Work on Myself with no Time for Myself

H: 170cm SW: 84kg; CW: 63,2; 1GW: 75✔️; 2GW: 70✔️; 3GW: 65✔️; 4GW: 60; UGW: 58

[ultracraig]

[fitnassstuff]

[sportives]

[impossiblebutterflyfeather]

Sportsbodys

[impossiblebutterflyfeather]

There is this guy who told me he sees no future in us or a relationship with me because of long distance etc. I will see him next summer on a music festival eventually. So I will give my best now to be my most perfect version of myself by then.

Here is what you lost!

[impossiblebutterflyfeather]

Trying to stay healthy and fit while thinspo crosses me so easily

[sometimedarling]

Reblog if

- You’re not the perfect ana/mia/ed sufferer

- You’re a healthy weight

- You’re overweight

- You’re underweight and still not satisfied

- You don’t have flawless skin

- You procrastinate relentlessly

- You fast all day only to fuck up and eat dinner and lunch in ten minutes flat

- You probably don’t drink enough water

- You don’t like tea

- You don’t get enough sleep

- You know deep down that even when you reach your GW you’re still going to want to stop existing

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Everyone on this site is so perfect

I’m sick of feeling alone

And I bet I’m not the only one

[life-of-a-overweight-bulimic]

[dedicatedtothin]

anyone else feel like they’re faking?

because you eat enough or too much sometimes

because you’re still fat or just not skinny at all

because food makes you feel better

because you just aren’t sick enough

[below-100-calories]

me. i honestly seek comfort in food sometimes as much as i hate it, i hate having to rely on food for comfort :/

[impossiblebutterflyfeather]

Completly the same! I can’t be anything else as a fake and a failure. I mean, i honestly just am fat! There is just no way...

[impossiblebutterflyfeather]

Another try

Another try to start eating healthy. Telling myself to lose weight slowly and healthy without stressing myself out... 2nd day in, and i‘m already debating with myself wether that 93cal boiled egg is okay to eat since my plan leaves „only“ 941cal for the rest of the day (calculated already most of all day). Came to the point where i rather save that egg for later...

Sure that‘s the healthy way! *sarcasm off*

[skinnyshh]

You can be thin. You really can. You see this so many times on tumblr, I’m sure. Maybe it hasn’t sank in yet…

Let me say it for you again for you.

You can be thin.

Don’t just read. Think.

You CAN be thin.

You literally can be fucking thin, literally. It’s very possible.

[impossiblebutterflyfeather]

I just can’t believe in it right now, but maybe one day i‘ll learn my lessen...

[slept-alone]

reblog if...

- you cannot stand yourself.

- you’re hungry rn.

- you want to lose weight and fast.

If you were looking for a sign, this it it. You will not binge today.

[impossiblebutterflyfeather]

Songs that catch me...

„Hello darkness, my old friend

I‘ve come to talk to you again

Because a vision softly creeping

Left it seeds while i was sleeping

And the vision that was planted in my brain

Still remains

Within the sound of silence“

Source: Simon & Garfunkel/Disturbed - The Sound of silence

[fragilelikeasuicidal0106]

Being Overweight with an Eating Disorder Includes:

Stretch marks

Loose skin

“You’re not skinny enough to have an eating disorder.”

Destructive behaviors being encouraged and praised

Rapid weight loss

Skipping meals

Eating very little

[Potentially excessive] exercising

Exclusion from the ED community

Suffering in silence because your weight isn’t low enough for a clinical diagnosis

Feeling as though your struggle is invalid because you do not fit the “criteria” for an eating disorder

Feel free to add more if you have one I failed to mention.

[impossiblebutterflyfeather]

Can relate!

[impossiblebutterflyfeather]

Becoming skinny maintains a dream...

Every day i wake up, i feel like crab when i have to see my body as i need to take off my clothes to change. When i step on the scale i feel even worse by looking at the numbers not going down. But i the same time i feel determined to do better than yesterday! I wait until noon for my first meal to eat. This is always good calculated and i usually don‘t feel that bad about it. I‘m still determined. But at some point between 12 and 8pm i always seem to lose my motivation an sink deep into old patterns and getting into a i-don‘t-care anymore-mood. I‘ve lost 4kg since janurary and that‘s it. I feel like i will never break the circle! Please someone help me!!! I hate myself for doing what i do!

[fakingitdarling]

[impossiblebutterflyfeather]

Yes.

[justlikeparis-deactivated201708]

Reblog if you would rather be a little underweight rather than a little overweight.

🌹

[chilicheddar]

You know what sucks

Having an eating disorder and failing at having said disorder. Having the same cycle every few weeks. Not losing weight, but still obsessing over eating less and constantly counting calories. Losing a little bit of weight, then realising you can’t do this for the rest of your life because you feel like absolute shit, mentally and physically, and you realise you have a healthy weight. Then deciding to pig out and hate yourself for it. Then eating normal again. Aaaand a few weeks later you start over..

You will never meet your goal, but you can’t let it go. Everyday is a disappointment. Everyday you feel like a failure. Stuck. Endlessly.

[loudest-silence-quietest-scream]

I get this %100

[impossiblebutterflyfeather]

Somebody who don‘t even know me just told my everyday life. Except for me being really overweight-.-