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babyprii

tbh if im not goofy with you i dont like you

transbloke

Sometimes I need the reminder.

tarynel

What’s your fantasy?

pleasestopandrew

I wake up, my debt is all paid off, my bank account is full, my relationships with my family are healthy, and I’m able to travel anywhere in the world.

sophiamariabaeks

reblog for this ultimate fantasy life to come true

wasjopara

*googles number i dont recognize calling me instead of answering*

thequotejournals

“If you told me today our being together would result in heartbreak, I would still choose to be with you because I believe that truly living life is in the experiences, not the outcomes.”

— Kathryn Vance-Perez, Love and Truth

tastefullyoffensive

(via cottoncandaddy)

taylorzrealm

LMFAO THE LAST PART

disasterbisexual-moved

chaotic dorks

the-british-pineapple

I love how they are both as ridiculous as each

lolabunny-xo

I wrote an educational description about my bpd traits, specifically splitting.

(Since alot of people always get confused on the word splitting and there isn't enough detailed information on what happens to the mind of bpd when they're splitting)

I don't intentionally try to misinterpret an action, a word or anything as offensive, but it's like my mind switches a flip, I'm soo convinced of what I'm believing, It's exactly is a *paranoia or delusion*.

I go to an altered state of perception where I'm so convinced of something totally unreflective of reality like maybe my partner said or did this because he's trying to harm, control or abuse me. It gets scary because when I'm convinced of these perception I suddenly go to a state where I saw him as fake, his love is fake, he's acting in a loving way to get something from me so at that stage me lashing out or leaving him is justified.

I can feel the shift going from a perception of a him being fake to someone who I love and who loves me in matters of minutes or moments (that is called splitting).

Basically splitting is idealization going to devaluation or vise versa. From a personal standpoint, it's Going from a perception of seeing someone you love to someone you think is abusive, fake, someone you can't stand or someone who doesn't love or care about you etc and u can alternate back to loving him in matters of minutes or hours or days. Because the mind can't combine the positive and negative traits of someone like neruotypicals, so you split ur perception of that person into two and you can go alternate between these perceptions based on ur interpretation of their actions.

Anyway that's why I don't trust my perception of reality, it's unstable and that's why I'm susceptible to manipulation because I'm always questioning myself. I think it's also cuz my mind is constantly on lookout looking for signs of abandonment, or rejection and when there's none it starts creating one and I think that's why I get upset over basically nothing because my mind convinces me of something else.

borderlinepdfeels

theycallmebabeu

BORDERLINES, I HAVE A SECRET TO MAKE IT LAST WITH YOUR FAVORITE PERSON.

Are you...

► Tired of worrying if your brain will ruin your relationship?

► Exhausted from debating whether or not it’s all in your head or FP actually hates you?

WELL HERES The SECRET that I LEARNED being BORDERLINE.

► DO. NOT. ACT.

I have been to 4 different psychiatric hospitals within a 3 year period. I have been taught since the dawn of therapy to never hold anything in, that it will blow up later. WELL... in our cases, fellow borderlines, we shall break this rule. Why should we break it? I’ll tell you why.

I have been in a relationship for 7 months now, the only and longest relationship I’ve been in my 20 years of being alive. The first months of dating, I would leave my boyfriends house crying my eyes out because I felt he didn’t like me as much as I liked him. Or I would get home, and if I didn’t see a “get home safe” text... I would think my boyfriend didn’t care about me. There has been countless times I wrote a script for how I would breakup with him and what I would say.. despite how much I like him. I felt like at any moment he would break my heart, so I thought I had to beat him to it.

WELL. Here I am, 5 months later and I love that man and I’ve learned the ways he loves me. I never broke up with him. After getting upset for not getting the “drive home safe” text, I would go to bed and brush it off and act like I was never even upset the next morning. Why didn’t I express my upset mood to my boyfriend? Why didn’t I tell my boyfriend no text makes me upset?

BECAUSE I REALIZED A GOODNIGHT TEXT IS NOT THE DEFINITION OF OUR RELATIONSHIP. I realized that even though he never told me to drive home safe, he’d still text me Goodmorning the next day. And kiss my body and love me.

So with this being said, the secret to make it last is don’t act on those stupid thoughts (and cmon borderlines, we all are aware of how stupid they can actually be sometimes) When you don’t act on those thoughts, you can take the time and appreciatation to observe the things your partner or favorite person DOES do, and you will learn the ways that they love you... not how you WANT them to love you.

I love you all and I want you all to be happy 💛 If anyone wants to talk who is struggling, I am here with both ears open.. because I know this border battle is real and defeating. Much love xoxo