Hi guys

My name is I really like girls and space and math

[ineffablelesbian-blog]

things I've learned the hard way, an ongoing journal

-they dont call you heartbroken for nothing. take time to heal -drink lots of water, always -hanger is a very real emotion, so keep others and yourself well-fed at all times -coffee is not a solution, but it sure as hell keeps the loneliness away -if you ask for a hug, chances are, you'll get one -buy bigger shirts. you can always shrink a large, and lots of soft cloth hugging your body can be therapeutic, if that's your thing -look up once in a while -look at others once in a while -sleep, you deserve the rest -crying in public is uncomfortable sometimes, but a true friend will always let you cry on them, make funny comments about how much snot you left on their shirt, and buy you dollar store crayons and iced tea -you're allowed to tell the story of someone you loved, as equal as you are allowed to keep it -do no harm, take no shit, and laugh so hard it hurts -black asphalt is always hotter than it first seems

[ineffablelesbian-blog]

Ode to a different time

There's always going to be times in your life when you feel like a person, real and living and breathing, more than a checklist of experiences or a timeline easily browsed or a walking label. On the other hand, there are far too many times when you are no more than a sideways glance or a misread pamphlet or a breath-away-from-death candle flame. It's fucking awful. But, take it from a no-good, young, inexperienced, brash and rash and equally awful teenager: you'll laugh when you look back on it all, and you'll do it again and again and again. You'll struggle and you'll shine and you'll smile at the thought of it. Just keep smiling, kid, and I promise you'll make it.

[ahsteria]

reblog if ur gay, tired or fUCKING LOVE SPACE

[ineffablelesbian-blog]

all of the above, honestly

[ineffablelesbian-blog]

things i wish i had told her

Every time I think of my first kiss, it gives me butterflies. It feels soft and powerful and right. The world stopped right then and there and every time I think of my first kiss, I think of you.

[angstyvibes-deactivated20190313]

my favorite way to hang out is so lowkey like u wanna watch reality tv all day in our sweats?? ok. wanna do homework n barely even talk except to complain about how much work it is?? ok. wanna read different books while sharing an entire tub of ice cream?? ok. going out is so much effort like sometimes u just wanna enjoy someone’s company without doing anything “special” and i think those are actually the most special times 

[ineffablelesbian-blog]

somebody put it into words

[ineffablelesbian-blog]

So I sometimes work at a coffee shop and

this other girl that works there talked to me a bunch, even though everyone told me she was shy and not very talkative? and she herself said it was the most somebody has talked with her in a while? and i don't know if I'm falling for her? or want to be her best friend? a novel

[ineffablelesbian-blog]

me, a weak soft butch: I must lift weights 24/7 to make my arms buff and the girls fall for me

me, five minutes after: *in tears* g-girls are into squishy arms, right?

[ineffablelesbian-blog]

the eternal battle

me: hey that was a really cool movie i watched with my friend, we laughed a lot, that was really fun, can we do that again? maybe we'll become good friends

also me: ahhh she's so pretty, mm, do i, do i wanna date her? do i want to become partners in crime with her? do i want to be her friend? do i want to overthrow the government with her? the world may never know

[80sgorl]

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[ineffablelesbian-blog]

ah so many pretty girls, thank you @80sgorl for your beautiful everything and arguably the best hat ever

[popokko-deactivated20210315]

reblog if ur gay and u don't go to bed on time

[ineffablelesbian-blog]

*blinks, looks at clock* how does 10:30pm turn into 1:30am???

[ineffablelesbian-blog]

useless in general

Friend (calling me from a party): "Heyyy you know ______ ? Yeahh she's hella gay and single and you guys need to meet up, here she is."

Girl (who is very out of it): *talks and mentions goldfish and a dream and cannibalism, i wasn't really paying attention*

Me (not paying attention): "Uh, thats awesome, I guess."

Girl: "What do you mean??! That's not awesome, my goldfish is dead!"

Me (now in extreme panic mode): "Uh I um thought you meant the uh crackers I gotta go-" *hangs up*

[ineffablelesbian-blog]

gay things i think about a lot

it's cold outside, for once. i'm wrapped around my pillow tonight, comforted by the weight of the blankets on top of me, but i wish it were you. oh, if only it were you. i'd press up against you as tight as i could, never letting go, keeping you warm, and keeping me sane, my legs mixed with yours and my arms keeping me locked against your chest. if you were just as restless as i were, i'd trace the curve of your cheeks and down to your collar bone, around your shoulders and back up again, to make sure you were there, that you were real, that you knew i was there too. my fingers almost twitch at the thought, but when my eyes open you are not there, you never were there, and it's just me and my pillow and my blankets. it's cold, and i miss you so much, even if we've never met. i always open my eyes when i miss you, and one day, maybe you'll be there.

[funkylittlelesbean]

reblog if you, too, are a funky little lesbian

[ineffablelesbian-blog]

the only thing I might not be is little because I am BIG and TALL and I will FIGHT if you say I’m only 5'5" again

[funkylittlelesbean]

you’re such a fucking valid lesbian

[ineffablelesbian-blog]

blessed be you by lesbian jesus and all that is gay, thank you

[funkylittlelesbean]

reblog if you, too, are a funky little lesbian

[ineffablelesbian-blog]

the only thing I might not be is little because I am BIG and TALL and I will FIGHT if you say I'm only 5'5" again

[ineffablelesbian-blog]

Favorite Convo of the Day

Me: “I kinda want to have a girlfriend and not have a girlfriend, y'know? Because I get lonely and they’re all so pretty but I don’t want to love someone if all I’m going to end up doing is hurting them. Like, it took me so long to realize my ex cared about me. When I was sad about the breakup, I never really realized that she loved me, that somebody loved me, and they were hurt by it too."

Teacher: “(My Name), you’re like a walking, bleeding, angsty teenage heart.” Me: “True.”

[ineffablelesbian-blog]

Just something to think about

everyone has their person

there’s a boy i know that’ll always give you a hug every morning because he notices the lingering bags under you eyes and the coffee in your hand and the panic hidden in the back of your eyes there’s a girl i knew that would make you feel more tired than you’ve ever been, not because she’s exhausting, but because her heart feels like a lullaby and her body is soft and warm and you have been lonely for far too long there’s a child in my neighborhood that’ll make you laugh no matter what, because they look up to you, and always want to impress you, and that smile is worth the world to them

there are people every day that you will meet who will bring out something in you that you never knew existed. you may forget them, but please, don’t forget that each one made you a little more vulnerable and a little less sad and that’s okay. it’s human. go be human, be vulnerable and be sad and happy and everything poetic in between and no matter how many times you feel like it’s not worth it, there will always be your person waiting just around the corner to meet you.

[fluorescent-gay-deactivated2020]

So on a scale of golf to ice skating how gay are you?

[ineffablelesbian-blog]

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