Sometimes...
Life passes us by. We go through days where we don’t remember what we ate the previous day for lunch. We think “am I loosing my mind?” The answer is no. We are just letting this life fly by.
Between working for a company, trying to be an independent consultant, mom life, home life... I’m exhausted. Drained. Not to mention the divorce that could be signed off on anytime! Then I’ll be running to the lawyers office to sign the final paper so I can get the decree in the mail. Exhausted is an understatement.
Besides today and yesterday, I can’t tell you what I’ve ate. I’m thankful I wrote down every message for work, because there’s no way in hell I would be able to remember names or messages. Thank God I’m so organized.
We get so side tracked with the small things... the things that won’t matter in a week- that we forget the big things that are falling into the background music, effortless.
The whole “day 356 without sex...” memes.
Well my boyfriend may could tell you the last time he had some. I can’t. But I know it’s been at least 3 days. That makes me feel like shit.
My kids come to work with me daily, they sit in my office with me and watch the ipad, play in the sand box next to my office window, or draw and color. Sometimes they act out, my office is tiny, slightly cluttered, and I have customers every few minutes- so they have to stay quiet. They get fussed at a bit when they turn the iPad up too loud or start fighting.
But I need to remember that this job is not made for my kids. They are little. They aren’t supposed to stay quiet for hours. Or sit still for hours. And even though I teach them manners, they are sisters. They fight. It happens.
These big things that are in the background should be the main focus in these picture. Not all the little surrounding things that won’t matter tomorrow. 🖤