my feelings about the state of fandom
TLDR: im sick of fandom discourse and i miss being 14 years old and im sick of "proshippers" and "antis"
its actually super weird being on here and looking back at posts from when i was like 11-13. im 21 now and its wild seeing like how much ive changed + the people i knew, the views i had and how i expressed myself are all different now
ive been mostly active on twitter on my private for the past few years cuz i hate social media. ive been posting on instagram lately and its like....its ok i guess. but i still hate social media. and then very recently i realized like half the reason why i hate it so much is cuz fandom spaces suck now ON TOP of capitalism ruining the fucking internet
everyones harassing each other over stupid shit that ultimately doesnt matter. and i mean EVERYONE lol!!!!! proshippers arent that bad compared to antis but a bunch of them are still entrenched in fandom discourse and some of them are still hypocritical and its actually so tiring
i just dont even want to make friends in fandom anymore cuz of this i feel like maybe its time ive moved on with my life but fandom/internet is such an integral part to how i grew up that i dont think i can ever be truly removed from it. like it was so easy for me to make friends on here because i didnt worry about anything and i really do have a lot of great memories here on tumblr. now i have to constantly worry if otherwise cool people are immediately going to stop talking to me because i ship teenagers or something fucking dumb i dont know. theres a bunch of sickening stuff ive seen that were made by someone online but it doesnt actually make me want to stop talking to someone and harass them???? so i dont get it
likei really want to share my art and headcanons and talk to people in the same fandom but i literally dont feel safe about it anymore when 90% of what i like is problematic or whatever cuz the only things that are "acceptable" are the most vanilla bland shit imaginable
and its actually insane to me cuz i was in jjba fandom and now im back into danganronpa which is EXTREMELY problematic. its insane the amount of people ive seen since i decided to have a social media presence- that have "proship dni" in their bios and still create/consume problematic shit. words actually have no meaning anymore lmao
and i just know people are going to see this and completely ignore what i wrote lol. well time to disappear again
