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freddiemaxwell:

indiacarson:

India had been trying her best to ignore the lingering feelings she had for Fred. She had been too busy trying to focus on whatever was going on with Jules. Realistically, she should hae though harder about it all, so that she wouldn’t currently be sat in silence looking probably a bit like an idiot. She knew Jules was right, and there was no way they could go without telling her, ot without being the worst friends in the world. She sighed with a nod. “Yeah, we should tell her.” Before she could continue that thought, not that there was much of it, the knock at the door caused her brow to furrow. She wasn’t expecting anyone. Not putting up a resistance to Jules getting the door, she sat further back on the couch, sighing. She frowned again as she heard her name, confusion quickly turning into a grin as soon as she spotted Fred. Throwing herself at the two of them she joined in the hug, everything else forgotten momentarily, as she just was happy to have the gang back together. “Something is different about you but I can’t quite put my finger on it.” She teased, moving back an inch.

“Would it be extremely cheesy to say ‘your worst nightmare’? ‘Cause I am THAT lame…” Winnifred replied, dropping the rest of her bags she was carrying on the ground just so she could return the embrace just as tightly. “You think? I guess I’ve got to thank the gloomy weather for making me twice as radiant as the Sun back there – thank you!” Great joke there, Fred; she eventually replied, slowly backing away to make some more room for India to join in the hug. If there was one thing she definitely missed about being back here, it would have to be this. Being so close with the girls she admired and could call friends was truly something else. Something so amazing, it kept making her stomach turn and cheeks warm up at the mere thought of how caring and loving they were, even after her fuck up of the century. Was it safe to assume everyone was over it already? Freddie couldn’t really tell, but she’d keep hoping for the best, really.

“— mum threw away half of my closet ‘cause it had holes, and I sorta needed t’get some new clothes, you know,” the blonde quipped, “That, and I got myself a new foundation – looks good, doesn’t it?” Stepping back once again, she laughed and nodded in the direction of their flat. “Shall we just… come in now, or is there someone else out here I should hug the living shit out of, too?”

Jules rolled her eyes and chuckled slightly, shaking her head. “I want to kill you just for that stupid joke, but I’m not even going to let it hit yet. You’re in no way a nightmare, not looking like this. You look really good, Fred.” It wasn’t like she didn’t before. The new look was definitely a surprise, a good one. But despite the obvious change, she looked amazing. She was different. She seemed happy, healthy, and still just as beautiful as before. It was in no way a nightmare, but it definitely felt like some kind of dream. As India joined, Jules let out a deep breath. It felt like a sigh of relief, knowing that Winnifred was back, but definitely knew that it was heavier than that. She had this secret, this lie weighing on her. She wasn’t ready to tell Fred yet but knew it had to happen soon, or she’d be the biggest hypocrite ever. Not that she already wasn’t. She pulled back and smiled at the girl, nodding her head. “I think a little re-bonding shopping trip is something we could all do. Anything to spend time with you again.” She stepped back and pulled India with her, letting the door space be emptied again for Fred to take the step in. She sighed again and followed both girls in, shutting the door behind her. “It’s only been a little bit but feels like years. I feel like I need to start making a huge dinner and let you sleep for ages, care for your every need. Not that I am, or would I let you sleep without hanging out for a bit, but still.”

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freddiemaxwell:

Turns out that Fred didn’t even need a friend to pick her up from the airport – her mother took care of it and frankly, she couldn’t be any happier about. Because, let’s be real, what’s better than being dropped off right at your doorstep, with all your belongings being carried by your personal driver at the time? Nothing, that’s for sure. Once Winnifred thanked the man and told him she’ll take care of everything else, she then knocked on the door. Sure, she could’ve used her key, but what’s the point of it if all she wanted was to surprise her friends? As if the new hair, a rather new style and new, better attitude towards everything wasn’t enough – Fred just liked to go big. She wouldn’t be herself if she didn’t pull shit like that, after all.

Cuddled up to India, Jules knew that Fred was supposed to be home any time soon. It only really made anxiety bundle up in her chest as she thought about what was to come. Her ex-girlfriend, also known as best friend number one, was coming back to this... thing between her and India, best friend number two. It just made it all worse to think about the real reason Winnifred left in the first place was because she hurt Jules by not telling her about her own relationship with India after she and Jules broke up. Jules blinked tightly and took in a deep breath. Trying to put all of those pieces together in her head was insanely hard and that was from someone that knew exactly what was going on. Tightening her grip around India’s waist, she rested her head onto her shoulder and sighed. “I’m excited for her to be back but it’s also going to be so difficult. She didn’t tell either of us about what happened and it hurt us and now I don’t know if I want to tell her about what’s going on between us despite the fact that it’s the same exact situation and it’ll hurt her too. It’ll hurt her either way. We don’t tell her, we’re hypocrites. We do tell her and she realizes her ex-girlfriend and her ex... fuck buddy, I guess, are doing...” Motioning to the two of them, Jules sighed again, letting out a groan at the end. “This.” Hearing a knock on the door, she furrowed her eyebrows and looked towards it. Surely it wasn’t Fred, the girl would have used her key. “I’ll get it.” Standing up, Jules leaned in to kiss India softly, knowing that they might not be able to get as many in once Fred gets back and it would be best to get as much as they can now. Walking to the door, she opened it up, eyes going wide at the sight in front of her. “Who are you?” Cracking a smile, her confusion and feelings from earlier disappeared. Just seeing Fred again made her feel extremely happy, even if it would only last for a bit. “You look great, oh my god.” Wrapping her arms around Fred in a tight hug, she pulled her as close as possible. “India!” She called, not wanting to let go of her best friend long enough to let her come inside. Might as well bring India to them, right?

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indiacarson:

India grinned. “Can’t expect me to change a lifetime of habit and be appropriate right now, please.” She joked. Her eyebrow raised, she shook her head. “I can think of something I’d rather be doing right now, fuck the movie.” She closed her eyes as they kissed again, this time deepening it. The night hadn’t been some move to get here, she hadn’t suggested a film for this purpose, but there were no regrets to how the night had gone. She was vaguely aware of how messy this would all feel in the morning, and yet, she didn’t care enough to stop. She only cared about the way Jules felt pressed up against her, only cared about here and now.

Jules laughed quietly as India spoke, feeling the same way. Who cared about the movie when she was sitting under a beautiful girl that was willing to stay there and kiss her for a while? Even if it did feel wrong, Jules knew that it just had to be right. They’d both been hurt and were finally led to each other, despite always being together. It was a thing she was beginning to accept. Not as fate, but definitely close to it. She pulled India’s body in, wanting to feel everything from her touch to her body heat. She deepened the kiss and smiled within, honestly very happy in the moment.

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indiacarson:

India nodded as Jules spoke. She knew her best friend too well that she never expected it to be some kind of revenge at Fred. She knew she would never do anything to hurt either of them. “I really wanted to kiss you too.” She admitted, the jokes about everyone wanting to kiss her dying in the back of her throat. It was not appropriate right now. “The circle is officially complete.” She couldn’t resist that joke, her lips pulling up at one side. “Clearly this friendship group has issues.” She pressed a kiss on Jules, this time on the tip of her nose, to let her know that she didn’t mean it. It was just her way of dealing with the even more awkward situation they had gotten themselves into.

Jules sighed in relief, glad that neither of them had that idea in mind. The last thing she’d want to do was hurt either of them. She’d been hurt enough, she wouldn’t want to put anyone through a heartbreak, despite what they did to her. “Good,” she whispered, biting her lip to hold back a smile. However, as soon as she was going to show that smile, and how happy she actually was, India’s words made her eyes narrow and her smile completely drop. “And then you say shit like that.” She laughed at it, not really effected by it. Jules was kind of on cloud nine right now. Her eyes fluttered shut at the nose kiss, only to open back up with the complete urge to kiss her again. “We don’t have to watch the movie, right? Haven’t we both seen it already?” Jules smirked, leaning back in to connect their lips in another kiss.

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indiacarson:

As they kissed, India couldn’t stop her mind from working overtime. Was this all just their emotions running wild, and this was the way they manifested? She knew how much the situation with Fred had upset Jules. She was starting to realise just how much she felt for Fred too. It was true, absence did make the heart grow fonder. And yet, she felt like this was just so right. Jules had been a constant in her life for so long. No matter what, she knew she could rely on her. She ignored the little voice in the back of her head that told her that this was just going to mess things up even more, instead she silenced it with a quiet moan. She let herself enjoy the kiss a little longer, and even as she moved back, she rested her forehead on the other woman’s. “Okay, that was new.” She let out a small laugh, her hands moving to play with the hair at the nape of Jules’ neck.

Jules hadn’t wanted the kiss to end at all, which was a bad thing. Or so she thought. Assumed, really. Constantly having her ex on her mind, yet she was sitting here, kissing her best friend. Their best friend. But what could she really do? Fred had probably expected her to move on, just not with India. Pulling away from the kiss, she chuckled at her words. Jules sighed, realizing that this is exactly what Fred had done to her and she didn’t want India to think it was something to stab her in the back. “New, but not bad. I, uh, I liked it. And did it completely on my own. I’m not trying to hurt either you or Winnifred by doing that. I… Wanted to kiss you, actually.”

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indiacarson:

India felt her heart race. This was definitely not the plan. Was it possible to be attracted to two of your closest friends at the same time? She bit her lip, her eyes trained on Jules. “Okay.” She murmured, making no attempt to move back to her original position. In fact, she tightened the grip on the other girl’s legs, with her own. Before she could overthink it, she bent down, lowering her mouth onto Jules’. The kiss was soft and gentle, and managed to feel so wrong and so right, at the same time. Her mind all but shut down, forgetting all the drama, ignoring that this was most definitely not going to lessen the tangled web of affairs that they were already caught up in.

Was it wrong that the kiss was exactly what Jules had wanted? Probably. Most likely. But she couldn’t bring herself to stop or feel any other kind of way. Since everything that happened between the three, and Fred had left, India had been the one there for her. The one that would be home late but would always call and offer to pick up some food. The one that could comfort her when she could definitely tell that Jules wasn’t feeling herself. India was just there. This wasn’t just some quick replacement feeling though. She didn’t see the girl as someone just there to patch up the holes left by Winnifred. She was more than that. India was the kind of person Jules was definitely that person for her right now. Her person. Kissing her back immediately, she tightened the grip on her waist, more holding her rather than her hands simply resting. She didn’t want to stop.

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indiacarson:

“What can I say? I have a lot of game.” She joked. India had no idea where this was coming from. Tonight was originally going to be a way to bring comfort to one of her best friends, who was going through a lot right now, and that somehow had turned into her very openly flirting with her, and now sitting on Jules. She couldn’t even blame alcohol, she hadn’t even had a full beer. No, this was all very much her. “I should probably take my own advice and watch the film.” She whispered, making no effort whatsoever to actually move. Instead, she stayed in place, her eyes never leaving Jules’.

“Clearly,” Jules smirked her hands sliding from India’s neck to more comfortably wrap around it. As they held each other close and locked gazes, she suddenly felt more than just a playful aura. She no longer felt the need to banter with the girl. There was no doubt that she had been attracted to her friend for a while now, but finally being in a situation like this, she knew that it wasn’t just physical attraction. “You don’t have to,” her voice was low as her eyes searched India’s for any hesitance or regret.

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indiacarson:

“I can stop hitting on you anytime you want me to.” India offered with a smirk. Her eyebrow creeped up as Jules questioned her. “Now you’re just asking me to flirt with you even more.” She teased back, an idea quickly forming in her head. She moved, so that she was no longer wrapped up with Jules, instead swinging her leg over the other girl, basically just straddling her. “Now you can’t move.” She grinned triumphantly. She didn’t say it was a good idea. “Checkmate.” She giggled, her hands falling to rest on the other woman’s waist, the movie suddenly forgotten about.

“Well, that’s not needed.” Jules smirked, enjoying each and every compliment she received from India, despite her multiple attempts to get her to stop. Her smirk only grew as the girl spoke once more. “Oh so you’re not just hitting on me... You’re actually flirting with me. Hm.” She’d calmly winked, only to be moved about with India. “What a compromising position...” Jules’ voice trailed off a bit as she reached up to place her hands on India’s neck. “Nice move.”

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indiacarson:

India just grinned at Jules. “Thanks, I thought it was pretty good.” She pressed a soft kiss to her friend’s head, the grin settling into a smile. “You are hot though, like hot damn.” It was said with a teasing voice, however her words had complete truth in them. “Now, don’t move and pay attention to the film.” She fake threatened, relaxing once more.

“Well, now it’s not pretty good because you said that. Way to go, idiot. Now it’s a terrible save.” She laughed her eyes closing at the kiss on her forehead. Jules honestly just wanted to close her eyes and lay there for awhile. India holding her close with nothing but the movie playing in the background. But she knew that that’s a bit out of reach. “Is there ever gonna be a time when you’re not hitting on me?” Jules joked, looking up to India, refusing to do just what she told her to do. She moved away slightly, a smirk forming on her lips. “What are you gonna do about it if I do move, hm?”

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indiacarson:

“Don’t even joke about it.” India playfully threatened back, her grip tightening even further. With a smirk, she looked down at Jules. “Well, maybe they are cold…” She raised her eyebrow. “That just proves further just how hot I am.” She knew it would probably earn her an eye roll, but she couldn’t help the teasing. She was hardly vain, but it was always fun to joke about it. “Although, I suppose if that was the case, you should be burning hot too.” She mused, the compliment followed by a quick kiss to her friend’s forehead.

“Sorry,” Jules laughed, shrugging her shoulders. “You’re doing it to yourself, India.” Obviously she wouldn’t let go again. If she had, it’d last about two seconds before catching herself latching onto to her best friend again. Rolling her eyes, she prepared to to just what she told herself she wouldn’t be able to do before smirking once more, leaning into the girl. “Nice save.” Her laugh was quiet as she turned her attention away from the movie and looked up to India with a small smile.

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indiacarson:

India grinned. “See, I know the best way to girls’ hearts, clearly.” The smile slipped slightly as she felt Jules’ lips nearly make contact with her own, it taking her by surprise. It was clear by the lack of reaction from Jules that it wasn’t intended, and so she shook the thoughts from her mind. The smile returned as they molded back together, India softening into her touch. Indie let out a sigh as she felt their skin connect, enjoying the feeling. “Thank god you don’t have cold hands.” She murmured, as if speaking any louder would cause the sudden peace she felt to break.

“Do you want me to move away again?” Jules asked, her eyebrows raised as a smirk began to form. “Because I can, and I will stay like three feet away from you the whole time.” She knew it was a lie, and was positive that India knew as well, but it was fun to threaten. The feeling of their bodies molding together so perfectly was beyond comforting to her. It was a feeling she didn’t want to rid. Not only was she enjoying how close they were, the contact of having someone she liked was enough to send her heart racing miles. “That’s a surprise. My hands are always cold.” Jules spoke, her volume matching – if not lower than – India’s. With a small smile, Jules looked back up at the blonde, resting her head on the girl’s shoulder, just watching her with a smile.  

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indiacarson:

India rubbed her hand across Jules’ waist, not missing the sigh, not wanting to offend her friend. She wanted them all to be able to move past it, but she knew it would be hard. They feelings her two friends had for each other had clearly ran deep, and she couldn’t help but feel like she had fucked it up. They may not have been together when India had slept with Fred, but she still felt guilty. As Jules moved away, India pouted, her eyes widening as she stared at her friend. “Come back.” She whined, trying to stop herself from laughing, playing up the pathetic act. “You’re the best cuddle partner.” She complimented, the grin appearing.

Jules laughed as India whined, nodded confidently. “Only because you’re begging me,” she laughed, crawling back over to cuddle into her arms. “And because you complimented me. Glad I can be a really nice cuddle partner. You’re pretty good too, you know?” She went back to her previous position, wrapping both of her arms around India’s body and looked up to the girl. “Even if you tend to be cocky,” she leaned up a bit, attempting to press a kiss to her cheek, only to get a little too close, her lips pressing to the corner of India’s lips. She didn’t exactly realize what she had done though. Sinking back into her comforting position, she sighed contently and held the girl tightly, her hand rubbing her side slowly, her fingertips gently slipping under her shirt to slide across her skin.

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indiacarson:

Snorting, India shook her head. “Nope, that’s your field of expertise.” Was it too soon to make such jokes? She wasn’t sure, but there was only one way to find out. It wasn’t like it would cause their friendship to be irreparable, they had pretty much proven already that nothing could break them apart. “How do you think I get all the girls? I’m just so charming.” She joked, even if it wasn’t all that near to the truth. She didn’t necessarily have trouble finding girls who were interested in her, but she rarely found anyone who spiked her own interest. She was told she was picky, she liked to think of it as selective.

Jules rolled her eyes and sighed. “Ow. You’re right, I guess.” She chuckled, ignoring the slight sting she felt as she was reminded of her relationship with Fred. She’d pretty much gotten over everything that happened, but the tiny things will always get her. Like just how much she had hurt India by not telling her about the relationship. She rolled her eyes again and removed her arm from the girl’s body, moving away from her completely. “That’s enough to get rid of me, bye India.” Jules said, scooting away so there was a nice sized gap in between them. 

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indiacarson:

India stuck her tongue out like a child. “Bore.” She thought it would make a great surprise, but she also knew that Jules was right. But she wouldn’t admit that bit. “I suppose it would be nice for the three of  us to do it together.” She mused, trying not to think too much about it, because doing so meant she would think about the fact that Fred wasn’t with them right now, and she didn’t want to do that, she didn’t want to bring her mood down. “No, but I do like seeing your smile so I’m going to continue to do it anyway.” She rolled her eyes, a content sigh leaving her at the contact. 

Jules raised her eyebrows and smiled softly. “I mean, do you want to deal with her?” She laughed, shrugging slightly, as if she was telling India to go ahead with it. “It would be very nice. Maybe we’ll end up with three. That’d be pretty great.” The thought of having more than one dog kind of sent Jules’ mind into a frenzy. She could barely balance a schedule between school and work. “Wow, back to the charmer, huh?” Jules giggled, turning her head up just a bit to reach and kiss her best friend’s cheek. “I like hearing it, so go ahead and do it anyway.” She closed her eyes, her body relaxing, despite wanting to watch the movie. She would... eventually. It was just too comfortable to be in this position and not just take a break for a second. 

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indiacarson:

“I can think of worse ways to spend the day.” She tempted. She would hardly say no to it, anyway. She had never been allowed a pet growing up, despite always asking for one. India nodded in agreement. “Sounds good to me.” She wasn’t sure how much attention she was going to pay anyway, she just needed something to stop her mind from working overtime. “It won’t? Then what is the point in me being nice to you then?” She joked back, her hand resting on Jules’ hip. “I may as well just stop now.” She grinned, her eyes falling onto the laptop.  She felt her body relax slightly more. She had been so tense for days, it was nice to just be able to relax with her best friend. 

Jules shook her head and gave a small laugh, knowing that it might not be the best idea. “As much as I want to, it may not be the best idea. I don’t think Fred would ever mind a dog, but I think she’d be a bit upset and surprised if she came back home and saw one and she didn’t get to pitch her opinion in to getting it and not being able to help out.” Jules tilted her head up just a bit to be able to look at India after she spoke just to make some eye contact, and dropped her gaze back down to look at the laptop. “I mean, you don’t have to...” She trailed off, situating her body a bit more, reaching an arm over to wrap around the girl’s body, full on cuddling her at this point.

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indiacarson:

“It was, mostly.” India grinned, before an idea struck her. “We should so get a puppy.” Was it a whim idea? Completely. But who didn’t want a dog around the house? “We can do whatever you want to do.” She offered with a smile. She knew everything was all a bit messed up right now, and she wanted to do all she could to keep the smile on Jules’ face. In the fort, she shrugged. “Clearly I’m just a sucker for a pretty face.” Well, that wasn’t a lie. She was fairly easy to win over when presented with a beautiful woman, and there was no denying that her best friend was, plus she had the added ammo that India loved her enough to let her get away with anything.

“Don’t say that to me because I will drag you to the shelter tomorrow to go adopt one. Don’t try me and don’t get my hopes up, India.” Jules challenged, raising her eyebrows. Her only excuse for the spur of the moment kind of idea would be that she’d never be alone anymore. That way she won’t bother the other two, as of now just the one, girls to come home when she got tired of being just by herself. “We liked that movie Hush, right? Let’s turn that on. I won’t mind watching it again. I would say we can go my normal route and turn on Hercules, but Netflix was a dick and took it off and now I’m far too comfortable to go get my DVD.” She joked, knowing full well that it wasn’t a movie that she’d force the girl to watch with her. “Ooh, flattery will get you nowhere, Ms. Carson.” Jules knelt up to reach over to her laptop to go to the website and turn on the movie she’d previously suggested just before laying back into India’s embrace, getting as comfortable as she could.

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indiacarson:

“It’s like having a puppy sometimes.” She teased, wrapping her arms around Jules. “I have no plans tomorrow, so we can just have a whole night and day together.” India promised as she moved back, grabbing a beer from the counter. Growing up she had spent a lot of her time alone, and so it was never a problem for her to spend hours with no-one, but she definitely preferred being with other. Specifically, one of her best friends. “Come on then, loser.” She smiled, taking Jules’ hand with her free one, dragging her over to the fort. She crawled into it, settling down into a comfortable position, holding out her arm for the other woman to sit with her. “I’ll even play with your hair, I’m just that nice a friend.” She grinned.

Jules smiled rested her head on India’s. “I’m gonna take that as a compliment. Puppies are cute.” There was no denying that Jules was a little clingy. She tried not to be too overbearing though. She just enjoyed having the company of the ones she loved. “A whole night and a whole day with you sounds about amazing,” she smiled, hopping down from the counter. Jules grabbed a few things with one hand and held on tightly to India’s with her free one. She followed the girl into the fort, settling beside her, cuddling on up. “Play with my hair? What did I do to get so lucky?” She laughed, setting a few things up before crawling over and using a blanket to close the entrance, making the fort darker inside.