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When Abolish eventually fights in the arena (and if he gets a challenging opponent) I want to see him laughing and smiling because ITS NOT BORING! An actual challenge has faced him! And boy oh boy would he be excited!

I want the rest of the champions (except the few other battle crazed ones) to be confused and maybe a bit afraid because that guy has NOT been like that at all.

Please please please give me battle crazed Abolish I NEED IT!!!

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I do think that Cleo and Abolish are going to be a fascinating dynamic this series. There’s something about the promise of neutrality which may or may not change and the words kept hidden just for the sake of either of their own potential victories in the long run. But, Cleo reveals her abilities to Abolish, and he hands over the spare bow and arrows he found, and he gives her advice, and she listens to that advice, and she follows behind him when he searches for a spot to base, and they really aren’t too far away from each other are they?

How long does an alliance last before it becomes a friendship, and how long does that last until it goes up into flames?

I do!!!

Pan!Abolish doodles to accompany my yapping.

There’s not enough content just yet for me to do a full deep dive analysis the way I have been doing with V!Abolish, but what is there makes me really curious. A gladiator who achieved victory after victory only to be bested in a fight that costs him his life is a really solid backstory, but I feel like it’s missing a lot of important context.

First and foremost; Pan!Abolish’s region of birth and resistance to fire. He said that he was picking the nether-like tunnel to the surface because it’s similar to his home, and uses that as the basis for his resistance to fire rather than any blessings from his patron. Which makes no sense to me??? Greece and its coliseums can get hot but not fire and brimstone kind of hot, and the way he dodges Martyn/Nobody’s questions about where he lived and whether or not he’s even human is suspicious. I don’t doubt that he was a fighter, but I do doubt that he was ever entirely human.

Second; the way he talks to Cleo makes it sound like he chose to keep his distance from the people around him long before he was killed, except the phrase “stabbed in the back” implies that he was killed by someone he never expected??? Someone that he knew and liked??? It could very well be that he wasn’t betrayed at all, and the phrase just made its way into the script as. Well. A phrase. But the intensity of his trust issues speaks to a trauma based in either loss or rejection or both. Even if it’s not the one that eventually ended his (first?) life.

It’s weird.

Third is… kind of hard to explain. It’s a collection of editing and behavior patterns I noticed, starting with Pan!Abolish’s inventory. He’s clearly prepped for PVP again, except he’s keeping all of his better tools hidden in his inventory. He refuses to use his abilities at all, especially around other people, and he seems callous(?) manipulative(?) sneaky(?) in general. Early in the episode he makes a comment about being pushed off a ledge while looking right at Shelby. He bluntly tells Cleo that he believes neutrality is the best option on the principle that most of them will die eventually, but keeps silent or plays along when the friendlier members of the cast attempt to ingratiate themselves. He seems to only push himself into the conversation if it benefits him — asking Scott about wind charges and working together only after the first challenge is concluded. Which he’s clearly doing to enhance his own combat, given that stream about wind charges with maces and spears and all of the kind of horrifying ways he can use them together to maximize damage.

Also, Cleo’s introduction is literally the only one he includes in the video??? I legitimately didn’t know Pan!Legundo’s name was “Nikos” or that Martyn was going by “Nobody” because those initial/first introduction scenes are never shown. Just Cleo’s, who is also the only member of the cast that Pan!Abolish even slightly opens up to. It feels a bit like Cleo is the only one he’s really acknowledging as a contender, or an equal? Or maybe even just… the one person he’s willing to “ally” with, because everyone else will get too attached. I’m not 100% sure that he’s an evil mastermind like people seem to think (that would be AWESOME and I hope he is, lowkey) but he’s clearly not in this to make a lot of friends.

He’s just. Tired?

Personally, I’m actually hoping that he’s a literal living weapon. Some blade or other brought to life and given human shape in Hephaestus’ forge in the image of his once wielder. At least, I hope that black smithing and craftsmanship just become a little more relevant to his story in general. I think there’s a lot that could be done with that.

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I have some Pan!Abolish thoughts… does the chat still desire Sleepy So-Ha rambles?

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galacticbitchard

Pantheon SMP Spoilers for Abolish's backstory maybe?

I feel like there are so many possibilities with Abolish's past being fighting for entertainment. Especially because we never got a definitive yes or no about whether he was fighting for his freedom.

If he was a human at the time then he may have had to start fighting to pay off a debt or gain his freedom. If so then he may have felt he couldn't leave after he was free because if he was undefeated then he would've become decently well known and, it would've become the best way for him to earn a living. But, if he only did it of his own volition like to make money or for fun then it also says something considering he became bored with fighting after a while and he may have just continued to do it for the money or because he thought everything else was even more boring.

However if he was a monster/beast in the past, whether partially or completely (even though he looks human), then he would have been fighting in arenas without a choice. And, these fights would have been more and more about trying to find someone who could actually kill him the longer he went undefeated. He would have become what others use to prove their strengths, it would become the only thing people care about when talking about him. Of course that would become boring.

Either way, he stood at the top for so long that not only does pan!Abolish clearly know how to navigate situations like it, he also grew tired of it even though he had fun originally.

Honestly I wouldn't be surprised if we found out later that pan!Abolish not only knew what was coming but let it happen. It wouldn't be all that surprising to find out he let himself be killed because he had become tired of life.

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lacyramen

SakuTen AU where Tenten joins ROOT during the 3 year gap, and Sakura has to beat it off with a broom to stop it from stealing bodies from the hospital morgue

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Just saw this addition and. I did not even consider the possible shenanigans to be had when Sai joins the plot. Sakura immediately clocks him as a ROOT agent but assumes that he’s just a Really Weird one because he doesn’t seem like he’s having fun at all. Meanwhile her favorite little freak Tenten (who is CLEARLY the ideal example of a ROOT agent) is constantly being give prime enrichment. She starts leaving anonymous dead bodies outside of Sai’s apartment with sticky notes saying “DO NOT TAKE” and is even more confused when he doesn’t steal them

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Years later Ino comes to Sakura for romance advice since she’s been in a happy relationship(??) with a ROOT agent for ages now and Sakura has to break the news that Sai’s the worst saddest little ROOT agent to ever exist. She once asked him if he wanted to dissect a corpse with her and Tenten and he said NO. Can you believe that Ino.

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COMMISSIONS?????

WOULD THE CHAT (YOU) BE INTERESTED IN $15 TO $30 COMMISSIONS LIKE THIS????

OR THIS????

Traditional would be cheaper at $5 to $25-ish since it’s easier for me.

It COULD be mailed to you, possibly, granted that you pay for shipping????????? It might depend on how well I know you, which means it’d be mutual exclusive.

Uh!!!!

Yeah!!! This is an interest check!!!

INTEREST CHECK

I’m interested in digital

I’m interested in traditional

I’m interested in both

Interested but not able to pay rn

Not at all interested

Voting ended onJul 12

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YIPPEE!!!

Okay.

I’m officially opening commissions! Probably indefinitely, since I’m aware that my following is not especially large and ALSO not obtained from my art so much as my MCYT and various other rambles. But, if you’re interested, please feel free to leave me a message in my inbox and I’ll direct message you with my discord log in! That or we can conduct business over Tumblr, which is less reliable but still an option?

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Fandom is weird now. It’s becoming less trusting and friendly, and the Orwellian surveillance issues that are currently running rampant in the USA and UK have bled over into fandom spaces.

I’d read the articles that young people have no privacy and have become so accustomed to it that they enact on themselves. Abstractly I knew this and had accepted it, but it’s only now that I’m seeing it become a major issues.

Obviously part of the problem is I need to become a trusted member of my new fandom. But fandom in general is becoming far more hostile to privacy than even just 5 years ago.

I’ve had to leave 3 servers that want to do age verification. And this is new. Not even 5 years ago when I started zines ppl just turning 18-20 were far more receptive to the ideas espoused by us older folks about not being surveilled. But now it almost feels like they *want* to be surveilled.

They’ve become so used to it from tiktok and their government that they crave it. I’d write a dystopia about it but unfortunately what even is there to say that hasn’t already been said?

If you’re 18-22 now and you’re reading this and willing to listen without immediately calling me suspicious: this is not normal. Age verification will not keep you safe and will not keep minors safe either. It will only lead to the normalization of further surveillance and erosion of your privacy.

I know it can be an unwieldy text especially if you’re not used to reading academic sources, but go read The Panopticon. Watch V for Vendetta or read the comic, read 1984. Watch The Lives of Others and understand the ways this modern era is not so different from the Stasi in the film.

Please.

I don’t want to see a rerun of the surveillance state anymore.

COMMISSIONS?????

WOULD THE CHAT (YOU) BE INTERESTED IN $15 TO $30 COMMISSIONS LIKE THIS????

OR THIS????

Traditional would be cheaper at $5 to $25-ish since it’s easier for me.

It COULD be mailed to you, possibly, granted that you pay for shipping????????? It might depend on how well I know you, which means it’d be mutual exclusive.

Uh!!!!

Yeah!!! This is an interest check!!!

INTEREST CHECK

I’m interested in digital

I’m interested in traditional

I’m interested in both

Interested but not able to pay rn

Not at all interested

Voting ended onJul 12

If you want to be pinged/messaged if I do end up officially offering commissions, leave a comment!

#art commisions #digital art #traditional art #interest check