I leave for months on end and come back to almost 200 followers? bless! i should explain my absence, along with whatâs been going on in my life, and some other things, so if you donât care about this sort of stuff, feel free to ignore! talks of shipping discourse, alcohol, and depression below the cut in case those topics are not ones you want to read about
hello, friends, and if youâve decided to keep on reading, thats very kind of you. now youâre probably thinking âincorrect quotes, where have you been?!â and boy oh boy do i have a long fucking story for you. SO WHERE TO BEGIN?? well, the beginning, obviously. im pretty sure by now everyone has realized that this is a side blog. ive stated it a few times that it is, but iâve never revealed myself because i guess... reasons? well, anyway, cats out of the bag that im @hipster-hazy so jot that down. if you donât follow that blog, (or if you do and simply forgot/donât remember) i ran into a bit of a problem with a certain fandom a few months ago over shipping something with a large age gap where the younger person was 20/21 years old so i saw no problem with it, especially since i was 17 when i got into a relationship with a man 10 years older than me and have actively gone for partners much, much older than me, i have made it obvious on that blog that i ship large age gap relationships, and support large age gap relationships when the younger person is aged up to 18 years of age or is already over 18 (i mean i ship mac/billy for christâs sake and look at how large their age difference is! i think, if itâs in a modern au, it would be the same age difference as these characters that I was shipping anyway weâre just about to move away from this subject). I was never active much on this blog anyway because i only produced content when something was absolutely fucking hilarious and hadnât been done before by anyone in the fandom. so, yeah. and then there, of course, is college. it was really rough this last year. i droped out of being a music ed major because i fucking hate kids. i also had a bit of an alcohol problem during the fall semester because i had broken up with michelangelo, again (you can look under his tag on my main blog to know who im talking about), and just about slept with anyone that looked at me because, well, i dont cope with depression in a normal human way (this also led to several messy almost relationships that i sabotaged because i had meltdowns all the time). i also dropped out of all my classes except one. so, spring semester was messy still, but wasnt quite as bad as fall semester (i managed to stay in 3 classes).  i got into the musical theatre program at my current college, which i know is the best thing for me to be doing with my time instead of just wasting away lmao. my younger brother noah is going off into the navy in the next few weeks and im scared and sad to see him go. so, whats going to happen to this blog? well, im not quite sure. im still extremely attached to this blog, and to this fandom despite not being active in it anymore. i felt pride knowing that i was (probably) the only OG SINF fandom member left from way back when we were all only on deviant art lmao. i would love if i could get into the fandom again on my new main blog, but thats... just such a risky move because i dont wanna be attacked for shipping things, you feel? and im probably the only one that even remembers it, but its just made me very wary about what i post about shipping wise on tumblr. i would love to interact with you, the fandom again, because i miss  you all so much and how we used to interact. there is a possibility ill delete this blog to move it as a side blog onto my new tumblr (if you want to follow that, please send me a private message so i can tell you what my new main blog is, since ive liked a few things from that blog recently). so, ill leave this here for a few days, stay logged in on hipster-hazy longer than i have in months, before i move this blog over. i appreciate everyone that has followed me and interacted with me in this fandom. this isnât goodbye