Artist

Relaying experience is relating experience

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The Fridge, 2018

Relationships to objects are entirely contextual. What is your relationship to a refrigerator?

Mine was forbidden for a number of years. I built this piece as a symbol. Constructed of plywood and foam insulation, this 8ftx2.5ft structure is meant to house one viewer at a time. Built in is an air conditioner and a singular lightbulb on full blast. Close the door behind you, at your feet is a scale. Interact with it on your own terms.

My favorite feedback I received on this piece was that is made viewers feel as though they were a piece of meat inside a locker. This statement resonated with my entire being. This should not be the feeling of the human form. This should not be a societal expectation.

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105 / Self Portrait, 2018

A target weight is something that fluctuates constantly. A target should be final, centered. When you have an eating disorder, your target weight is never satisfactory. You believe that if you ever achieve it, you will find contentedness. You won’t. Your target weight is a number that you will drag behind you like a rock tied to your back, weighing on your consciousness, your every thought, your every action. My target weight was always 105lbs. It became my identity. I achieved it for a time, but never found peace. The only way to find this peace, is to relinquish all thoughts and notions of a “target weight”. Cut the rope.

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Toilet, 2017

This is a project I completed in partial requirement for my BFA. 

In 2016 I began having acid reflux issues. It was impossible not to burp up anything I consumed. The chest pain became unbearable. All of this, of course can be attributed to my bulimia. I received an endoscopy to diagnose the reflux, and requested special permissions to record the cam-footage of the procedure. I thought it might be interesting project material for later on.

In 2017, following completion of an eating disorder rehabilitation program, my final year of college began. I thought about why I wanted to be an artist. I thought about conversations I wanted to start with my viewers. I created the Toilet project, in which I mapped a projection of my endoscopy footage into a toilet bowl.

The symbolic nature of a toilet was a necessary component in relatability and concept. The projection is visceral, ambiguous, and directly personal to my body, and the toilet pushes a narrative that is both hidden and telling.

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Artist Statement

My practice begins in the library.  My research investigates topics of feminism, history of societal standards, body image, and conceptual art. Personal experience, coupled with extensive ideation, determine which materials I will use for a project. I prefer non-conventional art forms, using materials as a means to an end rather than an influence.