IMP !1!

neurodivergent thespian artist and pico's school enthusiast

[imp111]

hi !1!

hello, i'm imp! i want to start writing for my hyperfixations since a03/tumblr/..... and wattpad isn't cutting it. i am like a crackhead when it comes to my fixations so i will not stop until i am satisfied, even if it means I have to dabble in my own shitty writing here's my plan: i'm going to do headcanons 'n shit like that. i don't know if ill do fics but maybe I can do requests (that is if i get even a LITTLE traction) i'll just do whatever i'm feeling i guess. my hyperfixations always change and i am also bipolar so my motivation to write stuff changes frequently lol

i'm only going to write imagines/short stories atm because I'm not confident enough in my ability to write actual big plots

i'm just going to write pico's school for right now, but that's always subjected to change since i have a LOT of other fixations that i hyper focus on all the time.

nice to meet you, and i hope to see you again soon! <3

[imp111]

trigger mentions: mentions of school shootings, trauma relating to school shootings.

content: pico

author’s note: i wanted to go deeper into my head canons for pico’s personality, since I only touched on it briefly in my last post. also sorry it's been months.... haha.

★ ) Pico is a complex individual. On one hand, he’s a completely feral, trigger-happy maniac with a loaded gun. He's ruthless, reckless, and a bit unstable. He works as a mercenary, shamelessly spills blood, and gets bank for it. His job gives him a sense of power that he didn’t have back then. It’s almost like a coping mechanism, if that makes sense.

★ ) On the other hand, he’s silent. He keeps to himself and doesn’t let people in, for reasons he himself hasn’t figured out yet. He doesn’t like thinking about it. In fact, he tries to just not think about anything relating to his trauma in general. He's not like Nene, whereas she completely denies everything happened with a tight, bittersweet grin, he ignores it. Or at least tries to.

★ ) Pico has morals, but they’re just… a little crooked. For example, he only kills people who are the absolute scum of the planet. He doesn’t take offers for petty crimes. He doesn’t kill kids or teenagers. He only takes jobs he knows he can do, which he takes quite a lot. Luckily, he's only had a few close calls and fewer battle scars.

★ ) He thinks therapy is stupid. Why bother dealing with the past when it’s already done with? You can’t change what happened. He can’t change what happened. There’s nothing to talk about and it’s completely pointless. Again, he doesn't like thinking about anything related to his past.

★ ) Pico hasn’t cried in years. That’s not to say he hasn’t started crying, but he’s never allowed himself to actually break down.

★ ) Pico, understandably, has major trust issues. He prefers keeping quiet and staying down low. He doesn't have problems talking to people, like ordering a drink or food at a bar or diner. It's somebody trying to be overly friendly with him that makes him weary. Even if the other person has the best intentions in mind, it's better you just stay out of his way. It's even worse around Nene, when she brings her loudmouthed friends with her. Fucking Christ, they give him an unbelievable headache.

★ ) He has a bad temper, which is already canon in the franchise. But he will unapologetically shoot you if he feels like it. This is of course different with his friends, who only get insulted and kind-of-but-not-really apologized to. Don't try and pressure him for an actual apology, because he will only get pissed off again and, this time, will NOT be apologizing to you for the choice words he speaks. At least you don't have a bullet lodged in your brain. Be grateful for his kindness.

[imp111]

PICO HEADCANNONS 1

trigger mentions: school shootings, depression, anxiety content: slight fnf pico, ooc pico, jumbled writing, pico, pico, pico, mentions of nene and darnell, pico,

author's note: I haven't written like this since my quotev days LOL so i apologize that my writing is kind of all over the place.

(for context, the events of pico school happened in elementary because that's what the wiki says!!!!) 1.) Whenever something serious happens, Pico's instinctive response is always fight, never flight (or in his case, stand around in shock or hide). He only did so once, which was when Cassandra suddenly began to school up his classroom (during the opening scene). After that day, he couldn't stand the thought of dissociating on the spot again. He always forces himself to act. It's instinctual, which sometimes ends up with him being in a lot of trouble.

2.) Pico rapidly aged after elementary school. He lost his spunk and started getting serious mood swings. He already had anger issues before, but this is when it really began to develop. He didn't talk as much and kind of became a loner. He knew what happened was wrong, but it never fully hit him until the end of middle school. He never got an official diagnosis, but it doesn't take a scientist to see when somebody is going through depression, and Pico was obviously depressed. He gave up on completing school and college and everything else he fantasied about when he was a kid. But somehow, by the grace of god, he ended up finishing high school with barely passing grades and an even shitter GPA. 4.) I kind of see him more aloof and tense than what fnf depicted him as. Personally, I just don't see him being extroverted and all carefree. So, with that said, Pico isn't that much of a people person. He's pretty inconsiderate of strangers, but of course he's not going to be a dick unless someone is first. 5.) It took him a while to get used to being in crowds like malls and generally just be out and about again. It took a lot of Nene and Darnell to get it through his head that not every crowded place was a death trap for him. It was a lot worse when he was in high school, but like a year after graduating he got diagnosed with schizophrenia and was properly medicated.

6.) With that said, Nene and Darnell also practically forced him to get his ass out of his house and see a doctor. There was no way in hell they could convince him to get therapy (because men will do anything but go to therapy), so they opted with getting him at least medicated for his delusions. It took a lot of nagging (especially from Nene) for him to at least *see* somebody that could prescribe him something that'd help with his anxiety. He didn't think they'd do shit but come to find out, Meds... can actually help with his depression?? And his mood swings?? 7.) Pico doesn't have self-esteem issues. He actually thinks he's fairly attractive. And yet, somehow, that man is absolutely bitchless. 8.) No, but seriously, Pico needs major work done on himself before he starts dating again, and he knows damn well, too. His last relationship was with a blue-haired twink who was crushing on some bimbo and he was too mentally checked out to really care about him. Even now that he has a better mindset, it's still such a struggle for him to be vulnerable. Talking about his struggles makes him cringe, and besides that, he literally kills people for a living. Maybe if he finds somebody good, he'd change, but for right now he's just going to be independent.