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julesvarley:

freddiemaxwell:

“Would it be extremely cheesy to say ‘your worst nightmare’? ‘Cause I am THAT lame…” Winnifred replied, dropping the rest of her bags she was carrying on the ground just so she could return the embrace just as tightly. “You think? I guess I’ve got to thank the gloomy weather for making me twice as radiant as the Sun back there – thank you!” Great joke there, Fred; she eventually replied, slowly backing away to make some more room for India to join in the hug. If there was one thing she definitely missed about being back here, it would have to be this. Being so close with the girls she admired and could call friends was truly something else. Something so amazing, it kept making her stomach turn and cheeks warm up at the mere thought of how caring and loving they were, even after her fuck up of the century. Was it safe to assume everyone was over it already? Freddie couldn’t really tell, but she’d keep hoping for the best, really.

“— mum threw away half of my closet ‘cause it had holes, and I sorta needed t’get some new clothes, you know,” the blonde quipped, “That, and I got myself a new foundation – looks good, doesn’t it?” Stepping back once again, she laughed and nodded in the direction of their flat. “Shall we just… come in now, or is there someone else out here I should hug the living shit out of, too?”

Jules rolled her eyes and chuckled slightly, shaking her head. “I want to kill you just for that stupid joke, but I’m not even going to let it hit yet. You’re in no way a nightmare, not looking like this. You look really good, Fred.” It wasn’t like she didn’t before. The new look was definitely a surprise, a good one. But despite the obvious change, she looked amazing. She was different. She seemed happy, healthy, and still just as beautiful as before. It was in no way a nightmare, but it definitely felt like some kind of dream. As India joined, Jules let out a deep breath. It felt like a sigh of relief, knowing that Winnifred was back, but definitely knew that it was heavier than that. She had this secret, this lie weighing on her. She wasn’t ready to tell Fred yet but knew it had to happen soon, or she’d be the biggest hypocrite ever. Not that she already wasn’t. She pulled back and smiled at the girl, nodding her head. “I think a little re-bonding shopping trip is something we could all do. Anything to spend time with you again.” She stepped back and pulled India with her, letting the door space be emptied again for Fred to take the step in. She sighed again and followed both girls in, shutting the door behind her. “It’s only been a little bit but feels like years. I feel like I need to start making a huge dinner and let you sleep for ages, care for your every need. Not that I am, or would I let you sleep without hanging out for a bit, but still.”

India stayed quiet, a small feeling of guilt eating its way through her stomach. As happy as she was that Fred was back, she couldn’t help but feel like she had betrayed their friendship a little. As she moved back inside, she couldn’t help but snort at Jules. “Alright, alright, let the girl breathe!” She chuckled, shaking her head as she went back to throw herself onto the sofa. “So, you left your mum only to come back to Jules deciding to act like her too.” She teased, as she lifted her legs up, resting her chin on her knees. “So, what else did you get up to while you were so busy missing us?” She asked, smiling, trying to make everything seem normal again.

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julesvarley:

freddiemaxwell:

Turns out that Fred didn’t even need a friend to pick her up from the airport – her mother took care of it and frankly, she couldn’t be any happier about. Because, let’s be real, what’s better than being dropped off right at your doorstep, with all your belongings being carried by your personal driver at the time? Nothing, that’s for sure. Once Winnifred thanked the man and told him she’ll take care of everything else, she then knocked on the door. Sure, she could’ve used her key, but what’s the point of it if all she wanted was to surprise her friends? As if the new hair, a rather new style and new, better attitude towards everything wasn’t enough – Fred just liked to go big. She wouldn’t be herself if she didn’t pull shit like that, after all.

Cuddled up to India, Jules knew that Fred was supposed to be home any time soon. It only really made anxiety bundle up in her chest as she thought about what was to come. Her ex-girlfriend, also known as best friend number one, was coming back to this… thing between her and India, best friend number two. It just made it all worse to think about the real reason Winnifred left in the first place was because she hurt Jules by not telling her about her own relationship with India after she and Jules broke up. Jules blinked tightly and took in a deep breath. Trying to put all of those pieces together in her head was insanely hard and that was from someone that knew exactly what was going on. Tightening her grip around India’s waist, she rested her head onto her shoulder and sighed. “I’m excited for her to be back but it’s also going to be so difficult. She didn’t tell either of us about what happened and it hurt us and now I don’t know if I want to tell her about what’s going on between us despite the fact that it’s the same exact situation and it’ll hurt her too. It’ll hurt her either way. We don’t tell her, we’re hypocrites. We do tell her and she realizes her ex-girlfriend and her ex… fuck buddy, I guess, are doing…” Motioning to the two of them, Jules sighed again, letting out a groan at the end. “This.” Hearing a knock on the door, she furrowed her eyebrows and looked towards it. Surely it wasn’t Fred, the girl would have used her key. “I’ll get it.” Standing up, Jules leaned in to kiss India softly, knowing that they might not be able to get as many in once Fred gets back and it would be best to get as much as they can now. Walking to the door, she opened it up, eyes going wide at the sight in front of her. “Who are you?” Cracking a smile, her confusion and feelings from earlier disappeared. Just seeing Fred again made her feel extremely happy, even if it would only last for a bit. “You look great, oh my god.” Wrapping her arms around Fred in a tight hug, she pulled her as close as possible. “India!” She called, not wanting to let go of her best friend long enough to let her come inside. Might as well bring India to them, right?

India had been trying her best to ignore the lingering feelings she had for Fred. She had been too busy trying to focus on whatever was going on with Jules. Realistically, she should hae though harder about it all, so that she wouldn’t currently be sat in silence looking probably a bit like an idiot. She knew Jules was right, and there was no way they could go without telling her, ot without being the worst friends in the world. She sighed with a nod. “Yeah, we should tell her.” Before she could continue that thought, not that there was much of it, the knock at the door caused her brow to furrow. She wasn’t expecting anyone. Not putting up a resistance to Jules getting the door, she sat further back on the couch, sighing. She frowned again as she heard her name, confusion quickly turning into a grin as soon as she spotted Fred. Throwing herself at the two of them she joined in the hug, everything else forgotten momentarily, as she just was happy to have the gang back together. “Something is different about you but I can’t quite put my finger on it.” She teased, moving back an inch.

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julesvarley:

Jules sighed in relief, glad that neither of them had that idea in mind. The last thing she’d want to do was hurt either of them. She’d been hurt enough, she wouldn’t want to put anyone through a heartbreak, despite what they did to her. “Good,” she whispered, biting her lip to hold back a smile. However, as soon as she was going to show that smile, and how happy she actually was, India’s words made her eyes narrow and her smile completely drop. “And then you say shit like that.” She laughed at it, not really effected by it. Jules was kind of on cloud nine right now. Her eyes fluttered shut at the nose kiss, only to open back up with the complete urge to kiss her again. “We don’t have to watch the movie, right? Haven’t we both seen it already?” Jules smirked, leaning back in to connect their lips in another kiss.

India grinned. “Can’t expect me to change a lifetime of habit and be appropriate right now, please.” She joked. Her eyebrow raised, she shook her head. “I can think of something I’d rather be doing right now, fuck the movie.” She closed her eyes as they kissed again, this time deepening it. The night hadn’t been some move to get here, she hadn’t suggested a film for this purpose, but there were no regrets to how the night had gone. She was vaguely aware of how messy this would all feel in the morning, and yet, she didn’t care enough to stop. She only cared about the way Jules felt pressed up against her, only cared about here and now.

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julesvarley:

Jules hadn’t wanted the kiss to end at all, which was a bad thing. Or so she thought. Assumed, really. Constantly having her ex on her mind, yet she was sitting here, kissing her best friend. Their best friend. But what could she really do? Fred had probably expected her to move on, just not with India. Pulling away from the kiss, she chuckled at her words. Jules sighed, realizing that this is exactly what Fred had done to her and she didn’t want India to think it was something to stab her in the back. “New, but not bad. I, uh, I liked it. And did it completely on my own. I’m not trying to hurt either you or Winnifred by doing that. I… Wanted to kiss you, actually.”

India nodded as Jules spoke. She knew her best friend too well that she never expected it to be some kind of revenge at Fred. She knew she would never do anything to hurt either of them. “I really wanted to kiss you too.” She admitted, the jokes about everyone wanting to kiss her dying in the back of her throat. It was not appropriate right now. “The circle is officially complete.” She couldn’t resist that joke, her lips pulling up at one side. “Clearly this friendship group has issues.” She pressed a kiss on Jules, this time on the tip of her nose, to let her know that she didn’t mean it. It was just her way of dealing with the even more awkward situation they had gotten themselves into.

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julesvarley:

Was it wrong that the kiss was exactly what Jules had wanted? Probably. Most likely. But she couldn’t bring herself to stop or feel any other kind of way. Since everything that happened between the three, and Fred had left, India had been the one there for her. The one that would be home late but would always call and offer to pick up some food. The one that could comfort her when she could definitely tell that Jules wasn’t feeling herself. India was just there. This wasn’t just some quick replacement feeling though. She didn’t see the girl as someone just there to patch up the holes left by Winnifred. She was more than that. India was the kind of person Jules was definitely that person for her right now. Her person. Kissing her back immediately, she tightened the grip on her waist, more holding her rather than her hands simply resting. She didn’t want to stop.

As they kissed, India couldn’t stop her mind from working overtime. Was this all just their emotions running wild, and this was the way they manifested? She knew how much the situation with Fred had upset Jules. She was starting to realise just how much she felt for Fred too. It was true, absence did make the heart grow fonder. And yet, she felt like this was just so right. Jules had been a constant in her life for so long. No matter what, she knew she could rely on her. She ignored the little voice in the back of her head that told her that this was just going to mess things up even more, instead she silenced it with a quiet moan. She let herself enjoy the kiss a little longer, and even as she moved back, she rested her forehead on the other woman’s. “Okay, that was new.” She let out a small laugh, her hands moving to play with the hair at the nape of Jules’ neck.

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julesvarley:

“Clearly,” Jules smirked her hands sliding from India’s neck to more comfortably wrap around it. As they held each other close and locked gazes, she suddenly felt more than just a playful aura. She no longer felt the need to banter with the girl. There was no doubt that she had been attracted to her friend for a while now, but finally being in a situation like this, she knew that it wasn’t just physical attraction. “You don’t have to,” her voice was low as her eyes searched India’s for any hesitance or regret.

India felt her heart race. This was definitely not the plan. Was it possible to be attracted to two of your closest friends at the same time? She bit her lip, her eyes trained on Jules. “Okay.” She murmured, making no attempt to move back to her original position. In fact, she tightened the grip on the other girl’s legs, with her own. Before she could overthink it, she bent down, lowering her mouth onto Jules’. The kiss was soft and gentle, and managed to feel so wrong and so right, at the same time. Her mind all but shut down, forgetting all the drama, ignoring that this was most definitely not going to lessen the tangled web of affairs that they were already caught up in.

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julesvarley:

“Well, that’s not needed.” Jules smirked, enjoying each and every compliment she received from India, despite her multiple attempts to get her to stop. Her smirk only grew as the girl spoke once more. “Oh so you’re not just hitting on me… You’re actually flirting with me. Hm.” She’d calmly winked, only to be moved about with India. “What a compromising position…” Jules’ voice trailed off a bit as she reached up to place her hands on India’s neck. “Nice move.”

“What can I say? I have a lot of game.” She joked. India had no idea where this was coming from. Tonight was originally going to be a way to bring comfort to one of her best friends, who was going through a lot right now, and that somehow had turned into her very openly flirting with her, and now sitting on Jules. She couldn’t even blame alcohol, she hadn’t even had a full beer. No, this was all very much her. “I should probably take my own advice and watch the film.” She whispered, making no effort whatsoever to actually move. Instead, she stayed in place, her eyes never leaving Jules’.

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julesvarley:

“Well, now it’s not pretty good because you said that. Way to go, idiot. Now it’s a terrible save.” She laughed her eyes closing at the kiss on her forehead. Jules honestly just wanted to close her eyes and lay there for awhile. India holding her close with nothing but the movie playing in the background. But she knew that that’s a bit out of reach. “Is there ever gonna be a time when you’re not hitting on me?” Jules joked, looking up to India, refusing to do just what she told her to do. She moved away slightly, a smirk forming on her lips. “What are you gonna do about it if I do move, hm?”

“I can stop hitting on you anytime you want me to.” India offered with a smirk. Her eyebrow creeped up as Jules questioned her. “Now you’re just asking me to flirt with you even more.” She teased back, an idea quickly forming in her head. She moved, so that she was no longer wrapped up with Jules, instead swinging her leg over the other girl, basically just straddling her. “Now you can’t move.” She grinned triumphantly. She didn’t say it was a good idea. “Checkmate.” She giggled, her hands falling to rest on the other woman’s waist, the movie suddenly forgotten about.

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India ⇋ Fred

Fred: how am i pushing it when it's just the truth

India: now you're just making me blush and stop it

#text #text: fred

julesvarley:

“Sorry,” Jules laughed, shrugging her shoulders. “You’re doing it to yourself, India.” Obviously she wouldn’t let go again. If she had, it’d last about two seconds before catching herself latching onto to her best friend again. Rolling her eyes, she prepared to to just what she told herself she wouldn’t be able to do before smirking once more, leaning into the girl. “Nice save.” Her laugh was quiet as she turned her attention away from the movie and looked up to India with a small smile.

India just grinned at Jules. “Thanks, I thought it was pretty good.” She pressed a soft kiss to her friend’s head, the grin settling into a smile. “You are hot though, like hot damn.” It was said with a teasing voice, however her words had complete truth in them. “Now, don’t move and pay attention to the film.” She fake threatened, relaxing once more.