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He's never been worried. Not at home, not when he could fight any assailants off himself. Hell, they'd be fucking loose in the head to think they could take him on. It's not like he had much to show either--he didn't have much in the ways of luxury, simply because he chose not to purchase it.
Until he met you. He was nervous then, suddenly fixing shit around the house he'd let slip by him--the broken security system, the hole in the ceiling where he'd ripped out the smoke alarm because of its incessant 'low battery' beeping. Sure it was dangerous, but he hadn't cared before.
What never changed was the fact he'd had guns all over the house. You told him before that you'd feel sorry for whatever poor bloke thought he could grab a quick check off of your home, and he'd laughed in response, told you not to worry about it. He'd deal with it, after all, should push come to shove.
So he's prepared when he hears rustling from downstairs, and the beeping of the security system he'd had installed beeping away beside his ear--quiet enough for you to never notice, loud enough for him to wake up. He slips out of bed, sooths the crease that forms between your brows when his warmth leaves from beside yours, and grabs the pistol under the bed.
Whoever's broken in is about to feel bloody sorry for even trying.
He's efficient. Makes quick work of checking upstairs, deems it all clear before he's creeping down the stairs--the perpetrator's back in immediate sight. He's rifling through the desk in the study, thumbing through cabinets for cash, or anything expensive.
He only notices Simon when Simon wants him to. It's a firm press of the gun to the guy's head, causing him to jump, flinching under the touch. "What the hell--"
âIâd shoot yâpoint blank right âere if I could, but the missus is sleepinâ upstairs. So yâve got thirty seconds tâfuck off before I turn yâinto a stain on the carpet," Simon interjects, checking the clock on the wall absently. Like it's just an average weekday to him.
"Hey, hey man, I'm just--" he raises his hands placatingly, dropping the papers he had been holding.
"Aye. Don't give a fuck. Would rather not stain the carpet, though, missus really likes this one. Said it's real soft n' nice on 'er feet."
Simon catches the door as he practically sprints from the home, only to avoid it slamming--he wouldn't want to alarm you, of course. He hums, shuts it quietly, and goes to the kitchen to pour himself a glass of water.
When he's back upstairs, shuffling into the bedroom, your wide eyes looking at him and quietly asking him where he went--how dare he leave you when you were cuddling, he smiles, places the glass on the nightstand and sneakily slips the gun right where he'd first gotten it.
âNothing, luv, was thirsty, needed tâgrab some water.â
-he sleeps better when youâre touching. doesnât matter howâyour ankle resting on his, your fingers tangled, your whole body draped over him like a blanketâif youâre not touching, he wonât sleep. just lies there, blinking into the dark.
-he never says âi love youâ the same way twice. sometimes itâs âtext me when you get home.â sometimes itâs âeat something.â sometimes itâs him holding your wrist a little too tight before he lets you walk away.
-every time you wear his hoodie, he watches you like itâs the first time. like he forgot how good it looks on you. he doesnât say anything. just tilts his head a little. maybe bites the inside of his cheek.
-he always smells like smoke, metal, and your shampoo. he uses it when youâre not looking. swears he doesnât. but his side of the pillow always smells like you. itâs better than that shitty 7-in-1 anyways.
-heâs terrifyingly quiet when heâs angry. except with you. with you, he talks. not loud. but honest. âthat scared the hell out of me.â âdonât do that again.â âi canât lose you.â
-he doesnât take pictures, but he has so many of you. little ones. secret ones. blurry and off-center. your hand on his thigh. your silhouette in the kitchen. your laugh mid-bite. he looks at them when he misses home.
-sometimes he just stares at you midâconversation, like he forgot everything you were saying because your face is doing something soft. like smiling, or existing.
-when youâre sick, heâs unbearable. no one else can take care of you right. he brings you water, meds, hot tea, his hoodie, five blankets, a knife, and a death glare for anyone who even breathes near you.
-he gets shy after sex. not duringâheâs dangerous duringâbut after, when youâre in his arms and breathing hard, he gets quiet. almost sweet. brushing hair from your face like he canât believe youâre real.
-he doesnât say âforever.â but when he fixes the cabinet in your bathroom without asking? when he memorizes your coffee order? when he adds your birthdate to every form he fills out? thatâs him saying it.
You hear the door click open â heavy, slow, like the person on the other side is dragging time behind them.
A dull thunk. Gear bag dropped to the floor. Another. Boots.
And finally, Simon Riley, slouched in your doorway, looking like heâs been peeled out of war and stitched back together just to come home.
His mask is still on. Eyes shadowed. Posture's like someone who has been shot at too many times and just wants to rest for a century.
âLove?â you say, shifting slightly on the couch.
He lifts a hand in acknowledgment.
The most tired salute you've ever seen.
âYou shower yet?â
âMm.â A sound that could mean yes, no, maybe, or Iâll dissolve into ash if you ask me anything else.
You catch him watching you intently as he stands still, his shoulders loosen â barely â like youâre the only safe thing in the room.
âFoodâs in the fridge,â you tell him softly. âIâll heat it up. Or you can do it, if you feel likeââ
âDonât feel like anything.â
His voice is rough. Brittle. But not unkind.
âThought so,â you smile. âOkay. Sit first, eat later. But boots offââ
But heâs already crossing the room.
Already collapsing onto the couch.
Alreadyâ
âOh my God, Simon!â
He lands face-first in your lap.
One arm limply draped across your thighs, the other curled beneath him like a kid hiding from the world. His mask nudges your stomach, the weight of him grounding â enormous, solid, alive.
You freeze.
ââŚSeriously?â
And there's a low groan. Maybe agreement. Maybe defiance.
âYouâre dirty. Youâreâ Simon, youâve got blood on your sleeve.â
âNot mine,â he mutters.
âThat doesnât help!â
He doesnât respond.
Heâs already out.
Breathing slow. Even. Like his body finally let go now that it found you.
You stare down at him â big, deadly Simon Riley, curled in your lap, completely spent.
With a sigh, you brush your fingers lightly over his knuckles.
He flinches in his sleep. Mumbles something. You lean in closer.
One word: your name.
Thatâs it.
Just your name. Like a prayer. Like home.
You settle back, resting your hand gently on his broad back.
Okay, you think. Shower later. Food later. This⌠now.
Outside, the world can burn.
But in this quiet corner of the universe, Ghost sleeps with his head in your lap, and thatâs all that matters.
Soulmate scars au with ghost who endures torture and war vs civilian reader???
Ghost didnt like to think about his soulmate. At all. For the longest time he thought he didnt have one, a desolate creature destined to be alone. He couldn't fathom the idea of someone's soul being entwined with his own, not after all the abuse hes suffered. First under his old man and now under the hands of war.
In fact, he completely forgot about his soulmate until he suffered a pretty bad injury. Two bullets to the abdomen, an anxiety inducing surgery for his team, and the all clear from the doctors left ghost in his medical room. The private area was an improvement from others hes stayed in, but hes still uncomfortable in the hospital gown and scratchy sheets. Awake in the middle of the night because all the doctors want to give him is mild ibuprofen (for reasons idk im not a doctor).
Pain twists and stabs at his stomach, so bad he almost doesnt notice another stab of pain. This one on his arm, the type of pain he recognizes instantly. Dread curling in his stomach, ghost turns his wrist upwards and nearly throws up. There, in flowering deep violet lines, are his soulmates wounds. Short and long horizontal lines, organized in a neat parallel row.
Hes not stupid. He knows what they are. Ghost actually does become sick, stumbling to the bathroom only to lay with his head pressed against the tile for a long time. He stays there, staring at the violet marks that will soon fade to lavender until kyle finds him.
The sargeant swears, and fast as ghost is to clamp a hand over his wrist, he isnt fast enough. Gently, slowly, kyle kneels down and peels the hand away, his lips purse and his eyes water.
Ghost blinks for a second and opens his eyes back in the hospital bed. Sun shines through the window, well into midday. When he focuses, he can hear his teammates muffled voices outside his door.
"Captain, he has a right to know-"
"No one's stopping him. Simon can put the pieces together himself."
"So what, we just sit on the information? Wait for him to realize and end up like- like *that* again?"
"Im with kyle on this one-"
The voices fall silent when ghost slowly opens the door. He looks like a mess, eyes red and lips chapped. "I should know what?" He asks, hand clamped over his wrist without realizing.
"Its not something youre ready-" Price begins, voice firm, but kyle cuts in.
"your scars are morse code."
Ghosts eyes widen, breath hitching, how- he looks down at his wrist and slowly removes his hand. It takes a moment for his sluggish mind to work over. But when hes does, simon makes a wounded sound. He closes the door, locks it, and just stares. Stares at the marks as water spills over his lashes, knees buckling when he takes a step. The violet marks, series of long and short cuts, a message for him from his soulmate. The only scar ever taken, compared to all the horrible scars hes handed out.
Simon Riley with a wife that loves to cook him lunches.
I like to think this is in the same universe as this blurb.
CW : None. Pure fluff
Simon loves waking up, having a shower, and then coming downstairs to see a plate of breakfast on the kitchen island, and you, in the kitchen, wearing one of his shirts as your pyjamas.
Simon loves wrapping his arms around your waist as you cook whatever you're making for him.
And it's not as though he demands it, or expects it. Ever since the two of you got married and you got to work from home instead of in the office, you would make Simon lunch.
It wasn't always in the morning, either. Sometimes you would just show up to the 141 base, greeting everyone with a sweet smile. Before handing Simon a still warm container of food.
Simon loved your cooking, but something he loved even more was the ego boost he received from his mates. Johnny especially.
Johnny always commented on what Simon had for lunch. Expressing how good it was and how he wishes he had a 'bonnie lass' at home that would make lunch for him.
Then, Simon made the mistake of telling you about Johnny's words.
Simon had said it in passing while the two of you were cuddling in bed. Chuckling to himself, not even noticing the pout on your lips.
He shouldn't have been surprised when in the morning, he saw two containers, instead of one. One labeled "Simon âŞâŞâ¤ď¸âŹ", the other labeled "Johnny âŞâŞâ¤ď¸âŹ".
Simon slid the container across the table as he sat across from Johnny. The scotsman looking confused before his eyes lit up.
"She cook this for me, did she?" Johnny smiled brightly.
"Aye. But don't get a big head about it" Simon glared.
"How can I no' get a big head aboot it? sweet lass she is. Migh' have tae steal her from ye"
"don't even think about it"
"She e'en put a heart nex' tae ma name, Simon. She must fancy me"
"I'm telling her you hated the food"
"No! dinnae dae that ye big brute! she'll think A'm a bastard!"
"You are one"
Simon brought home two empty containers that night. Telling you about how Johnny groaned with every mouthful and nearly licked the container clean.
You also started receiving sloppy kisses on the cheek from Johnny whenever you brought lunch in during the day for your husband and his best friend.
you felt simon pull your legs apart, slotting himself right between them. his face pressed against your stomach, his hands reaching for yours and putting them in his hair.
you chuckled softly, the sound filling the quiet room. your fingers ran through simons hair slowly, massaging his scalp softly. he hummed quietly, pressing his face even more into your stomach.
it wasnt long before he pushed your shirt up and pressed his warm cheek against your skin. simon loved being skin to skin, it always felt more intimate, more bonding. (he always called it bonding time)
he pressed his lips on your stomach softly, leaving a very delicate kiss on your skin. you felt his nose brush your skin when he smiled. he kissed your stomach softly, each kiss meaning more and more.
he doesnt look up until he's finished kissing all over your stomach, leaving no spot without his kiss. his eyes met yours and you can see the love he holds for you.
even though he might not say much, you know you mean the world to him. and he means the world to you too.
âRemember that little black ashtray you used to have?â Simon calls out from the kitchen, digging around like heâs gonna find something that isnât his.
You donât even look up from your laptop. âAshtray?â
âYeah,â he says, rattling a drawer. â You know, black. Square. You always kept your lighters in it.â
You blink. âSimon, I donât smoke.â
Thereâs a pause. The kind where you can feel him stopping mid-motion, mentally scrolling through his own memories like an idiot.
And youâre just sitting there, watching it click behind his eyes. That heâs not technically wrong. You did buy a little black dish like that once. Flea market, two bucks, no thought. Tossed your lip balm and keys in it. Forgot it even existed.
You smirk, eyes still on your screen. âMustâve been your other girlfriend.â
Throwaway line. Joke. Light. Nothing mean. But of course Simon wants a say in it.
âYeah,â he says. So fast. Like he was waiting to say it. âCouldâve been.â
Silence. Your head tilts slow as hell.
Just your eyes on him like youâre calculating the trajectory of the beer bottle next to him and deciding whether or not prisonâs worth it today. âHa. Ha.â
He freezes. Still holding the drawer like itâs a shield.
âYou keep playing with me.â Itâs not loud. Itâs not even a threat.
But he knows better than anyoneâthatâs the danger zone. Because your tone doesnât change. But the air does.
âYou make another joke like that,â you nod toward the counter, âand that bottleâs going in your skull. And not the fun way.â
Simon just stares at you for a second, like heâs trying to decide if youâre bluffing.
Youâre not. And he knows it.
Because last month, you ruined a manâs entire bloodline for lying to you during a debrief. Did it barefoot, in pajamas, eating chips. Didnât even pause the show you were watching.
So no, youâre not the one.
He nods once. âCopy.â Smart.
He moves back to the fridge like nothing happened, but the corners of his mouth are doing that thing, barely-there smirk, like heâs impressed. Like he lives to piss you off.
Because this is foreplay for him.
He wants to see how far he can go before you finally snap and kill him in his sleep. And honestly? You let him.
Because who else is gonna carry the groceries and make you tea and know exactly where your shoulder blades like to be kissed?
warnings/tags: non-consensual touching but itâs dealt with, heavy pda, soap being a nosy prick, ghost being a petty prick, reader just wants a hug, gaz is Tired of soap, affectionate bullying (theyâre all british), someone get price some chamomile tea, lowercase, bad jokes, light poly!141 at the end. cross-posted to ao3 @ sleepytimepng!
itâs a well-known fact within the task force that neither ghost nor you are too keen on physical proximity to others, much less in public, so obviously soap is intrigued (nosy) to see you both sitting a little closer to each other on flights home without so much as a blink.Â
***Â
itâs not that you have anything against the people exactly, it just makes your skin prickle when someone thinks theyâre well within their rights to put their hands on you. even soap makes sure to leave you your personal space when youâre all squished into a flight home.Â
and the entire base knows it too. youâre nice enough other times, pleasant and funny and willing to smile and take it when someone takes the mick out of you, but once a recruit had patted you on the back in the mess to get your attention and youâd swiveled roundâface hard, the threat of violence in your eyes spitting like flint against stone as your nails bit into the thin skin of his wrist. the stupid joke youâd been halfway through telling ghost fizzled out on your tongue as your brow pinched in a frown.Â
âhey, sarge, justâuh, needed your attention. didnât mean any harmââ
âiâd advise youââyou glanced at his uniform, keeping your tone very calmââprivate murphy, to keep your hands to yourself. not everyoneâll be as nice as me, will they?â you waited with raised eyebrows, adjusting your grip on his hand, squeezing the slightest bit tighter. âwill they, private?âÂ
he paled and managed a smile that ended up looking more like a grimace. âno, no, sergeant. thatâs my fault, iâllâsorry.âÂ
you nodded, letting go before turning back to your bangers and mash. you stabbed your fork into a chunk of sausage and bit into it, mumbling around the mouthful of food, âas i was saying, dâyou hear about the potato that got its head chopped off?â
ghost blinked the hearts from his eyes, and rolled them at you, shaking his head and murmuring dryly, âno, sergeant. do tell, wonât you?âÂ
you grinned. âit was decap-potatoed.â
the short huff ghost let out around his fork at the punchline made your insides warm enough that youâd neglected to notice that he had stared at you for far longer than your joke warranted.Â
anywayâword got round soon after; do not touch you without your explicit permission.Â
***Â
two weeks later, the task force was returning to base from a two-day mission stupidly high up in some far-eastern european mountain range. some light recon, nothing too exhausting, except the time difference was having an unusually annoying impact on your mood.Â
âwaste of fucking time,â you hiss, slamming your m16 under your seat with a huff. âspent four hours on my belly, freezing my fuckinâ tits off for fuck-all and now my hands are fucking sore and everything's fucking hurtingââ
your angry muttering makes ghost huff as he drops himself into the seat beside you with a sigh. he rolls his shoulders and glances at you from the corner of his eye. ânot a fan of the cold, are ya?âÂ
âno, i canât feeling my fucking handsââ
âgive âem âere, iâll warm âem up for ya.âÂ
he shifts his gun to his side and takes your hands between his without waiting for an answer from you. he dips his head as he rubs them between his palms, the warm dry skin of his hands making your own heat with goosebumps. you stare down at him, eyes bulging when he hooks his mask over his mouth with his thumb to exhale hot air over your fingertips.Â
he ignores your quiet noise of surprise and sniffs. âwhat dâyou call a ghost in the winter?â
you begin to mumble under your breath, rolling your eyes, âa presumptuous prickââ
âcasp-brrr.â
âoh, fuck off, that was terribleââÂ
âoi, oi, whatâs this?âÂ
gaz ducks into the cabin, shaking snow from his hair. he grins down at you both before slumping into one of two spare seats opposite you. price is riding with nik in the cockpit. âhavinâ a little snuggle, are we?âÂ
âtactical conservation of heat, garrick,â ghost drawls. âavoidinâ frostbite. thought you did medical training.âÂ
gaz snorts, noting the helpless look on your face. âah, right,â he nods, playing along. âno, no, youâre right, sir. i do remember summinâ beinâ said about that now that iâm thinkinâ about it.âÂ
âthought so,â ghost mutters, now massaging your hands. when you shiver again, he asks, âwhereâs soap gone? been âere far too fuckinâ long, mâballs are fuckinâ frozen.âÂ
âprobably stuck with his tongue frozen to the helo,â you murmur, swallowing heavily when ghost glances up from your hands to meet your gaze. the brown of his eyes crackles with warmth, like a roaring hearth, the wheat blond of his lashes glowing gold in the white light reflecting off the snow.Â
the door of the helicopter slams open with a metallic clang and soap stomps in, tossing his nvgâs onto his seat and tugging his scarf from his face; his cheeks are red with the cold. âsteaminâ jesus,â he wheezes, breath puffing out in a cloud in front of his face. âfuckinâ freezinâ oot there, isnae much colderân home, i tell ye.âÂ
he collapses into his seat then frowns at gaz.Â
âshove up, mate, ahâm noâ sittinâ wae half mâarse oot the planeââ he pauses, eyes landing on your hands clasped between ghostâs and a wicked grin breaks out on his face, albeit a little stiffly from the cold. âhello, we all havinâ a wee coorie, are we?âÂ
ânot wiv you,â ghost grumbles, shifting in his seat to turn his back on soap.Â
soap shuffles forward in his seat beside gaz and splays his arms over the back in a loud stretch. âoch, playinâ favourites, lt?âÂ
âmaybe,â he murmurs. he glances up at you, slow blinks like a cat and presses his mouth to your fingertips. the skin there tingles in a way you want to blame on the imminent frostbite. ghost hums lowly, blowing hot air across your hands before throwing over his shoulder, âwhatâs it to you?âÂ
âjesâ wonderinâ when ye were planninâ on tellinâ me ahâve been oosted from favourite subordinate, sâall.âÂ
âtantrums arenât a good look, soap,â gaz says, grinning and shoving his arm from his shoulders.Â
âneitherâs suck-up, ya sleekit bampotââÂ
âsoap havinâ trouble managing his big boy feelings, is he?â you chip in over ghostâs shoulder, delighted to see the man in question erupt at your words.Â
âright, so ye all fuckinâ hate me, do ye?! never thought iâd live ta see the day, all of ye ganginâ up on me like thisââÂ
âwant someone to hold your hand when you cross the road too, do ya?âÂ
âright bastard, ye ken ah donâtââÂ
âwill you muppets shut the fuck up? clogginâ the radio,â priceâs voice comes crackling through the headsets. soap actually sticks his tongue out at you before violently shoving two middle fingers up at you both and grumbling to himself the entire flight home.Â
***Â
after that, the two of you begin to find yourself seeking the other out for a little oxytocin boost. you let ghost rest his chin on top of your head at the back of the room during briefings, he pulls your legs into his lap on the sofa, his hand at the small of your back, your fingers hooked in his belt loops as you pass him, a shoulder squeeze, until it becomes routine.Â
ghost finds you in the rec room on a thursday evening, a file open on your lap and the pen in your hand spinning through your fingers as your other hand busies itself with curling and uncurling the corner of the page youâre on. when he steps around the side of the sofa, your eyes are unfocused and glassy.Â
hm.Â
he dips his head to meet your eye and frowns when you donât react. only a slow, tired blink and that very british tight-lipped smile that says iâm good, mate; you? before you look back down at the file. he sits down beside you and sighs through his nose when you make no move to get closer.Â
âcâmere.âÂ
âhuh?âÂ
âcome here,â he repeats. shifts back against the sofa, opens his legs and pats the space between them. âcanât âave my favourite subordinate fallinâ asleep on the job, can i?âÂ
you huff out a tired laugh, shuffling back against his chest and letting out a small sigh when he drops his hand gently to the crown of your head in a light pat.Â
âdonât let soap hear that, sir. might actually get some tears from him this time.âÂ
âoh, he knows, love.âÂ
his chest rumbles against your back as he speaks, makes you think of a cat purring, or the low roar of an idling engine.Â
âbeen moreân obvious about it, havenât we?â he asks, pulling the files into his own lap and resituating the pen in your hand. when you donât pick them up after a moment of resting your head against his chest with your eyes closed, he squeezes your knee. âgo on; work. iâve got ya.âÂ
***Â
âlook at âem, all snuggled up, itâs giein me the boak,â soap bemoans, covering his eyes. heâs hiding behind the rec room door, half-crouched under the window to sneak a look at two of the (currently) most irritating members of his team.Â
ânot botherinâ you, are they?â gaz replies, shoving soapâs head out of the way and dodging a retaliatory fist to make his way into the room.Â
âaye, onây stolen my fuckinâ sofa,â soap mutters to himself, making sure to keep his hair out of sight when ghost glances up at gaz as he enters.Â
after a long day of barking at recruits, and an even longer wait in line for some grub, all soap wanted was to have a wee nap. so, he padded into the rec room, expecting his sofa to be free but no. you and ghost had robbed him, all tangled up and lazy and taking up the entire fucking length of it with ghostâs stupid long legs. a file of reports lies open on the floor by ghostâs feet, the pages spread like theyâd been dropped carelessly.Â
ghost has your legs pulled over his lap, one hand kneading the muscle around your knee while the other rests on top of your head, slow scrunches against your scalp that make you lean closer to him, the furrow in your brows relaxing a little. ghostâs attention is on you, but yours seems to be focused on the device in your hands, thumbs moving over the screen in a way that reminds soap of higher-stakes moments in the field. and while it isnât life and death on the line now, it may as well be because everyone knows thatâs his fucking sofa.Â
he goes to step out from his hiding spot behind the door, but then there are footsteps behind him that he notices too late and a hand grips him by the collar to tug him away.Â
âtold ya on the way back,â price grumbles, âleave âem alone, you hear? not doinâ any harm, are they, sergeant?âÂ
at soapâs eye roll, price doubles down, dipping his chin to his chest and raising his eyebrows in a way that makes soap bristle because it reminds him of his ma.Â
âno, cap⌠was jusâ sayinâ,â soap starts, voice suspiciously close to a whinge, âweâve never got to cuddle so howâs it fair he gets to? prickly bastard elbowed me in the bawsack other day fer pattinâ him on the shoulder, anâ now heâs all cosyââ
ânone of our business, that, soap. as your co, iâd advise you to keep your nose out of it. itâs good for âem both," he says, squeezing his shoulder with another emphatic look. "trust me.âÂ
***Â
itâs twenty minutes into a long meeting of butting heads with government officials and priceâs subtle cutting insults that even ghost has to appreciate when you squeeze through the door, holding up an apologetic hand to price and shuffling around the table to sit by ghost. he nudges the chair back with his foot and lets his legs fall open when you settle, knocking his knee gently into your thigh. he's half-reclined, hips shifted forward to the edge of the seat to let him lean comfortably back in the chair. he gives you a brief glance, then refocuses to the front of the room, where a blueprint of some facility theyâre meant to be scoping out in a weekâs time is being projected on the wall.Â
a few minutes later, ghost makes up his mind. shuffles to sit straighter in his chair and quietly clears his throat to get your attention. you glance at him then look back at price, fingers hidden under the table as they pick incessantly at the tender skin of your nail bed.
youâre jittery. your knee has been bouncing against his since you sat down. he wonât look at you again for fear of drawing any more attention to you because he knows youâll quash any outward expression of fatigue or anxiety if you notice his observing, so decides to give you another outlet.Â
he unfolds his arms and settles a warm, heavy palm on the back of your neck. rubs his thumb into the tense muscles and feels your shoulders lower as the tension seeps out of you. he doesnât look at you; keeps his gaze straight ahead but you appreciate it and squeeze his hand under the table. he flips it palm up and lets you fiddleâtugging at his sleeve, pulling at a loose thread, kneading the meat of his palm.Â
across the table, soapâs attention has driftedâwhich, in his defense, it was bound to at some pointâto the slow pulse of ghostâs hand around the back of your neck. he sees your forearm too close to his under the table and frowns. gives gaz a less-than-subtle nudge that earns him a hard kick to the shin. he spits out a steaminâ christ before price shoots him a look and he quiets. a minute later though, heâs elbowing gaz again, nodding to you and ghost with wide eyes.Â
gaz takes a glance then looks back at soap, shrugging and shaking his head with raised eyebrows. donât care. when soap looks back, ghost meets him head-on, the full force of his glare hitting him in the chest. he raises his eyebrows in a challenge that soap glares at, a scowl forming on his face. soap relents a moment later, eyes burning from the impromptu staring contest and makes a point not to look at ghost for the rest of the meeting, knowing heâll see an infuriating smirk on his face.Â
***Â
months later though, he has noticed an improvement in your mood after bad missions. you donât disappear into the isolation of your room as much to lick your wounds in peace, instead preferring to settle on the sofa with your head on ghostâs shoulders and his big hand between yours. except now, gaz will take ghostâs place, or price will sit at your back, his chin resting on top of your head. soapâs far less obvious about his⌠distaste (jealousy) now. only gives you an understanding smile before settling on your other side, drawing your legs into his lap.Â
and in the dark of his room, with your head pillowed on his chest and his arm around your back, he curses quietly to himself. loath as he is to admit it, it seems priceâs observation was correct. it does end up improving his mood.Â
the way i was SQUEALING the whole time i was reading this... i have SO MANY THINGS to say!!
first of all, the tags are so goofy LOL BUT ITS SO ACCURATE I LOVE IT. the jokes? the silly bullying and banter? id say poor soap but honestly i was laughing the whole time LMAO
the writing has such vivid and creative descriptions and it's like WHAT. HOW. IT'S SO GOOD... especially the part where we were trying to endure the cold. ghost's features were written so beautifully, and i feel like that really intensified the feelings of intimacy and safety
i also really liked the part where we were restless and anxious during a meeting. the timing is crazy to me actually because before i got to that section, i started feeling anxious myself LOL i really love the way ghost cared for us during the entire fic though. i like how he isn't at all embarrassed about it and even goes out of his way to initiate a lot of the touches. i also love the light poly!141 at the end... everyone gets to cuddle and i love that so so much!!
... now please excuse me as i go scream at my pillow
thinking about how the more time you spend with john (price), the more you notice he's so much like a damn bear.
during winters, the time on leave he gets for christmas is predominantly spent snoring with you tucked under his arm. if you even attempt to get up, price'll groan and whine about how you can sleep in just a few spare minutes with him. once he's finally up and out of the tangle of blankets and sheets, he'll pester you about taking a nap on the living room couch with him.
or how he uses the door frames around the house to sate his constant need to itch his back. pressing the between of his shoulders to the trim, letting out little grunts that sound suspiciously close to a bears huffy growls as he rubs back and forth against the wood.
the man is also a brute. broad shoulders that roll like the hills of moors; a chest that flexes and softens with nearly every breath. when you press your hand to him, your nearly stunned that you two are the same species solely based on how he's built.
but most of all, his forests of hair on nearly every expanse of flesh. the downy fur that adorns his chest, or the dark blankets that wrap around his forearms like armored cuffs.
this is an update that's way long due, but in case anyone's curious, ill continue being on hiatus until around the first few weeks of june. i still have a lot of things going on in my life right now to the point that i still can't read fanfics as much as i used to. hopefully i get everything in order soon and i can come back again like i have always used to :')
maybe flirt a little. maybe not. it was one of those nightsâbored enough to entertain a conversation, but not quite desperate enough to start one.
so when the guy with the thick scottish accent slid up beside you at the bar, all easy charm and cocky grin, you didnât immediately wave him off. he was cute. smug, but cute.
âmy husband thinks youâre attractive,â he said, like it was the most casual thing in the world.
you blinked. âyour what?â
he grinned, sipping his drink. âaye. told me to come over anâ say somethinâ. said youâve got nice eyes.â
your stomach dropped a little. husband? plural? open marriage? what kind of sitcom were you walking into?
he tilted his head toward the other end of the bar. âthatâs him, by the way.â
you followed his gaze.
and immediately wished you hadnât.
standing there like they owned the buildingâ6â4, easily 250lbs of pure intimidation, wearing a goddamn skull balaclava in public like it was fashion week. black combat boots. gloves. arms crossed. and staring at you like youâd run over w dog and laughed about it.
you turned back slowly. âthatâs⌠your wife?â
he nodded, like a proud husband. âghost.â
you stared at him. âghost?!â
âaye,â he said, like you were the one being weird. âdonât worry, theyâre lovely. bit quiet. but he likes you.â
you risked another glance.
ghost hadnât moved. hadnât blinked. just stood there. watching. like they were waiting. and if you so much as breathed the wrong way, youâd be eating through a straw.
âhe⌠doesnât look like he likes me.â
johnny chuckled. ânah, heâs just thinkinâ. probably already planned how heâd carry ye out the bar. over his shoulder, princess-style.â
your whole soul left your body.
âi think iâm good,â you said, already stepping away. âtell your wife thanks, but iâm not ready to meet god tonight.â
âhe likes a challenge,â he called after you, way too cheerfully.
you didnât stop walking until the air felt less murdery.
You had always been a sleepy person. Dozing off on Johnâs lap in the car, nuzzling quietly into his side during films, and just enjoying sleeping on him in general.
But just imagine John telling some story about his glory days as he liked to to the rest of the squad, and heâs just rambling on as you sit next to him on the couch, but youâre half asleep. So heâll talk a bit â adjust his sleepy wife whoâs drooping off of his shoulder â and then continue like nothing happened.
But then it would happen again. And again. And again. You sliding down, boneless, eyelids fluttering weakly, snuggled into John like he was your own personal furnace. And none of the boys would say anything (apart from Soapâs quiet laughs), because it happened every time, and they knew the drill â keep a close eye on you to ensure you didnât fall to the ground, but not close enough to make you feel uncomfortable or to annoy Price, because as much as he trusted them you were still his wife.
âInfiltration wasnâtââ A pause for him to give up repositioning you and just pull you onto his lap, eliciting a quiet but content sigh from you as you buried your face into his chest ââthat much of a challenge, but you forget that there were about a hundred men, yeah? SoâŚâ
Meanwhile, having already heard all his stories a hundred times over, you had progressed from half-asleep to out cold, and by the time it got late enough m for everyone to start heading to bed, Price had to carry you bridal-style to your shared bedroom. Not that he was complaining. The missus always got her every want and need provided for, always. Especially when it involved her using him as her pillow.
your teeth sinks into the firm flesh of simon's forearm, leaving deep indents that nearly threatens to draw blood. in your poor attempt to gain the upper hand, you thrash around in his arms, which only causes him to let out a laugh that booms through your entire back.
âsimon!â you cry out, but his hold on you refuses to falter. the contours of his bare torso presses on your figure so tight, you'd think that he's trying to fuse the two of you together. it's not everyday that he gets to act this way, but as clingy as he can be, now is just not the time.
not when it's scorching hot!
âi swear to god si!â you whine, all while pushing at his arms. the simple action made the sweat on your forehead drip, and you're convinced that the shirt you're wearing is now damp with perspiration.
âmhm...â simon hums, and it took everything for you not to groan. he's lucky he has you bound or you would've already punched him in the face.
âjusâ wanna be witâ you âere, lovie...â he mumbles from under his breath before sighing at the nickname. âis thaâ too much for me to ask?â
you could tell from his voice alone that he has his eyes closed, acting all peaceful as if he doesn't have you trapped in his arms. if you move your head just a little bit to the side, his lips would be caressing the shell of your ear, and the thought involuntarily made you shiver.
with no more energy left to escape from simon's hold, you finally lay yourself limp on top of him. the heat in the room is no match for his own radiating heat, and at this point, your body has learned to accommodate to the temperature... somehow.
Phone calls | cw: fluff, age gap (reader mid 20s, John late 30s), part two
John Price who absolutely loves his phone calls with shy!reader.
Your voice is the sweetest thing heâs ever heard, still so small even though youâve been dating for a couple of months. He loved hearing you talk because when thereâs a lot of people youâre as quiet as a mouse, so he lets you ramble on and on about whatever comes to mind for how ever long until youâd try and crawl back in your box again.
â âM sorry, Iâm talkin too much, arenât I?â
âNo dove, let me hear more of you, yeah?â
And youâre attentive too, always have a follow up question to any of his stories. Giggles filling his ears when you laugh together. God, it just gave him that perfect burst his aging heart needed every single time.
His favorite thing to do though?
The old man would call your house phone when heâs right outside your flat, leaning on his car and looking up to the 5th floor, right where your apartment is. Heâd see your gorgeous silhouette in the curtains, youâd pick up that old yellow rottery phone that youâd gotten from him as a replacement for the one that broke.
âH-Hello?â Youâd squeak out, disgustingly cute, twirling the line with your fingers.
âIâm downstairs, thought Iâd see your face before I left.â
âWhere?â And youâre quick to uncover the blue and white embroidered curtains, revealing yourself on the baloney, curls touching just above your shoulders, only in your damned underwear and a tight top, with your nipples peeking through. If he told you about the way youâd look right now, youâd leap out of your skin.
But John just loved how he was the only thing on your mind when he called. Your big brown eyes searching the street for the bearded man, and heâs right there. Giving you a wave with a smirk he just can not hide.
âHi John,â youre breathless through the phone, love sick on that dream boat of a man.
âYouâre fuckin gorgeous love, always so beautiful.â
You yanked the phone away, hiding your face with your curls as you squealed, stomping around cute as ever. John could so easily get you all flustered, you peek down at him and heâs tapping his phone, listen.
You put the phone to your ear again, âDonât have long. Just wanted to see your face.â
And itâs clock work, John would tease you every time he wanted to see you by threatening to leave. As if he wouldnât climb up the damn apartment with his bare hands like you were fuckin Rapunzel. But youâd believe him every time, eyes widening and mouth opening and closing, words fighting to get out.
Heâd get your heart pumping even more as he turned to his car, âI-I- dont you wanna come up John? Just for a tea?â
He turns, to look back at you, eyebrow raised, he hums, âNot sure love, gotta be up early.â
âItâll be five minutes! I swear John.â And your pretty bottom lip is out, poutingâ the man couldnât resist you for long.
It wouldnât be five minutes, it never was, just as the older man had planned. Heâd agree, just for tea, with a grin. Practically zooming through your complex to get to you and taking you in his arms.
His sweet girl.
It couldnât get any better than you.
a/n: did I write this cause I havenât done a proper part two to a certain price fic? Wellâ but this was fun!!
Simon hadnât realized just how fucked your sleep schedule was until he moved in with you. His birdie.
Waking up in the middle of the night or at the ass crack of dawn only to find you curled up on the couch, blanket wrapped around you, phone in hand, eyes barely open. Sometimes, youâd be watching a show, other times scrolling mindlessly, and on rare occasions, half-asleep but refusing to actually get up and go to bed.
And then, without fail, youâd spend the next day complaining about how tired you were. Youâd drag yourself around the apartment, yawning every five minutes, rubbing at your eyes like a petulant child. And when he told youâplain and simpleâthat you needed to go to bed earlier, you had the nerve to roll your eyes at him.
âOkay, dad,â youâd say before walking away, completely ignoring his advice.
No amount of reasoning could convince you. If anything, the more he brought it up, the more stubborn you became.
So, Simon took matters into his own hands.
First, he switched out your usual tea for chamomile, hoping it would knock you out easier. Every night, he handed you your favorite mug, tea bag steeping inside, always a different flavor, something new to throw you off. Just in case you started getting suspicious.
You never noticed. Never questioned it. Just sipped at it, curled up in your blanket, completely oblivious.
Then came the melatonin sleep spray. He practically doused the corner of the couch where you always nested, soaking the blankets and pillows in the scent, ensuring that once you settled in, sleep would come whether you liked it or not.
And slowly, it started working.
You began dozing off earlier. The nights where he found you awake at ungodly hours became less frequent. You stopped yawning every other sentence. Stopped rubbing at your eyes like you were seconds away from passing out on your feet.
The dark circles under your eyes faded. Your complaints about exhaustion became fewer and farther between.
He never said anything about it. Never told you. Just watched in silent satisfaction as his plan worked.
But his favorite part? When you passed out on the couch instead of the bed.
Because that meant he got to pick you up, carry you to bed, and watch you sleep peacefully for a moment before pressing a kiss to your forehead and climbing in beside you.
It was selfish, really.
Because, sure, fixing your sleep schedule was technically for your health. But he couldnât deny that he loved the way you curled into him when he slipped under the covers. The way you nuzzled into his chest, warm and pliant, letting out a soft sigh in your sleep as he wrapped an arm around your waist and pulled you closer.