathe you don't deserve all you got all I gave you so much Love, safety from the monsters in the dark little did I know you were only scared of them because they would tell me you were one too worst of all I gave you my life we all did
Entry 5 February 8, 1998-
How many before me I'm not the first how many more is she the last will this one live will this one getaway is it because you love her like you told me you loved me is it because she carries your bloodline do you really want this a little one to twist and turn into a monster like you to ruin like you do everything you touch is this the end of your rampage but you don't get happiness this isn't right
Entry 6 March 8, 1998-
Mundane life doesn't suit you tie and slacks nice shoes big office top floor come home to momma's belly growing food on the table all while you still sleep with me it can't be over if it truly was you would put me to rest finally a shallow grave dug by a shallow man but I still lie here as lay with her I still watch you even if now it's just a boring 9 to 5 even if you think your done it's not over I'm not done
Entry 7 April 8, 1998-
Is this what happens when you miss blood you hit you scream you punch you bruise truly you can never change truly you are evil you are a monster holes in the wall late nights to avoid the home you built around your secrets sleeping on the couch to avoid the woman you let slip thru the cracks be careful lonely women will play and a curious woman will dig
Entry 8 May 8, 1998-
I knew it wasn't over why so mad you knew you couldn't hold back you knew it wouldn't last is it because you kill your precious monster before you could corrupt it before he could grow to mirror you is it because you got messy a sloppy kill for a sleazy man not use to this kind of clean up she pushed a little too far so you pushed a little too hard go-ahead run again the best part of a family is that it leaves a trail
Entry 9 June 8, 1998-
The hunt is on your face where they can see it your world is finally swallowing you consuming you and your ego once I was afraid of you but now we all watch you cower hiding in the shadows you feared final realizing you are nothing but a bug and grub worm crawling beneath everyone else scum on a boot about to be polished it’s over the walls are moving bet you wish you were dreaming well... So did i
Entry 10 July 8, 1998-
Well did you think of me when your breath finally stopped the cold metal of karma was closing in passing thru your skull I smiled today as you dropped hitting the cold pavement I never liked blood but yours looks so pretty a nice scarlet my new favorite color did you think of me when it all ended when the ground ate you up did you think of me when we finally met eyes again only this time yours held the fear did you think of me when I welcomed you to hell when we all called your name once more will you think of me for eternity?
