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Jack was beginning to feel bad; she knew better, of course she did. She usually enjoyed all the jokes, but with everything going in her life && her emotions spiraling like fucking crazy, she couldn’t help but react to everything with anger. Biting her lip as Ryan left, she could feel the guilt beginning to scratch the surface. She hated seeing him upset, && with her being the cause of it, it made her feel that much worse.
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Sighing, the orange-haired woman made her way outside, shutting the balcony doors behind her in case one of the Lads passed && heard her; she didn’t want anyone else to know yet.
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Crossing over to the railing, Jack stared out at the city, finding it to be too happy && peaceful. She wanted to destroy it, she was itching to get her hands on her weapons && cause mass destruction. But Geoff wouldn’t let her.
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After a moment of silence, Jack looked over to Ryan. ❛ Ry, I’m sorry for going fucking nuts on you, it isn’t your fault, really. There’s a reason why I’ve been doing things lately. ❜ She paused, taking in a deep breath before turning to face him, hoping to catch his gaze.
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❛ Do you want to know why I’ve been skipping out on everything && staying home? Why I missed out on our Grand Heist a few nights ago. Why I’ve been so emotional lately? ❜ She didn’t wait for an answer, she didn’t want to back out of it if she paused at all.
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❛ No one else knows, except for Geoff, && I’ll skin you in your sleep if you utter this to the Lads before I’m ready, but… I’m gonna be a mother, a real one. Not a metaphorical one like I am to this crew. I know, it’s fucking insane && I shouldn’t have it because of the life we have, but… I want this child. I already heard the speech from Geoff, but I convinced him that I’ll take care of our child. ❜ She smiled a bit, then turned to look out to the city again.
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❛ I know it doesn’t excuse for the way I acted, I know better, I really do. I know you were just joking, && normally, I’d laugh it off, call you an idiot and call it a day, but, I’ve been such an emotional mess lately, && I’m only gonna get worse as this goes on, but, at least you know why I’m gonna go nuts on anyone && anything. I really am sorry, though. ❜