What is there to know?

18/ Aquarius / questioning

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We talked

She almost never lied. Only one time did and I'm an asshole now. I feel like one anyhow. But my antidepressants are helping at least.

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So you can deal with a long distance with her, but not me.

You were incapable of one with me, it is one that is much shorter. Yet you can have one that has been over a distance and not seeing for three months now. How the fuck does that work. Fuck you bitch.

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I love the rain

[thevillainofthisstory]

Idk what the class before me was doing but I want in

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It's like my essay

[godsworms]

reblog if you feel disconnected from your body 90% of the time and refer to yourself in second person singular or first person plural

[rainbowdress]

Taylor Swift: is online

Me self reblogging:

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Same

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College is not as easy as I thought. Like, I wrote code for my programming class and now I'm like, what the hell does this loop do. Another time is my composition class, I literally wrote a causal argument essay on why dogs fetch. Seriously. This is my college life for you.

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Can someone help me understand gender?

How does it work?

Why is it not what's in your pants? Wouldn't just feeling like another gender really be just feeling that masculine or feminine? I really don't understand.

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A friend would be nice.

One online, never knowing in person. Probably. Just one to talk to.

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I am insecure

I need to be told everything is alright. I need to be held. Being a man makes both of these things seem like they are not necessary. Am I a man? I feel like a man, Chivalrous as well, but I do not understand why I do not have all the common man interests.  I hate sports, love musicals, enjoy ice skating. I know I am not gay since I dated a guy, we are good friends instead. What am I? 

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Not my first divorce

Mom and dad split up when I was twelve. I went with mom. First to my uncles, then to my mom's friend's house back where we left. Dad and my sibling moved a thousand miles away. It was hell but I made it through. Now I'm going through another with my mom and step dad. He's a nice guy and my mom is possibly over reacting. I want them both to stop bothering me with this pain. I managed but I need someone to hold on to. Mainly because I'm in college now, and I have nobody. Not even my ex, I was hoping she could help me since I helped her. Nope. I'm alone now. Completely. Dad does his best to help me, and mom is sorta there to talk, I'm just... I don't know anymore.

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I want to break free

I want to be released by these intrusive emotions that take me and harm me more than she ever did. Why did she do this to me? She could have told me. I want her gone. I tried apologizing, I tried to gain closure, I even tried mutilple vengeance attempts. Just why did she lie? I can handle the truth, more than anyone and she just won’t let me get that benefit. She told me she loved me and to never let her go, but I figured that went both ways. It hurts. I want to shoot her out of my head, Knock her out of my body, destroy any memory of her I have, but I can’t. That is just wanting attention. I don’t want attention. I want to break free.

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I apologize now

This is where I will let my emotions roll. Read if you want, report it if you need to, just let me break free from these emotions I do not understand.