Impleria

21+ | They/She NSFW blog

[s1rl01n-dol]

yeah

[implerium]

Eren was a weak kid, a tiny one, so she had no choice but to rely on Regan’s protection, growing up. But they’ve always been defiant, so they kept building up their strength over the years, only making substantial progress after leaving the youth ward. Now, at 19, he can handle most threats by himself—and would definitely want to return the favor for Regan, someday. (About Eren + more on behavior within a relationship)

And here they both are, holding a torn leather sleeve like a shitty string of fate knockoff. Perhaps I can elaborate on its significance for Eren, sometime...

[implerium]

To be frank, it can be hard for me to gauge Eren’s behavior within a relationship, as much of it depends on the other person, the specifics of the relationship they’d build, as well as the circumstances surrounding it. And my in-game experiences have shaped Eren themself to the point I don’t really know who they would be in a universe without the LIs... perhaps they’d reach the same conclusions in different ways, I’d like to think.

(I’m not entirely sure I picked the right spots for the little icons, so I’ll explain myself through text. Might repeat what I’ve written in their character profile when applicable)

Naturally gravitates to big spoon, due to their height and protectiveness, but would reluctantly agree to be the little if you insist. They’d feel out of place in the latter position, at first, before eventually easing into it (and perhaps even finding comfort in it, depending on how they view you)

Much more willing to lend clothes than to borrow them, even the literal shirt off their back if necessary. If an item in your closet catches their eye, the most they’d probably do is casually ask about it before going to buy it at the store, instead of risking you going without... but they can be quite adventurous, so they might have no other choice but to borrow something, sometimes. This totally does not tie into a general reticence of asking for help stemming from a belief that they are (or should be) strong enough to do things by themself, as they always do

Uses few pet names, nothing too special or particularly original (ex. babe/baby + variations, maybe girl/boy/man depending on gender, a nickname...)

Isn’t naturally all that social, but doesn’t mind gatherings. Mostly keeps to themself by default, but has gotten used to approaching people when the need arises (often as a last resort). Closer to an ambivert ig

Expresses affection moreso through actions, they’re not all that creative with words (but doesn’t mind vocalizing appreciation when they think to)

Very unlikely to fall in love fast enough to confess first, that takes time. Might agree to a romantic relationship despite a lack of reciprocation, as long as you’re okay with being patient and seeing where things go. Could actually catch feelings during the relationship, in such cases. Would only confess first if these feelings start to overwhelm them, to the point they can’t proceed as usual with you

Takes care of threats with little, if any, hesitation. Willing to take bugs outside instead, around people who’d prefer that

Doesn’t have a license, but will enthusiastically seize every chance to learn to drive (even during dangerous or risky situations, if there’s no safer course of action). Very limited experience; only when offered, which hasn’t happened often (mainly while hitchhiking to and from the farmlands, but I won’t rule out other scenarios with different types of drivable machinery)

No qualms with cooking, won’t hesitate to step in for a poor cook. They’re a decent cook themself, but nothing spectacular. Good at following recipes, and willing to experiment or try to compensate for missing ingredients... with mixed results

Doesn’t enjoy being touched all that much (in general), so they usually keep their own hands to themselves out of respect (or restrained to brief, gentle touches like a pat on the shoulder or a hover on the back—which they’d prefer to receive, along with stuff like chaste pecks on the cheek). Not much of an exhibitionist, either; some form of privacy is ideal for bolder touches and sex, even if complete seclusion isn’t possible (they don’t want strangers butting in and sharing opinions, since they don’t care what people could possibly have to think of them). May consider being bolder more openly if you really insist, but getting comfortable with that can take time

Very protective, violently so—can be overbearing to a comedic degree, at times, always in a well-intentioned way; they know how dangerous this town is, they can’t take any chances. They’re not particularly paranoid, though, or controlling at all; in regular day-to-day life, you’ve got free reign to go wherever and do whatever—and they expect that same courtesy in return. However, they may consider backing off (or, at least, not being so impulsive about coming to your rescue) only if you’ve proven you can handle yourself on a consistent basis (though they’ll keep sticking around, even from a distance, just in case)

No relationship experience at all, not before their first LI in-game

LIBIDO:

Usually extremely low, almost entirely absent, as Eren doesn’t find much appeal in people they don’t know well, or aren’t close to. It can rise to an almost absurd degree, however, if and when they catch feelings (whether that means genuine love, Stockholm syndrome, or something else)

Able to control themself (and genuinely feel fine) most of the time, but can become practically insatiable when propositioned, or simply getting aroused, by someone they have feelings for. Even at high arousal, they’re very unlikely to initiate sex, as the idea of forcing themself on you terrifies them

Great stamina too, so they can last a while—perhaps even for multiple rounds—aiming to satisfy you even if they themself don’t cum or get stimulated all that much (their own physical sensations are merely a distraction from their primary objective, which is to please you as much as possible)

The main (if not the only) reason the bar isn’t completely full is because they’re able to steel themself and back away when you tell them to, or when they figure you’ve had enough. Otherwise, they’d rather they can keep going until either of you drops

AWKWARDNESS:

I’m not really sure how awkward they’d be as a partner, tbh, especially as they’ve gotten used to taking the initiative to approach people when need be. Any awkwardness would mainly stem from total inexperience (which they’d be upfront about, within circumstances that’d allow for open and honest communication). Or perhaps it’d simply depend on what is happening

For instance, they can be really uneasy during sex, so they’ll practically study your body language (and/or even verbally check in) at every step, just to make sure they’re not doing anything you might be a teeny tiny bit uncomfortable with. They’ll only ease up if you’ve proven, time and time again, that you remain capable of sticking to your boundaries even (especially) when you’re head over heels... or, at least, of fighting them off if truly necessary (hypothetically speaking, as they’d never want to cross your boundaries)

They’ll try not to beat themself up for any awkwardness or signs of inexperience they may display, especially since venturing into all sorts of uncharted waters is all they’ve been doing so far into adulthood, anyway

They would very much care to do things right by you as a partner, ideally by their first attempt. Would give their best shot, despite not always knowing what they’re doing

JEALOUSY:

I’m really not sure how jealous they’d be, at least in the typical (possessive) sense

They’re not the type to irrationally become suspicious of someone they regard well; if anything, they’re more likely to assume the worst out of the other person they’d see you with, and act accordingly

As for you, they probably won’t think much of you being close to others, unless you make it undeniably obvious you’re being inappropriate on purpose. Even then, they’re likely to understand any rational justification you could make about it... as long as you’re honest

I could moreso see them potentially becoming insecure about their own standing in your relationship (“do you still want me?” “you’re with them ‘cause you don’t want me, right?” “oh god, you don’t want me...”). How they’d go about it, if such feelings start to overwhelm them, would depend on the circumstances

As for themself: once they start dating someone, cheating doesn’t even cross their mind, as they have eyes for no other... or so they like to believe. In reality, they’re still capable of catching feelings, but it takes circumstances just as exceptional as the ones that got them in this relationship in the first place

However, this realization could make them feel very guilty. Even if they’d gather the courage to discuss the matter, they might not think to actually suggest any changes in the relationship themself—but they may consider non-monogamy if you bring it up yourself

...That is, if the two of you are even monogamous in the first place. I could see Eren considering any type of relationship, if you’re upfront about your feelings and intentions, or at least honest when the topic would come up

When Eren catches feelings, they start acting so differently to how they usually are, to the point it can feel OOC even for me—even if that is the point, in a way

[dokidokibailey]

In my characterization and writing of Bailey...

I really want to talk about how the writing in Bailey in the game is unique to anyone else because of PC's hypervigilance. PC is always analyzing his micro-expressions, trying to anticipate his mood. The narration often focuses on what Bailey doesn't do. He doesn't look at you. He doesn't hit you, not here.

That writing in the game around Bailey really got to me, like with the Ocean Breeze Cafe when Bailey wears a smile that is almost real or warm, or when he is about to sneer and the only person that seems to notice is PC while Bailey's facade works on anyone else.

PC is always on alert and glancing towards him and analyzing him, because he's their longstanding abuser, and I really love it. I feel seen in this behavior.

[morgana-ren]

Why do you think Bailey has such regret/panic after he fucks the PC?

I think that ultimately, there's a few reasons why that is.

For starters, Bailey has cultivated a 'no bullshit, no excuses' atmosphere in his orphanage. You have a set date he expects payment, and if you don't have it, you pay another way-- he extracts value from you, one way or another. However, that doesn't mean what one might think it would mean in a devious concept (at least not regarding Bailey himself.)

We know Bailey has some sort of miserable past likely mirroring your own. The only thing that seems to shake him is that attic. It alludes to the fact that he may have grown up in the orphanage, or maybe before he bought it, it was something different and darker entirely.

The way he seems to have gotten over it is by separating himself entirely from any form of sentimental or gentle emotion. Like poof, gone. Not a fucking ounce of humanity left in that man. Not one. He found a goal, and he sticks to it steadfast. That goal is to-- more or less, anyways-- to never be vulnerable again. The town he lives in is sick, and it's wrong. Something is going on in this place that makes people exceptionally more licentious; more rotten. Dark desires that most people would never even conceive of entertaining are rather commonplace here. In more ways than one, they have everyone-- victims and perpetrators-- by the balls.

One way to crawl your way to the top would be to remove yourself from that situation-- and then take advantage of it. If you're not looking at anyone as a potential victim of your lust, but rather purely as a paycheck, it removes a lot of the complications. The town still has a facade of law and order, as we can see if you frame Leighton, or just allow Briar to get raided, the cops at least pretend to do their jobs when confronted with cold, hard evidence.

Bailey has avoided this outcome because, plain and simply, he doesn't indulge. Doesn't even consider it. He doesn't take advantage of his charges in the way one might expect. In the way that Leighton does, or the way that most of the people in this perfidious town do-- with pure, unadulterated lust and base desire.

Bailey is all about the paycheck, which has the double advantage of making him rich, and riding him under the radar. Both of these things, when coupled with his raw power, leave him relatively untouchable.

Let's examine what sleeping with the PC means knowing all of this.

Well, having sex is in and of itself a vulnerability. Especially in the way it's instigated with him. It's actually sort of brilliant: it literally breaks every single rule he has. Even the unspoken ones.

He shows humanity in being seduced. It reveals a weakness, both to him and to someone who could potentially take advantage of it. It shows that he very much does suffer from base human desire to the point where it's actually boiling over from his repression.

And how you seduce him has him breaking his very strict rules on payment.

No mercy, and no leniency. That's what one can usually expect from Bailey. No amount of batting your eyes and pouting your lips at him will get you what you want. It might work for everyone else in this shithole, but not him.

....Except it does.

In fact, it works so unbelievably well, that he pounces. Literally.

He loses all sense in that moment. Just goes right out the goddamned window. You ask him for a little extension on the payment, which should be an automatic 'no' without even thinking-- except he makes the mistake of looking at you when normally, he probably wouldn't. He would just keep his nose in his paperwork and point wordlessly to the door.

(This shows a pique of attention when it comes to the PC themselves. He seems to indulge them a little more than he would anyone else, which you see on several occasions.)

The PC doesn't even technically outright ask for anything. Just puts on a little show in the most minor sense, and Bailey straight up loses his mind. Shoves you to the floor and crawls on top of you right there, tearing at your clothes and trying to get his cock in you as quickly as physically possible.

Desperation. That's the word for it.

He breaks his most iron rule and pretty much every other one in one swift motion (or several, lmao) and he loses from it-- at least how he tries to view things.

He has to honor his word. You help up your unspoken part of the bargain, and while he is a complete bastard, he's not a scumbag. You get your damn extension.

And then there's the matter of the power you have over him, and know you have over him now. Lusting for someone is, in the most base sense, them having a form of power over you. You want something from them, and whether you'd like it to or not, that impairs your judgment regarding them. He wants to be seen as this iron-willed monster. Unbreakable and unmovable. Not even human.

But his grunting and panting and hissing over you shows that he is all too human for his own liking. Because not only did he give in to his lust, but he enjoyed it. Enjoys it so much that even if you ask him to stop, and take it all back, he won't. He'll keep fucking you even if you beg him to stop and try to beat him away, which shows that he is just like everyone else in this fucking town.

Even he has a weakness.

Bailey doesn't casually have sex just to have it. You'll never see him at the brothel, and he never touches any of his charges, or anyone else for that matter. That puts a weight of importance on sex to him, whether he means it to or not. That means there's something so special about you that he indulges.

That's where the regret stems from. It breaks his own mental image of himself. It breaks every one of his rules. Everything he bases himself on and spent years building crumbles beneath your touch. It shows him that he's weaker than he thought he was, and all because of, what is to him, the whining and mewling of an orphan girl he's supposed to be 'taking care of.'

I imagine that's why he turns colder afterwards. He cannot risk that happening again. Can't risk you worming your way into his heart the way you manage to do with everyone else. You'd ruin everything because you let him ruin you.

He owns you, and you're his property. If he thinks too long on that, he might start getting ideas.

And he can't have that.

[and-my-sword]

a kind and patient priest being so generous and teaching me how to pray, his warm hands over mine, clutching them together for me... sitting me in his lap and guiding my fingers to count the beads on a rosary... having me kneel in front of him and tapping his finger against my lips to open my mouth... soothing at my hair when i gag... "i know its hard work my lamb, but youll endure it for me, wont you?" and when i choke again and make a pathetic little hum around him he smiles and keeps rocking in, leaning his head back in pleasure. and at that moment i think that god maybe does truly exist

[implerium]

It’s a bit hard for me to believe that Bailey still has their anal virginity, of all things... but maybe I can find a reason for it:

What if they’ve gotten so good at using their other body parts, during their sex worker days, that no one has ever insisted on anal (at least, long enough for them to see the point in relenting)? Not that they even care about virginities in the first place, or that they’d be particularly reticent about selling their last one for the right price—but perhaps, paradoxically, there could be some sense of pride in keeping it despite all the things they have gone through.

[implerium]

Introducing my first DOL PC!

Word goes around of an amateur vigilante prowling the streets at night, as if on the hunt. They usually look (out) for orphans, but will rescue anyone in need of help—not without giving a good beating to any creeps who believe they can get away with repulsive behavior under the cover of dark. Those unfortunate enough to incur their wrath limp back home not only with bruises on their body, but with a story to tell...

Of one the orphaned call the Tower.

ABOUT:

Name: Eren

Pronouns: Any, except it

Gender: Unlabeled (technically agender)

Sex: Bigenital (has both a dick and a pussy, hidden by a chastity belt)

Sexuality: Demi

Occupations: Antique hunter, docker, thief, and more—mainly manual labor-type work, but they’ll take anything (or almost). Oh, and they’re a temple member, too!

LOOKS:

Pretty tall, like 6’0~6’2

Slender build, toned and fit

Light skin, dull grey eyes that could be mistaken for any other color under certain lighting

Dirty blonde hair, flat strands barely reaching past their square jaw

Angel or fallen angel or something in-between

No animal TFs by default, but could have (and switch between) any of them

PERSONALITY:

Defiant, bratty even

Somewhat stoic and reserved. They don’t talk much, especially about themself; all they do, it seems, is work, which doesn’t often lead to interesting conversation—at least, according to them. They’re content going with the flow and listening to other people speak, but unafraid of taking initiative if need be

Very protective, violently so, and kind. There is little they wouldn’t do for someone in need

They try to appear friendly, but don’t always (successfully) come across that way: they can appear intimidating or brash even when they don't intend to be

Not very introspective. They don’t tend to reflect on what they experience or witness, nor bother taking the time to form their own opinions about what they learn. They take things at face value, and move along—there’s no time to dawdle when you (or anyone else) can be put in danger at any moment (and rent is always due)

Don’t mistake this for ignorance, however. They’re quite the attentive and perceptive person, they just relegate their observations to their subconscious. They've gotten better at listening to their intuition over time, though instinct occasionally contradicts stated intention. Luckily, they’ve also gotten good at reigning themself in

STATS/SKILLS:

High willpower, especially when it comes to physical pain

High skulduggery, but struggles to perform meekness when the situation calls for it

Started off innocent, but learned to read people once they decided to try protecting others instead of only worrying about themself (and they’ve learned much about the supernatural side of things while rising in the temple ranks)

Good at tending (mainly when it comes to patching wounds, but also knows their way around a garden)

Decent housekeeping skills (better at heavy lifting and clearing big messes than polishing little details)

Decent cook (their meals are quite nutritious and filling, but end up relatively bland—or tasting surprisingly good, but nothing spectacular... at least, compared to Bailey, which isn't a very high bar all things considered)

Not too bad at dancing, but not the best either (what they lack in technique, they compensate with passion and stamina)

Grades? Hmm... Not entirely sure, though I will say they tend to struggle learning notions that depend on circumstances, or that change unpredictably over time. Once they understand, they’re good

More on Gender:

Men (usually) have penises, while women (usually) have vaginas... but as someone with both, what was Eren “supposed” to be?

As the only one of their kind or so they’ve seen so far, they’ve been given no guidelines nor a set gender to conform to—though they’ve once been told to “pick one,” which they took a little too literally; now they “change genders” as often as they change clothes

As a result, their closet is filled with both masculine and feminine clothing of various styles. They dressed exclusively for function at first, then began experimenting with gender presentation over time, keeping track of the way people perceive them when they wear a certain item over another... (their rather androgynous appearance certainly helps with that)

Now, they’ve come to expect (as in, anticipate or assume) being referred to according to the way they look. If you call them a girl, for example, they’ll believe they currently look like one (and may go change if that wasn't their intended goal at that particular moment)... but they won’t actually care if they get “misgendered,” even if they catch onto the fact you’re doing it on purpose

If they gave any of this any purposeful thought, they’d likely compare their experience to that of a crossdresser

They feel no personal connection or sense of belonging to any gender (in their eyes, they have no gender)—though they don’t care to take time away from their preoccupations to reflect on that and consider labelling themself, nor revisit any other beliefs they may have subconsciously formed around gender in a broader sense even as their awareness increases

More on Sexuality:

Like with gender, Eren doesn’t consciously think of themself as demi—they’ve never given any thought to their sexuality either, mainly because they don’t really feel attraction to people they’re not close to

They’re rather chaste, only willing to engage with partners or people they develop feelings for—which is to say: very few

They do develop feelings for certain NNPCs eventually, and it surprises them every time it happens—they never know how to react to the realization, especially as they start thinking and behaving very differently than before

Whether these feelings refer to genuine love, Stockholm syndrome, or something unhealthier... It’s like a switch flips: they suddenly become very attached to the other person, and surprisingly receptive (and sometimes even enthusiastic) to advances

Gender is not a deciding factor for potential partners at all, they never had a preference or any hopes/expectations of actually getting any partners in the first place, but here we are (this is dol, after all—is staying single even possible?)

Wow, a blonde angel who'd rather fight, and is very involved in the temple... what an original concept, I sure hope no one has done it before!

[implerium]

I’ve finally decided to behave for once, can’t wait to get my rewa-

Oh, fuck you

[implerium]

There should be an option for the PC to present as androgynous, rather than strictly masculine or feminine. It should be difficult, unlikely to achieve by accident, and would probably confuse the shit out of everyone you meet.

Perhaps it'd be a different story for NPCs (named or otherwise) who know what your genitals look like, though I can imagine some of them asking for your pronouns anyway in likely-not-very-woke ways.

[implerium]

Game mechanic idea: Fallen Angel!PC working for Angel!Jordan themself, as a sort of assistant: an Acolyte. Your one and only objective? Keep Jordan pure.

Jordan has been tainted by a powerful elkspawn, and it is up to you to help mitigate that taint before it has a chance to spread within them (or, worse, to others). Luckily, the high priest(ess) has managed to escape from their one and only encounter with all virginities intact—aside from handholding (which they didn’t have in the first place).

However, this event has ever so slightly opened their mind to corruption; their lust will increase over time, and you must continuously purge them before it’s too late. After all, you’re the only person who can (who they’d allow to) touch them in any sort of manner required to fulfill that duty.

One way to reduce Jordan’s corruption is take it upon yourself, similarly to purging a penitent in the confessional. This is best for keeping lower amounts of lust at bay, but must be done relatively often. To wipe more corruption at a time, you can “deflower” them in the temple prayer room, satiating them while preserving their purity (basically the rite of defilement, except...)

The Bishop is aware of it all, and fully supports this endeavor, as they recognize the toll lust takes on people. Especially someone like Jordan, whom they recommend keeping innocent.

Speaking of innocence, Jordan’s awareness of sex will increase over time as well, mostly by their own efforts. After their encounter with the aforementioned elkspawn, they realized just how weak they had felt as they were, and promised themself to become stronger for the sake of their beloved town. You can either help them acquire a different outlook on the world, or listen to the Bishop and keep that from happening at all.

Actions taken on the job influence Jordan’s perception of you and the temple’s grace—some choices affect them in the same way, while others offer contradicting possibilities. At first, the rest of the temple will ignore you, or even sneer at you, but may slowly warm up to you depending on the decisions you’ll make. No matter how well you may have been regarded as an angelic monk/nun, grace will reset to 0 after coming back to serve Jordan—as a fallen angel, of all things.

As for Jordan themself, they will be grateful for your efforts no matter how they may feel about you, but higher respect might influence the way they act toward or in regard to you. With enough awareness, perhaps they’ll catch onto the less-than-savory aspects of the temple, and even stand up for you should the occasion arise—if they respect you enough to risk disturbing the peace.

At high corruption, perhaps they’ll no longer be able to keep their gaze from wandering over you a little longer than necessary—or their hands from wandering to less-than-appropriate places in less-than-appropriate ways, getting bolder and bolder as their willpower wanes. The more innocent you keep them, the less likely they’d be able to realize what they’re doing on their own, and therefore less likely to stop unless you set firm boundaries every single time.

Allowing their awareness to rise offers many possibilities, regardless of respect—not only to you, but to themself and the rest of the temple—which can be both a blessing and a curse. More awareness may prompt Jordan to actually wander outside the temple, with or without you to help them navigate this dangerous town—depending on where they go, they might start learning more about themself and begin taking care of their own needs, requiring less and less help in that department over time. On the other hand, it’ll risk complicating things in other areas of life, as they grow emboldened to make more and more unexpected decisions regarding the temple—especially if their shifting perspective clashes against the Bishop’s, who will ultimately blame you for any changes in their behavior.

If you’re not careful, Jordan might witness things they can’t unsee or unhear—and they can never be 100% innocent again, no matter how much you try to make them forget.

Should the need arise, they will happily take off some of the burden they’ve placed on your shoulders, especially as their own purity still snuffs out corruption. The simplest way for you to increase yours is by simply basking in their radiant angelic light, but there are other methods as well (mainly through skin-to-skin contact). The more virginities they keep, the more effective any purifying actions are. As long as their corruption is low, of course—otherwise, corruption will be the only thing they can give you.